love

a willingness to share an experience

with those we are a part of

without prejudice or the desire for personal gain

which are just selfish greedy goals

which lead only to isolation and great anguish


we are a product of all that is

which is what we actually are

for better or for worse

as we choose

until we grow up and give up choosing

which always leads to limitation


exclusiveness is a lonely place to be

and most certainly not natural

i spoke to a girl this evening

she thought the outside forces were putting pressure on her

actually it was her response to the outside forces

that was putting the pressure on her


she was the source of her discomfort

and therefore the source of her peace


others actually have very little influence on us

unless we choose to blame them for our situation

and then we are really fucked



making love is something that appeals to me

fucking not so much anymore

when i was younger

when i was younger

i believed that those that were the most able

were probably the oldest and the wisest


but as this life unfolded

they turned out to be the most innocent

which made no sense to me for a while

and then became the greatist joke of all

that we have played on our self

and the innocents were once again sacred to me


those that acquire knowledge

have forgotten how to be

and no longer see the wonder of life

which is beyond all knowing


life is not something you get

life is all that we are

and we are complete within our self


we are all lifes gift to life

and there ain't no not


thinking is the dumbest idea we ever had

and awareness is not a product of thought

one thing i have learned

a prayer that does not include all of us

is not a real prayer at all

just a curse for a few


life is special to me

and life is all that is


being selective is the path to isolation

which is one reason i am no fan of religions

or politics

or big business

and a lot of other stuff we do


all is what we are

and i no longer seek a vote

am not qualified to choose what life should be

my only responsibility to my self is to be my self

as i can


peace and harmony to all beings

ideas

when i was younger

i had ideas of what i wanted to be

which was what i wished i was


it took a while for me to realize

that what i actually was

was the truest gift of all


that abstract stuff meant nothing to me in those times

but i no longer wish to be other that what life made me

is just gave up on what so many claim is important


so many claim we should make something of our self

for me our self is the truest gift of all

and all we will ever actually have

and all we can actually share


what we think we should be

is how we reject and abuse our self

pride

perhaps the cruelist affliction of all

zorba the greek

watched that movie today

most of it

have pretty much always liked anthony quinn


the movie was kind of hard to watch sometimes

but did not turn it off


maybe a clue for us ignorant humans

and there are so many of us


i feel lucky sometimes to still wonder

and i cry more than i did when is was younger

and still believed in being strong

and trying to change things

which is what got us here

as i see it

first

as long as there is a first

there will be a second

and then a third

and great division is now upon us

when once we were whole


zero seems to be the only real number to me

and most shy away from that situation in our time


no thing is what we are to me

yet this body of mine is still here

a form of isolation

sometimes not with a few girls

and a few others i call friend



to be my own friend took a little time

and all clocks are a lot slower than life

we would be better off without them

but the capitalist requires punctuality

or the machines will become confused and not work properly


we humans aren't machines

but mostly in our time we serve them

maintenance man was my title for a while

and a lot of other stuff for a while before then

some of them not so flattering

others

as soon as we came to believe in others

we were no longer whole


fractions and mathmatics are creations of the mouthy blind


science is the disease it claims to be the cure for

as is psychology

and religious beliefs

and capitalism

and consumerism (a creation of capitalism)

and logic


life sure as hell ain't logical

but at least it is orderly

and free to us all


and yet restricting life is so popular in our time

even required to get ahead

whatever that crap means

probably means get a head

and ignore the reality of all that actually is


if personal profit is the only goal

we are lost


personal may be the smallest word of all


and don't get personal is such a common requirement in our time


life is a pretty personal experience to me

and am so far a pretty small person

openness to all of my self has been not all that easy for me

but are willing as we can

on our better days

feet

our other hands

and not too respected in our time

mostly just abused and walked upon


shoes were probably one of our first mistakes

cold climates were our downfall

and our escape just led to no where to be


being is a real word to me

as is love


most other words are just crap we made up

and mostly just limit all in our now so small little minds


being is a very still word to me

and love a silent celebration

which is rarely made manifest in our time

and is also all that we really are


our great obsession with making life little

just makes no sense to me

even when i do such things myself


freedom is an interesting word

for those of us in our personal little prisons

and all th


i forgot what i was going to say

will maybe go to bed now

them

as soon as them becomes an accepted word

separation begins to be

and conflict and great suffering is upon the land

which is what i see today


all our fancy ideas are not making the world a better place


am not a fan of ideas

life can not be put in a bottle

life is all that is

and i can't imagine a bottle that great

and am not likely to seek one


one is an isolated place to be

and all must do it once


just used that it word again

we

a very small and ignorant word

unless speaking of all

sex

the greatest obsession of all for most people

including me

but no one ever talks about sex

except a few stand up comics


people rarely face their obsessions

if they did they wouldn't be obsessions anymore


to face your life is to lose it

and it is a pretty stupid word

and not much of a loss


them

the same as it

but a little more personal

just and abstraction in our brain thinkers

to keep us separate


perhaps a desire for some sort of purity

pasteurized and sterilize



religions claim to be big on that crap

but all that does is isolate us into little compartments

and then we argue

and often fight

over our stupid little ideas of what we should be

and how we should act


if that works

god must really be a dumb shit


and whoever came up with the idea of god

was even dumber


projecting our personal ideas of good and bad

what we like to call right and wrong

on all that is

seems pretty arrogant to me

and not very nice


life does not shackle its many selves

such situations have been created by misguided humans


life is sacred

and forever free of all restraint


love for all can know no restraint


love for only those that agree

can know nothing but restraint

and the great frustration that goes with that crap

and great violence and shame is upon the land

and we and our fellow creatures suffer greatly

just because we can't just be who we are

and let all others be who they are

and just deal with ourselves

and those we call them

my earth father lewis

the man who saved my life

by not telling me what to do

even when i wanted him to


i was named lewis jr.

but that's another story

hands

it sometimes appears to me that life is in the hands

and what we do with them


our ideas are mostly of little value

in spite of what the head people think

work

my father introduced me to work

more than once


i didn't take much to that stuff

and don't to this day


after a time i understood why he worked

it was to feed his family

of which i was a part


i still don't always much care for work

but mostly i do when its time to work

sleeping

some claimed to sleep like a baby

some claimed to sleep like a log

some found all this very confusing

those that had never slept at all

speaking of life

one cannot truthfully speak of life

without speaking from ones self

from ones individual and indivisible truth of our being

thanksgiving

thanks giving is only valid

if we also give thanks for our self

power

a very overestimated word

and the downfall of so many

both the strong and the weak


only life is qualified to sort that stuff out

comic books and lies

mostly what we have been raised on

so it seems

what is to become of us

remains to be seen


seems and seem are not the same

one is an idea

the other a wondering

rules and freedom

the rule of law

what so many seek to hide behind

and yet there is no freedom

behind the rule of law


most humans i have known

hide behind some rules they like

and break others they don't like so much


true freedom is without rules and laws

but out of control means danger to so many


without respect for life we are less than nothing

which is a pretty scary thought to me

here in this carnival i sometimes call my life

lost

lost is not an option

although so many try

often so very hard


and the trick question is

how can one find

what can never be lost

our tail

we all have a tale

the part of our past we drag around

probably for some sort of balance

but our tales are of little value

for life is forever now

getting to know me

there have been those that weren't so thrilled with that situation

i have been one of them from time to time

and i haven't forgotten those times

they are part of the balance for the rest of me

reports

perhaps my greatest affliction

but that remains to be seen


there are those that found them boring

at best


it didn't realizing i was just having fun

which means i wasn't really being

i was preforming for my self

which seems mostly pretty silly to me now

but not always


these are troubling times

and my job is to make fun of us

when i'm not being sullen and depressed

the beauty detox solution

a book a friend of mine showed me

he seemed to like the book

says on the front by kimberly snyder,c.n.

don't know what c.n. means

i liked the cover

awareness

awareness is not a product of thought

awareness is through a willingness to be

and letting all others be

life cannot be figured out

as so many claim to have done


life is without rules

we are forever free when we are willing to be

and allow all others the right to be

which often still seems kind of scary to me


security is a form of isolation

television

the greatest mind fuck of all

until video games and cell phones came along

and now we post and tweet


we have learned to mind fuck our selves


and life goes on as we sleep in our little shells

forever thinking and lost in our thoughts

which is kind of a dumb word


the scientists tells us the brain is the location of mind

but they are wrong

all ideas are figments of our imagination


life is far more than an idea some human had

and can certainly not be explained


some educated people and some religious people

and a few nondenominational people

which is what i call the freelance selfish people

tried to tell me how i should be

but that never really worked out for them


we all must find our own way

we cannot own life

life owns us is closer to the truth to me

and our attempts to escape life and our truth

would just be silliness if not so painful for us all

innocence

i have been in the presence of innocence

but not all that often in this life

those with goals and ambitions

have no concept of innocence

and such situations are so often cultivated by others in our time


the children are under assault from all sides

and almost never allowed to be their self

and discover the only true gift


for a time i thought some people we just mean to children

but in time came to realize they were just ignorant

and buried under a mountain of lies


we humans seem to like thinking we know

guess it makes some of us feel better

but it never worked for me

and i still often wonder

but mostly anymore i just be silly me

and be open to what ever is next

on my better days

losing

losing only exists for those concerned with winning

which is just an illusion

a figment of our imagination


no one wins a war

only those that didn't take part in a war think that crap


once i was of the warriors a long long time ago

all of this life has not been lived in this skin

which is just an experience for a while

forgiving

we have times for all kinds of stuff

have wondered why we don't have a time for forgiving

some religious people claim that they have

but mostly i just see grudges

and a desire for payback


grudges are kind of a carry over from the past

which just eats at us and causes us torment

usually until we cause the offender torment


not much peace in a world like that

being

a state of peace with our self

which so few experience in our time

but all ways here for us

if we are willing to be

who we are and where we are

and just be our self as we are

believing

something be decided to do

usually with encouragement from others

and just a form of self deception

to make us feel better and not so lost and confused


lost and confused is often where life begins

is we are willing to just be with our self


self is the quiet part of our being

and not part of all that stuff we see

and don't understand


knowing you don't know

can be the greatest gift of all

and the gateway to knowing

recognition

true recognition is a state of being

and not a product of conditioning and thought

which many consider recognition to be


true recognition is a state of being

as is seeing

anger

a poison we subject our self to

a form of self pity

respect

true respect is a state of being


for many modern people

respect has become a form of ass kissing

to get what they want


want is a slave state

and an affliction i am familiar with


wishful thinking is a form of torment

seeing

if we could truly see

we wouldn't be so unkind

or so self righteous

hate

perhaps the dumbest word of all

a state of full blown rejection

and the ultimate isolation

woman

perhaps the most sacred word of all

and also so often used and abused

sometimes by males and the children

but in our time so often by their own attitude toward their self

inspiration

another sacred word

and also so often used and abused

respect

to understand the word respect

one must be with what that word represents

respect

a sacred word

yet so often used and abused in our time


without respect for life

we are much less than nothing

what my father told me once

i was an early teenager and full of my self

(a phase that lasted decades}

one afternoon when he was home

which didn't happen very often

i popped off to my mother

no bad words but the tone was disrespectful

he said come here boy

and we went into the other room

where he said to me most respectfully

if you don't respect that woman because she is your mother

that's my wife and i don't want your talking to her that way

and i never used that tone again with my mother

this was not because i was afraid of my father

he just spoke to me man to man

and what he said was more than the words

winning and losing

my father told me once a long time ago

it's not whether you win or lose

it's how you play the game


one thing i learned from my father

never bullshit your self

feelings again

all those feelings we hold back

just go into a saving account


account is the clue


accounts become obligations has been my experience

which only limit freedom

the child

some people view a child as a blank piece of paper

and in some ways i agree


for me the child must be the first to write on this piece of paper


there are many in our time that would write on that piece of paper first

before the child can find it's own way


am not a big fan of most of what i see in our time


the human population is in constant conflict with its self

such is all around me


life does not have to be this way

we all still have to find our own way


a willingness to be what life actually made us to be could be a clue

perhaps not

we all have to find our own way

and no one can do that for us

we are apparently multiple in this world

and forever one

taking charge

a popular phrase in our time


most girls are looking for a guy to take charge of things

and then they want to take charge of him


the guys have their version of this crap


you can walk among the poor and the lost and weak

you can walk among the rich and famous and powerful

the game is the same on the smallest and grandest scale


freedom has no place to be in such a world


this scale has no balance

geronimo

don't know how to spell that

he was an apache indian guy

i don't think they really caught him

that was a white lie

which was acceptable in the family i grew up in

for a while a while back


am still growing up

and out and down

and all that other stuff


being is without change

and a source of great confusion in our time


that which is forever changing

can never change


guess that could be called sequential being

but i don't much care for technical stuff

i just like to play

courage

a fearful beings defense

and to defend is to isolate

feelings

sometimes we respond to our feelings

sometimes we don't

that's how we sort our self out of this mess

such is what we are to me

the source

so many seek the answer

whatever that means


many seek the cause

and life is just because life is


if there is an answer

the answer is the source

and the source is within us all


including that pit bull in my neighbors yard

The Journey to the East

one of my favorite books

and the girl said

i don't want you anymore

and now am free to love you

more about life

all that you see is your life

all that you don't see is your life

welcome to life

this is our life

was and were

both retrospective words

and of the past


by the time you think about what you are doing

you have already done it

and it is past


being is not a product of thought


and the thinker cries where do we go from here

and i say i don't know

i just think to entertain myself when there is nothing on television

false fronts

mostly what i have been confronted with in this life

accept for a few

modern people pretty much all project a false front


all the lies has taken a terrible toll on the human population


and the creatures of the field

which have no ability to lie

insecure

seems like i have always felt insecure

always wanting to go somewhere

but never sure where

so just go

and i did

all kind of places

all kinds of people

all kinds of stuff to do

and here i am

after all this what ever this is and what we are doing

am right here where i started

and don't mind so much anymore


mind meant obey when i was a kid

later mind came to mean consciousness


brain was an idea synthesizer

which was a curiosity to me for a while

but turned out to be a form of masterbation

drinking

i started drinking for the same reason

i wanted to fit in and be cool


drinking was a lot more fun than smoking


am still not sure was reason means

and am not sure i really want to know


understanding insanity can be a dangerous game

among all these people who like games better than real life

the cigarette

just went out into a cold north wind

to smoke a little of a cigarette

haven't looked into the relationship for a while


started smoking when i was pretty young

almost all the grownups did

which is what we called the big people in charge


the next step was when i wanted to look cool

like those i seems to admire in some way

which at this point in time i see as some sort of envy

something they had that i wanted too

and i still don't know what that was


probably some sort of acceptance

just trying to fit in and seem normal

which was back when i thought normal was a real word


seems i was seeking something i lacked

there was something i wanted


i have no idea what that was


maybe i just felt alone

willing

some associate willing with personal power


for some willing is the surrender of personal power

true

there are those that seek what is true

all is true

blind people are often picky


one must cease looking

and give seeing a chance

which is a passive state


as is being

lies

the lies that others tell us are not what matters

what matters are the lies we tell our self

and our willingness to tell them

respect for innocence

have seen very little respect for innocence in this life

and have very often come up short myself

but respect for innocence has showed up in this life

and it saw me

i could see respect for me


am not so young anymore

and seem to have some small sense of what was

mostly i have wondered

anticipation

a nervous disorder

love

life without expectation

the gift of innocence

why do we drink

because this is such a lonely place

and so crowded

and so little peace


and the reigning social order

has its roots in child abuse


the modern rulers indoctronate the children very young

before they have time to know their self


going to school is not a freedom of choice

going to school is the law

as is going to church in some families


law is such an ugly word


rule is such a stupid word


life doesn't come with an instruction manual

or a rule book

humans came up with that crap


did you ever wonder what love really means

everyone

everyone we have ever known

is a part of us forever

as is everyone we have never known

thinking

thinking can only be about yesterday and what was

now is far beyond thought

as is am

which is being

boys and girls

in our time a lot of boys like to fuck boys

or be fucked by boys


a lot of girls like to fuck girls

or be fucked by girls


fucking is not the point of the game

and life is not a game

knowing

not even an option

being is the only valid option


knowing is retrospective

and of that which is past


life is forever now

science

science claims to be the answer to our problems

when actually it is the source of most of our major problems

super bombs

new diseases

world wide pollution

we communicate electronically

and have lost the ability to communicate personally

and on and on

am sure i will have more to say about this topic


science makes life complicated

truth makes life simple

war

war is not the path to peace

as so many seem to think


thinking is an affliction

right up there with polio and malaria

only a lot worse

beliefs

the shackles we place on our self

to make us feel more secure

security

security is a false god

with many followers

and many takers

ideas

the great curse of our time

and for such a long time

new ideas

old ideas

crazy ideas


we are constantly subjecting our self

to all these conflicting ideas

right and wrong

good and bad

profitable or not profitable


we are just a bunch of crazy people

fascinated by all the endless ideas

which make us blind to what actually is


we have learned how to think

and forgotten how to be

love

true love is neither personal or exclusive

true love is a state of being

which words do not describe


most of what we modern people consider love

is a form of gratification

we really like getting what we want


such goals make love almost impossible

yet love all ways exists


we have become very narrow and competitive

these tendencies have the potential to destroy us

at the very least to become selfish  isolated  and miserable

and lots of other nasty stuff


life does not have to be this way

but we must change our ways


we are taking selfishness to new heights


this is not rocket science

our world is a mess

most individuals that i see are a mess

just trying to act ok and in charge


only life can save us now

and i sometimes have wondered why life has saved us so long


the constitution of this country says something about equality as i recall

equality is in very short supply in this country

i have been here almost 69 years and have experienced equality with another being

but not all that much

and it appears to me that thought is the source of all this insanity i see

all these ideas in constant conflict which all those other ideas

and every one wanting desperately to be right

we humans are in almost constant conflict with in and with out

awareness is not a product of thought


punishing fucked up people for being fucked up people

does not make the world a better place

it is just another attempt to manage people

which is what got us in this mess we call civilization today

what your doing

how does one do

when one doesn't know

what one is doing


this is obviously a pisces quest ye one

what just happened

have mostly not been sure what just happened

but this seems to be my life

and am still here


we shall see

if we are willing


truth can be pretty scary

for the careful ones

as i have so often been

when i was sober


have wondered if sober was short for somber

which ain't much of a word

surrender

not a popular word with me when i was young

not so much any more


win at all cost just pushed me away

to be a man

my father showed me

and i still wonder


not much telling what will become of me

help

my mistake was wanting to help

those are the ones that get taken advantage of


advantage is the clue


when another is vulnerable

to attack and/or exploit

rules

there is only one rule

never chase girls

my face

my face was on the front page of the oklahoma gazette once

and the front of my head a few times

persuasion

a lot can be said about that tricky little word

asking

i don't even know what to ask for

and am a little fearful of such things

one of my favorite jokes

and the lone arranger said

tonto  -  we are surrounded by wild indians

and tonto said

what do you mean we  -  white man


those that pause in the speech

are usually going for effect

and have little interest in our essence

which is to our advantage


which obviously must not be taken advantage of

courage

a blind mans fancy


i have always feared being brave

from a very young age

step

there is a time to step for ward

and a time to step for back

and a time to stand still

and be


as long as we choose

we loose


such behavior just knots the way

and we get to experience what behind is

which is a great lack

when life is for ever now of all that is

and fortunately for us

all that is not

wanting

the greatest curse of all

for us all


what is wanted must be released

or for ever be the prisoner


and the wanter a prison guard

if you want to face your self

if you want to face your self

face me

and all the rest of us

bea

bea was my first love

i did not know that at the time


she was the first to love me

that i was not related to


i did not notice much in those days


noticing began a few decades later

after a few decades of wondering


i still wonder some times

the end of war and violence

the end of war and violence will come

when humans quit taking part in war and violence


deer fight every year

but the creatures of the field

never started a war

or sold drugs to children

or all the other little nasties humans have come to be known for


we humans are the problem

and the only solution


the creatures of the field have not learned to hate

but some of their domesticated brethren

are learning about anger and insecurity

which it seems to me how we humans got there

retarded

my retarded friends

are the only friends i have

and i do not have them

but i fit right in


we are all retarded in some way

such is what it is to be human

less than the whole

yet still a part of the whole

choosing

some choose to be what they think is the best they can be

some choose to be what they think is the worst they can be

some choose other silly ideas

which is so popular in our time


we were not born to decide who we are

we were born to be who we are

as life made us


if you cannot accept your self as you are

how will you ever accept the rest of us as who we are


and our lies in time will bury us


everything is the clue

life is everything

all that we see

and all we don't see


the more we choose

the smaller we get

and the less we get


all i can say to me is deal with this life boy

this is your draw

competition

our desire to compete

is creating deep divisions in our population


we obviously have a lot to learn about life


cooperation with all is also an option

but selfishness and greed are the greatest god in our time

the desire to win

to be top dog

has become an obsession


the most money

the most power

the most control

apparently we just want to play god



how does one consider the well being of all

instead of just our favorite team


favorite is a prejudice


life is both zero and one


to have favorites creates an imbalance


i watched the oklahoma football team loose by a lot tonight

it wasn't as hard as it was last time


in life as i see it here in our situation

it is important to win with what i call heart

or loose with what i call heart


no one always wins

no one always loses

and some of us get to be here for a while


this stuff seems worth looking into to me


sometimes what we think we are doing

is not what we are actually doing

letting go

first i had to let go of being mad


then i had to let go of disapproving

and then approving


am still working on that stuff

girls

the hardest part about dealing with girls

is dealing with their cover story


males generally ain't all that good at that stuff

they are mostly too busy cultivating their own cover story


dealing has been our downfall

and cover stories

paradise lost

what i would call a book about this world

and the beings i share this world with

taking a house apart

those that are the most qualified

are those that built the house

in a real world

not so much any more

the body

the body is to be embraced

and cared for

and used as is our nature

love

love is an openness

a sharing of an experience


so many of us fear the truth of our existence

and cannot be who they are


trying is of no use at all

one must we willing


awareness is not a product of thought

truth is not an idea

which are mostly figments of our imagination

and a product of thought


beliefs just clutter the way

as do our hopes and wishes and dreams and ambitions

and on and on we go

to no where to be


our beliefs a based on our ideas

the religions all have their own ideas

the capitalist and the socialist and the communist have their ideas

most every one has their own ideas

and the conflict of ideas is destroying us

and our little world


we do not have to take part in all that crap

please

never much cared for that word

was told it was just being polite

but actually is a form of begging to get what is wanted


polite is a kind of weird word too

is usually a form of ass kissing


true respect is never an act

or ever based on fear

we have a problem

we have a serious problem in the world today

we are a serious problem in the world today


as children we are taught to perform

how to act

now  -  instead of living  -  we are acting

playing roles


in order to sustain the role

we must repress our true nature

which means we are repressing life

and living a lie

experiencing our self as a lie

lying both to our self and others


now we are several generations deep in untrue existence


the parents are playing roles

the teachers are playing roles

the preachers are playing roles

we play roles with each other

with our friends

with our partners

with the children

with our selves


this role we are playing

this lie we are perpetuating on our self is stifling

the truth of our existence


we are creating distance between our truth

we are creating barriers between the role we are playing

(who we believe our selves to be)

and who we actually are


this leads to great conflict and pressure inside our selves

this pressure is making us sick and mean


this separation from the truth of our self

(what life created us to be)

makes us afraid


the sickness and fear and violence in our world
  is a product of our unnatural existence

and will continue to grow until we give up
  our unnatural existence


we are emotionally constipated

constantly frustrated

the conflict between our true nature and
  the role we are playing  (the lie we are living)
  leaves us no peace

the thought processes we involve our selves
  in are constantly seeking escape from the
  pain and fear and conflict and frustration

this leads to confusion


we create an endless stream of ideas of what
  we think will make us happy

we live in almost constant torment and need

all the time trying to act like we're not

we are taught to act confident

when we are not

we are taught to take control

when it was control that got us this way


life is not to be controlled

life is to be lived

to be lived and experienced openly and fully

we repress life and expect to be happy

that is insane thinking

the creatures in zoos are not happy

they were ment to be free

living their lives and taking their chances

in a free environment


thinking that we are ok when we're not

  (so called positive thinking) will only make

  our situation worse

more lies won't help

it will only lead to more disappointment and frustration

the truth of our existence is the only hope we have


awareness is not a product of thought

life is beyond what we think

and what we seem to think we feel

   

wanting

probably the most dangerous game we play


the situation is to recognize a natural attraction

as opposed to an imaginary want

which we want another life form to be

with no consideration for who and what they actually are


our selfishness becomes a curse for an other

if willing to be other than its nature to please someone

and our self for seeking that which is not actually a natural attraction


we so often abuse our self and other selves with our silly games

and our truth is no longer what we experience and share

and the sacred trust no longer respected


time for bed now

i'm tired

every day

every day is what ever life allows

and what ever we are willing to accept

and deal with as is our nature


perhaps without letting our habits and conditioning rule us

the legend of lewis and terri

not many today would believe that story

and the story is still being told

water

i knew a girl once i called clear water

she called me muddy water

want

the most terrible of all words

and a curse that does not actually exist

except in the minds of the lost