Saturday, January 31, 2015

others

there ain't no others

what we are looking at

is just a little bit more of our self

and what we have done to our self

modern time

what i usually call

my current time with my self

usually don't turn out to be

what most people told me would be

if i did what they told me to be and do


that crap was no fun at all

and often very painful

laughing

what we laugh at and how we laugh

is a clue as to where we are with our self

and how we feel about life

Friday, January 30, 2015

illegal

those that promote only legal

are dividing we the people

into legal people and illegal people


those that praise those who obey the law

and punish those who don't obey the law

develop two different types of people

actually many different types of people

and the conflict in our little world continues to grow


that sure as hell ain't freedom

and i see very little peace


we are rarely permitted to just be who and how we are

and soon forget how to be who and how we are


we are all completely unique and one of a kind

which is rarely respected in our time


if we don't start paying attention to what we are actually doing here

and face who we actually are -  what we were born to be

how can we ever know peace

dependent needs

have been reviewing this life i sometimes call my life

and am pretty sure am going to have a lot to say about that situation

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

real life

for so many today

real life is what they are doing


but real life is about being your self


the children are not being permitted

sufficient time with their self

to efficiently integrate with their self


and the so called adult population

has not taken the time to observe the child

and recognized the nature which has just arrived here

naked and wet and still dazed by the experience of being born here


the lies and beliefs and propaganda of our time

and the hopes and dreams and frustrations of the so called parents

and the population of other humans

soon overwhelm the little being

usually to make some wierd adatptation to this situation

because they were not allowed to fully integrate with this new self to be for a while


and amid all this confusion

most are just guessing and hoping

and mostly hopelessly confused

and great chaos is upon the land

which originates within all these abandoned and abused children


want

the dumbest word i have heard so far

in this weird little world i call my life

cause i don't know what to call what i call my life


call is the clue

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

swimming

if you seek to swim

you better not resist the water

money

if i was using money

to avoid life

or to attack life

or avoid being myself

what would that say about me

and my relationship with my self


relationship is kind of a wierd word to me

most of what i have been told about that word

has been absolute bullshit

my life

random acts of romance

and all the other stuff

i stumbled over along the way

seeing

most people today that i see

don't see beyond the skin

or the fancy clothes

or the tattered rags

modern people

most people today

are hiding from their self

and they don't even know

what i just said


actually

what i just wrote on this blog thing

would be more accurate

getting rich

getting rich is far harder to survive

than getting poor


not too many in our time agree with that

Monday, January 26, 2015

a question

do you ever stop and look

what we are doing to ourselves and each other

and the creatures of the field

who are people too in their own way

and this little world we call earth


in my not so humble opinion

WE are a bunch of fuckups

and need to get in the game

as my elders once said to me


what if we are wrong

and wanting all the wrong things


seems to me we need to take a break

and be with our self

and confim we are really being our self

and not some wierd idea we picked up somewhere

Sunday, January 25, 2015

doing

sometimes we get so involved

with what we are doing

we forget how to be who we are

and what we a doing

becomes just a habit

and what we are doing

becomes who we are


and that ain't always

who we actually are

avoid

life is much more difficult

if you seek to avoid your self


facing ones self

is where all the bonus points are


and if you try to cheat

the price gets higher


life is forever free

dollars

dollars are green

but you can't make salad out of them

if you are really hungry

they are just pieces of paper


paper is the clue


there is very little life in paper

paper is just around for a while

and not very nourishing to eat


it was designed

to get us to trade

our lives for some stuff

that we really didn't need

but we sure wanted


wanted is the clue


if you are truthful with your self

about what you want

life will be ok


if you lie to your self

life has a tendency

to become boring

and often painful


not much of a deal to me

usually pass on that crap

after all this time

dealing with this little adventure i call life


will go to bed now


maybe

cheating

one thing i have learned about life

there ain't no way to cheat life

Friday, January 23, 2015

the name of the game

the name of this game

is face your self


which ain't all that popular in our time


some have a cover story

some leave parts out


but there ain't no way to cheat

and know peace

in the game we are playing


we can accept who we are

and be the truth of our self

or we can hide or lie


there ain't no other options

despite what they tell you in class

thinking

what we think we are doing

may not be what we are actually doing


we humans sure do like to act

like we know what we are doing

has been my experience


act is the clue

truth

truth can be painful

for those raised on lies and propaganda

even if spoken softly

wanting

for the child

what it needs for a while


for the adult human in our time

a desire to escape

acceptance

pretty easy to accept those that accept you

how about those that don't

we humans

our manifestations are different

but our essence is the same

Thursday, January 22, 2015

killing

if you kill another

you kill part of your self

if you hurt another

you hurt a part of your self

if you lie to another

you lie to part of your self


and this is not about morality

this is about reality


the actual reality of life

which actually does exist

which our current civilizations

appear oblivious to


so many lies

so much propaganda


we have been born into a factory

which we are are trained to serve


this is not service to life

this is being used by other humans


life is still an open option

if we survive having been made crazy

and forgetting who we are

and learning to do what we're told to do

instead of to be who we are

by people who don't care for us so much

and we don't usually care for them


it seems important to me

that we know our self personally

but few are being permitted the time


modern humans have their schedules

life has its order

which don't appear to have any common ground to me

in our time


common is usually looked down upon


maybe i'll go to bed now

middle class

kind of an insulting term

middle class

upper class

lower class

this was of thinking creates a psychological hierarchy

in the minds of people

and glorifies the upper class

which tends to look down on the lower class

as i have seen over the decades here

these terms divide the population

and keeps best of mans efforts concentrated among a few so called privileged people

who do most of the work


don't really enjoy saying it

but this is a form of slavery

which people must adapt to or starve


not a lot of freedom in that


mostly it bothers me because of what i see happening

to the people in this system

and all the conflict it is producing in the people

which becomes all this conflict in the world


life does have a natural order

we humans seem to have little respect for life

hoping

ain't hoping for much of nothing, sugar

just waiting to see what's next

questioning and rejecting

life on this plane

in our time

requires being with those that accept you

and those that choose to reject you

and just being your self


which didn't make much to me

at first glance


until i remembered

life is all that is


there ain't no is not


that crap is just delusional thinking

questioning

the first question could be

who am i


the second could be

why am i here


which exist within your self

and not without your self

dependent needs

what we would not be carrying around

if the elders of this tribe

actually knew what they we doing


need and wants

and hopes and dreams

and endless ambitions


the road to nowhere to be


being is what we are


in all this confusion

we just try to be

what we think we ought to be

or what we want to be

which is even worse

for our self


we are being

rejecting its self

and hoping or wanting to be

something else


which ain't actually an option

and the attempt is a real bummer

times of great conflict

in times of great conflict
like these that i see
it's hard to make judgement
like just what to be

confusion and chaos
will keep us uptight
that by itself
makes it hard to know right

perhaps if we slow down
and just clear our head
give up the ideas
that make us brain dead

cause when this one says this
and another says that
we settle the issue
with fist and with bat

most think they know something
but i think we don't
we outsmart ourselves
with ideas that won't

fit in with nature
which has it's own plan
which we disregard
because we now can

if we took the time
and gave life a look
it just might not be
as we read in some book

a mind that's not made up
and fused with belief
might find something more
and provide some relief

but if no one will face
that we just might be wrong
we may someday look up
and find our world gone


a little respect and consideration

might make a difference

if we knew what they meant

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

boo

disapproval is the curse of our time

as is approval


we are lost and wandering

and don't have to be

in that situation with our self

unless we choose to be

in that situation


we do not have to choose

as so many have said

we can also let life choose

and be free

of that choosing crap

which i  never much cared for anyway

weaning

life is constantly weaning us

from what ever we think we need


what we actually are

is more than enough


what we think we are

and like to hope we are

or are afraid we are

is mostly bullshit

and not really relevant

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

crime

any crime i commit against you

is a crime i commit against my self


any crime i commit against my self

is a crime i commit against you

deception

to allow an other to deceive me

would be to do them a great injustice


and to deceive my self

an ever greater injustice to them

misunderstanding

we modern humans

may be caught up in

the greatest misunderstanding

of all time


we have been raised on lies

that were the misunderstandings of

those that were here before us


all i can say to that is

we all have to find our way

with very little support

from the people we are here with


and that isn't their fault


their fault was

not being who they actually were


and they paid the price for that


being is a gift

which hasn't been mentioned so much

while others told us what we were

and what to be


no one can tell us that

and we all have to find our way


the only true teaching

is a truthful presentation

which i have been exposed to

but not all that much in our time


here in the land of performances


life ain't a soap opera or a movie


looking for peace and happiness

outside our self

is a serious misunderstanding

on our part

which is our responsibility

an no other


sharing our truth

with our self

is a start

Monday, January 19, 2015

function

function means to me

be who you are

and do what you do


all the alternatives

are pretty scary to me

out of time

all of our efforts

all our hopes and wishes and dreams

will be out of time sooner or later

as all of our little human creations will


as will all of life's creations also


most of the human creations i see around me

seem to be well thought out

but not much of a celebration of life


most of this crap was done for personal gain and power

which ain't all that glorious a cause


life is a show off

if we are willing to see

and not hide and lie so much

learning how to be me

what i have been learning

for over 70 trips around this little sun

trying not to fall over all these trips


one thing i have learned

trying not to trip

is to stumble and fall


thinkers usually try something


awareness is not a product of thought

but most emotional disorders are

learning

learning is only achieved

by those willing to learn


wanting to learn

makes learning impossible

teaching

true teaching

is a truthful presentation

Sunday, January 18, 2015

that thumping in our hands

i remember that day

justification

just another way

to avoid personal responsibility


which we so often seek

to claim for our own


there is the "i did that" crap

and the "i did not do that" crap


and those that just wondered

what just happened

and how to keep up with that crap


crap is generally considered waste

and not worthy of salvage

or salvation as so many call that crap


have used a lot of foul language tonight


not entirely sure why

but am pretty sure

all the lies are annoying me

living

it is very difficult to speak

about living life

when so many think

they already know how to live life


amid all this death and destruction and pain

change

i don't feel changed by this life

but certainly rearranged


such is the way of life

if we are willing to change

which is what life does

and forever remains the same

creative thinking

has led to this dreadful downfall of man kind


awareness is not a product of thought


and the thinking man

is not qualified to play god

with the human race

(which i call the human organism)

or the creatures of the field

or this little planet we were born on


i am particularly pissed and concerned

about how we treat the children

and about how they are responding to such treatment

in this land of self abuse

Saturday, January 17, 2015

respect

respect is not something some one gives or pays another

that is bribery


respect is only real when for all Life

a comment on the human race

we humans

in the past few thousand years

have managed to turn our wonderful little world

into a pretty fucked up mess


and we are getting better at it every day


Life doesn't have to be like that

but we have to learn to respect Life

all Life

where ever we find Life

starting with our Self

hate

anger is an aggressive expression of self-pity

hate is passionate expression of self-pity

and a monstrous ego problem of control freaks

and pure poison to the self and our world

seeing

so many today see what they want to see

and don't see what they don't want to see

which is a recipe for blindness


so many today believe what they want to believe

and don't believe what they don't want to believe

which is a recipe for ignorance

life

most people seem to want life to get personal


but life is about everybody


about everyone


so life seems to me



i wasn't  offered a choice

and didn't feel like i needed one


all sounded like a lot more fun to me


and still does


yesterdays ideas were dead when they were born



i just be me as i can


that's all i have got

which seems mostly

to have me


which is perhaps

a great gift


we shall see

Friday, January 16, 2015

knowing

knowing is retrospective

of the past


today is not about yesterday

now is not about tomorrow

or yesterday


lifes manifestations change

life is the real in the sequence

freedom

just another word

for

nothing left to lose


as the janis joplin girl

once said


and she spoke truthfully


she must have had

quite a dose of pisces

in her recipe

Thursday, January 15, 2015

love

love is not based on personal profit

or personal gratification


love is based on what needs to be done


and i don't mean what you want life to be

i mean life being what life is

greed and selfishness

the greatest curse of all

and a great plague in our time


those that serve life

do not control or enslave life


and life is all that actually exists

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

hate

the ultimate self pity

and the source of vengeance

which i mentioned earlier

a very perverse expression

of personal gratification


these a not honorable callings

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

religions

and no fan of religions


these are groups of people

that require complete submission

to their idea of god


and there are so many ideas

about what to submit to


these are the exploiters and manipulators


which is an abuse of life


i don't know what anyone else should do


i don't know what i should do


i just be my self as i can

and keep up with life as i can


control of life is not my thing


i sure as hell ain't qualified for that


and i didn't find controlling my self

very much fun


religious people seem such a serious bunch

and not my thing at all

vengeance

am pretty sure vengeance

is the most insane word of all


the most selfish

the most greedy

and the most hateful


a lethal dose of self pity


not much fun over there

just a lot of perverse and painful

gratification


not much fun in that


unless you are really fucked up

as we called that stuff back in high school


where i first learned about this stuff

a quiet day

and i ain't being lazy

or bored


just savoring the moment

Life

Life could be wonderful

if we humans would just

let Life be Life


control is a crime against Life

and a serious misunderstanding


Peace is the gift of Being

the endless source

what i call life


life is a story

without an ending

my job

my job

is to be who i am

where ever i am

who ever i am with

and ever by my self

my dear

i am your escort

to where ever you are going

Monday, January 12, 2015

facing ones self

the only way to assist an other

in facing their self

is to be your self

facing their self


and i don't mean just their hair cut

or the clothes they are wearing

or their reputation or position


being is not a physical plane thing


being is your relationship with your self

Sunday, January 11, 2015

preachy

have been accused of that

which is correct

because i am


yet i am neither christian or muslim or jew

or any other religious organization


and i ain't selling nothing

Saturday, January 10, 2015

precious few

tho precious few
still serve the plan
a voice inside
says we still can

return to that
which is us all
the spirit lives
i've heard it's call

in silence when
the mind is still
it's presence grows
and seems to fill

my heart and soul
with renewed knowing
almost like
life's hand is sowing

blessings which we
don't yet see
eternal love
for you and me

the ancients knew
of this great spirit
though modern man
has come to fear it

we seek today
to serve ourselves
yet still  -  in every
heart it dwells

the life that is
the source of all
the one in many
still does call

and seeks to share
it's boundless love
through kindness
to redeem the dove

and restore all
to love and grace
to return joy to
each child's face

Friday, January 9, 2015

problems with your self

the only way to face your self

is to face your problems with your self


most people in our time

seem to think

ignoring their problem with their self

will make the problem go away


which gives the problem great power over our self


facing our problem

is the gateway to our self


problems are just our attempts to control life

which ain't really an option


and we thinker people

with all these grand ideas

are trying to play god with life


which ain't all that great an idea


life is forever free

and beyond our control


such thinking is delusional


and a barrier to awareness of life






Tuesday, January 6, 2015

steps

in our little world

eight steps up

also means

eight steps down


life is about balance


not sure if that is the correct word

but it's all i got right now


life can be deceptive

if you think about it too much


there ain't no it


we humans made that up

to separate our selves from others


i tried that too


it wasn't all that much fun

splash

if you don't want

to make a splash


hit the dirt

close to the edge of the pond


but be advised

that might make a bigger splash

than landing in the middle


these are strange times

and few are sure

just what is going on here

pictures

captured moments


in our time

often staged

ambitions

seeking to gratify

our personal ambitions

is probably the most dangerous game

people play


for one thing

life ain't a game


and play is a childhood game


games can be ok sometimes

but not much of a life choice


life is not about winning or losing

life is about you play the game


my father figure told me that

a long time ago


he was a pretty sharp guy

and a good man

and i liked him


he also knew i was a person

in my on right

and not his to mold and shape


as i grew older i realized

how rare that was

in our world today


Monday, January 5, 2015

faith

i have faith in life


not so much in you

or me

or them

or whatever else is upon us

lucky

have been lucky many times


life has often been kind to me


which i often didn't realize at the time

courage

a fools errand

a product of someones propaganda

sometimes their own propaganda


willingness

that takes balls

and more than a little heart


that goes for girls too

they wear their balls inside

Saturday, January 3, 2015

fair

fair only exists

when humans play

games with rules


real life goes

round and round

and up and down

all the time


and we petty little humans

don't make the rules

at best we just keep up

the family of man

the family of man

is in serious conflict

with its self


we have a serious problem

with our self


a cure does exist


our biggest problem

is our fear and arrogance

and the magnitude of our greed


which leads to focus

on what we want

instead of what we need

and what needs to be done

Thursday, January 1, 2015

life

all life is sacred

a sacred place

where ever you are