Friday, November 22, 2013

the cigarette

just went out into a cold north wind

to smoke a little of a cigarette

haven't looked into the relationship for a while


started smoking when i was pretty young

almost all the grownups did

which is what we called the big people in charge


the next step was when i wanted to look cool

like those i seems to admire in some way

which at this point in time i see as some sort of envy

something they had that i wanted too

and i still don't know what that was


probably some sort of acceptance

just trying to fit in and seem normal

which was back when i thought normal was a real word


seems i was seeking something i lacked

there was something i wanted


i have no idea what that was


maybe i just felt alone

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