believing

believing is a poor substitute

for knowing

and the first step to knowing

is to know you don't know

a message to my friend

life is about to rock you world

i wish you well

as i can


and can is is stupid little word

wanting

an infantile response

and not worthy of further comment

environment

as we are all are

my progress through this life

has been influenced by my environment

which has influenced my development

as we call it today


fortunately for me

some of the influence was truthful


but a lot of the influence was not truthful


the situation seems to me to be

to to live a truthful life as we can

or live an untruthful life

to fit into a system

that is just a thing


life is far grander than some thing


and life is free


control is a nasty little petty word

life in our time

once life here was about life

about the human experience

our fellow creatures

and the natural world life


today life for us is mostly about

business and politics and religion

and education and money


maybe we are headed to somewhere

better than where we were


i am not convinced


it seems to me

that we are being talked out

of being who we would be

if a system was not running our lives


a system is a thing

an artificial thing created by humans


am not a big fan of artificial life


and this one is a poor imitation of life

other

there ain't no other

that's just a delusion

as is that

control

a cruel word

and not very nice


control leads only

to out of control


one way or the other

business

perhaps the smallest word of all
 

managing life is no way to live

life in the box

ain't no life at all

afraid

a fraied

not sure what that means

maybe a frayed


seems to mean

what we choose to run from

in our time

instead of re pair


facing our fear

seems to be the hardest part


for we seem to be afraid of our self


our truth seemed to be all we had

or maybe what had us


not sure what to say now

dream killer

what the native population

often called their medicine men

the invaders called them indians

they thought they were in india

which was the first of many misunderstandings


the european invaders called

their medicine men doctors

who mostly turned out to be drug dealers


i realized a long time ago

several girls

and a few guys

found me to be a dream killer


have no idea what popular means

but pretty sure i wouldn't like it for a mate


life is very personal to me

and i don't always respond well to liars

freedom and rules

rules restrict freedom

and come with punishments

mostly not all that bad


laws restrict freedom

and come with punishments

mostly a little bad to real bad


calling this the land of the free

seems a bit dishonest to me

tonights poem

we stood there in silence
with cheers all around

just for a moment
we thought we'd been found

but that was not true
as always turns out

the people were bored
and just wanted to shout


once i was a glad he ate her
no longer seek the fridge or ater


courage is a false god
and no fan of mine

not sure what to say
but life is not fine


we live a sad situation here
and why for a time
was not very clear


we live in the time
of the great lie
and in spite of my looking
i still don't know why

life is our friend
i know that is true
as for the rest
that must be up to you

and me
when it is my turn
to be as i am
and see what i learn


i wondered for a time
if life had to be fear
i learned no it don't'
if you hold life dear


life is greater
than we are
a bit more then
buying a car

its gift is still sacred
in spite of efforts

just through it all away

i tried that
and all that other
thinking about life stuff

thinking is a lost mans
or womans errand

to know life
we must accept
all that we are
which is more than i thought
by quite a lot


peace and harmony
to all beings
as i can

sometimes i do pretty good
sometimes not so bad

mostly anymore
i just do
and wait and see
as i can


security is a false god
so it seems to me

in spite of the fact
we are all stuck with our self
AND LOVING SELF IS NOT POSSIBLE


KIND OF A TUFF PLACE TO BE


and i never was
all that tuff
although somewhat durable


not sure lasting longer
is any great advantage


one thing i have realized
(i almost said learned)
is that hurting people or any creature
is knot the path to peace and security

A Pisces Moon

A pisces moon
did crown her head
and by the spirit
was she led

forever true to
life i'm told
her heart was pure
and soul unsold

few knew her secrets
for little she spoke
but the touch of her hand
for me tears did evoke

her beauty and grace
were a blessing to all
and no one said no
if she happened to call

she seems so alone
and yet not the least sad
the spirit of life
was the gift that she had

i remember her smile
and know i always will
the love that she shared
still my heart does fill

Times Of Conflict

in times of great conflict
like these that i see
it's hard to make judgement
like just what to be

confusion and chaos
will keep us uptight
that by itself
makes it hard to know right

perhaps if we slow down
and just clear our head
give up the ideas
that make us brain dead

cause when this one says this
and another says that
we settle the issue
with fist and with bat

most think they know something
but i think we don't
we outsmart ourselves
with ideas that won't

fit in with nature
which has it's own plan
which we disregard
because we now can

if we took the time
and gave life a look
it just might not be
as we read in some book

a mind that's not made up
and fused with belief
might find something more
and provide some relief

but if no one will face
that they just might be wrong
we may someday look up
and find our world gone

darkness

we humans must really be afraid of the dark

we sure put a lot of energy in artificial light

and so much of our existance has become artificial

water

we humans are very dependent on water

we don't exist in our present forms without water

yet we have become so very dependent upon electronics

which must be protected from water

time

most people feel or think

that time is predicietable

because they have a clock

life is rarely predicietable

and certainaly not controllable


to know what to do

is to be with the individual self

that we are

and be our self


am not speaking of what

we think we should be

or our situation with our self

(which we mostly try to avoid)

am speaking of

who we are

and that is a surrender to truth thing


no more opinions

no more well thought out

very strategic advice


the only gift we can have

is what we are


here in the time of personal rejection

and be what others think we should be


we are being manipulated

by those who feel and think

to manipulate the population

is a source of great profit


as can be so


we all have to find our personal way


and no one is qualified to do that for us


some contribute to our journey

some make the journey a little more difficult

some just watch and wonder

what the hell is going on


life is the supercomputer

and apple and microsoft just imitators

and cheap imitations


life is free

and of the now

thinking and voting

is retrospective

and of that which is past

fear

that which we fear

will have power over us

such is the way of life


some times is wish to apologize

for that state ment


had not remember me at that time

and me was of no value at all

lesbian girls

mostly they want to take over the world

and be like the men


and mostly the men have failed

and they seek to join them


another clue


and not very subtile





i sometime give thanks

for my self


not very often


and never when anyone is looking


unless it missed some one

and maybe it was me


it is always a clue

as it always was

rules

rules and rulers

are no friend of mine


that which would restrict freedom

i do not embrace


yet sometimes still embrace

for we were sometimes one

excuse me

am not sure what that means

am pretty sure it is the cowardly way out


and just another way

of passing on life

opportunity

just another word for target

in our time


also called a mark


mark is a really weird word


so many want to make their mark

and don't even know what the word means


knowing comes from being

mugged

we have all been mugged

some of us more than once


we all get over that

in our own time

failure

one cannot fail

unless one is trying

to do some thing


life is

pride

pride once seemed to be

the greatest of all curses

and its alter ego

often called shame in our time


that situation

was the birthplace

of vengeance

needs

the shackles we place on our self

and share with others


unless a newborn

or still an infant

vengeance

perhaps the greatest of all curses


just a special form of self pity


feeling sorry for ones self

and wanting another to pay

for ones current situation


the great escape


just one fantasy after another



truth is beyond our control

but the minds of others

are sometime vulnerable to manipulation


"mind me" was a popular term

when i was a child


those that i respected most

never used that phrase at me

although they told me what to do

when i was growing up


after that they let me be

crazy

being crazy

i have been crazy

seems to be a product of confusion

because of all the lies of our time

i smoke and drink

and am drawn to crazy women

seems pretty natural to me

the lies are not natural

and we all have to deal with that

as we can

in our own way

facing the lies

and our personal craziness

which are the lies we told our self

to deal with the lies others told us

is all i see in front of us

and perhaps behind us

if we turn away from our self

facing our self

seems to be the hardest challenge of our time

and all we have left behind

left is the clue

as is behind

there ain't no left

and there ain't no behind

training

all this training of the children

is bringing great chaos and pain

upon the land

and into the soul of man

and the creatures of the field

and the field


we humans feel so smart today

and we are dumber than dirt

as they used to say


am a big fan of dirt

and the children

must be allowed

to find their own way

have

make do with what you have

would be my advice

wanting more than you have

is a very dangerious game to play

but quite popular in our time

and we have been that way

for a long time

me

a boy

being a man

as he can

it

the stupidest word of all


which is just another way

we separate our self

from our self


pretty crazy stuff

is you ask me

as my mother once or twice said

the child

the child needs time

to be with self

before facing our dreams and ambitions

for the child


if not allowed that time

the child will respond

according to the other self

and not its true self


this can lead to ignorant submission

to an untrue stimulis

or an ignorant submission

to a true stimulis


the child is often expected

to respond or perform

before awakening to its self

which leads the child away from its center

to anothers idea of being


we all must find our own way

some make that situation a little easier

some make that situation a little more difficult


thinking one knows something

and infecting another with this thinking

is the great mindfuck of our time

and we are all afflicted with this dis-ease


we are the children

some are younger

some are older

and we all have to find our individual way

to our collective way


we all have an individual way

and a collective way


words are a complicated form of communication

and abused by so many in our time

choosing

the path to littleness

some kind of weird science project


was also once of the thinkers

but the scientists only tried to bore me

sad

am a really sad person

took me a long time to admit that

which is why i tried so hard to be happy


truth is friend or foe

as we choose


and then there is always the other option

which is life without choosing



and perhaps just being

as we are

where we are

and what ever comes next



am pretty sure there is no security here

in spite of what they try to sell us

war

once i was of the warriors

a long time ago

and for a while yesterday

as we say in our time


i now consider that situation

a form of cowardice

and disrespect of life

sexuality

human sexuality

is the only hope we have left


and hope is such a sad little word


the only real crime

is to pass on life

stuff

most people today collect and cling to stuff

they even consider each other stuff


life ain't really all that stuff

and yet life is really all that stuff

time

who ever invented the clock

took humans somewhere

they had never been before


and the sun and moon

came to be ignored


the natural cycles of life

on this little planet

my latest question

is what is the quest ye on

questioning life is not the way of life

being with life is the way of life

and that requires submitting to what actually is


and as a man

a young man at the time

was told the only rule

was never submit to another man


and then i was prejudice

and lost again


sure glad i ain't a girl


still have a friend that is

making sense

i call it making cents


life is not a capitalist enterprise

life is not about making cents


life is the truth of all that is

and is not


and life is free


what we do with life

is what happens to us

until we don't do anything with life

and just be life


sounds pretty passive to me

and not too popular in our time


am going to bed now

thinking

a total waste of time

unless your trying to fix a sink


and even then mostly doesn't work out well


the way we modern people think

is interfering with our preception

of our actual existence

whatever that word means


perception to me

is the openness to the reality

of what actually is


not what i hope it is

or wish it could be

just what it actually is


and it ain't a real word


and thinking is the land of the lost


at least i know where i am


and i still think more than a little

truth

life only becomes difficult

when we choose not to face truth


truth is beyond our ambitions

what we want

what we think

what we look for


looking is the land of the lost


those that see aren't looking for any thing

dragons

facing dragons with an attitude

can be a fearsome task

if you have an attitude

and you are afraid of dragons

strength

strength is a weakness

control an abomination


and we have another

crime against life

moments in time

all we ever really are


so this situation seems to me


to try to catch life

was once a childhood dream


and one of my dumber moments


mostly any more

i just try to keep up with life

as i can under the current circumstances


humans are not very happy people in our time

we don't have much fun

we worry a lot

threats seem to be everywhere


insecurity is a harsh mistress


and life here has very little meaning

if the children are neglected and abused


as has become the custom in our time

control

the dumbest idea humans have come up with yet


the gift is not yet recognized

facing our self

if we are unwilling to face our self

we become unable to face others

and the isolation begins


this need not be so

and is not a natural need

like companionship

flying higher

the higher you want to fly

the farther you have to fall


we all pass judgement on our self

until we don't

lady

the untouchable me

accept maybe on my feet


a product of religious propaganda


not a natural response

accept for children

until they are ready


am not a big fan of

how children are treated in our time

real fast

is you want to go real fast

your have to be real slow

another song i liked

hard headed woman

soft hearted man

been the cause of trouble

ever sense the world began

oh yeah


and some other stuff

i ran across


have always gone at life real fast

pretty much


there are those that go about life

very slowly


did not know about that

and for a while

was not interested

in that particular situation


until i met someone in that situation

and she was like me also


i was very confused

for a while

and still am sometimes

but that's ok

Oh Danny Boy

in sunshine or in shadows

i love you so


one of my favorite songs


once i was of the warriors

and then pisces found me

one rainy day


true singing is great fun

and a gift to the soul

as we celebrate life


most of what i hear today in our time

is just crap


but not all

my greatest shame

is what i didn't notice in this life

we're working on that

work

never work someone to hard

unless you respect them

and they respect you


and only in an emergancy


never just for fun

unless you want to find out about that stuff

and what that leads to


we all go somewhere on this plane

the choices we make

determine what we face

and passing is not an option

until the gift is recognized

pisces

the 12th gate

where we face the truth of all this


aries

the first gate

where we break out


taurus

the second gate

where we land


gemini

the third gate

where we wonder where this is

and where we are


cancer

the forth gate

where they say we were born


leo

the fifth gate

where we face our self


virgo

the sixth gate

where we face what we have done


librea

the seventh gate

where we face who we did that to


scorpio

the eighth gate

the price for what we have done


sagittarius

the ninth gate

where we speak of what we have done


capricorn

the tenth gate

what we must do

because of what we have done


aquarius

the eleventh gate

to finally return to freedom


pisces

the twelfth gate

to face what we have done



from aries to pisces

and around that way

is an option few have chosen


and here we go again

and as usual

we are all somewhere on the wheel


selfishness always leads to isolation

and a diet of stinginess


all that is a bit of an over simplification



neptune has been in pisces for a while


jupiter is in cancer

was hung up there for a while


saturn is hung up in scorpio

headed for sagittarius


the sagittarius gift is to see what we have done


the pisces gift is to be as we are

without all the other crap


modern people don't want to know

what they are doing

has been my experience

truth just doesn't sell


yet life is still a bargain

for those who are willing

to be


i like to smoke and eat and drink

and make merry

when she's willing

personal conflict

conflict with our self

is a war we can't win


we have been taught

to accept some parts of our self

and reject some parts of our self

which leads to internal conflict


winning is not the purpose of Life

being is the purpose of Life


conflict with our self

leads only to conflict with others


peace is a personal experience

as is love

shaping Life

most humans have come to believe

that shaping Life is their right or duty

which may be the greatest misunderstanding

of all time


the forms do not shape Life

Life shapes the forms


all else is a crime against Life

and a source of great suffering

which human history makes very clear

and the daily news


Life is a gift

and mostly abused in our time

and most of history that i am aware of


man has sought to be the creator

and he just ain't qualified


attempting to recreate life

is a very dangerious game to play

and arrogant as hell


arrogance is agressive ignorance


and trying to shape the children

to conform to our personal ideas

is the greatest crime of all

against Life


there is not correct reasoning

for such perverse behavior

which is rampant in our time


ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

Life is the ocean of Life


assistance can be a respectful contribution

control is a crime against Life

dealing with others

most modern people

can't deal with others very well
(unless they deal with their lie)

because they can't deal with their self

which is their greatest fear


deal is the clue


life don't make deals

Malcolm Berko

his 4-6-14 column is good advice for us all

courage

courage is a stupid word


life is a gift

and precious to all

rejection

a backwards form of acceptance


life likes to go forward sometimes

and backward sometimes

life is all inclusive


sometimes life is very still

rule

as long as people are ruled by others

there will be conflict

which in our time is called war


freedom is a precious treasure for some

and only true if for all


humans have sought to dominate the world

for quite some time

and today is the result of such arrogance

which is aggressive ignorance


as long as we live in ignorance

we are dangerous to our self and others


awareness is not a product of thought

ideas

ideas do so fill the head
hearing all the words they said
yet each must know the truth within
to live a life that's without sin

on and on we think and worry
guessing  -  grasping  -  endless flurry
ending up just sad and sick
seeking someone weak to kick

life is only lived in truth
a gift so cherished in our youth
but then we're taught control and lie
play those roles and slowly die

the truth of life must be set free
and open heart is free to see
what it sees  -  yes without guilt
for guilt will cause the soul to wilt

and sickness grow within our band
more violence sweep across the land
for love and truth and life are one
without these we'll soon be done

with golden hair

with golden hair and eyes of green
such beauty i had never seen
yet from my gaze you quickly ran
i cannot look upon you man

for then i could not play this role
if i don't run you'll touch my soul
and wake me up from this deep sleep
i'll blush at first and then i'll weep

for it's hard to face the truth
that was abandoned in my youth
i fought well but they were many
of friendly faces  -  no not any

not it's safe  -  i do not feel
this final refuge you would steal
and bring me back again to life
take me for you loving wife

but that would bring the longing back
the freedom that my heart did lack
when i was young and tried to fight
the darkness here with my small light

but love died
and now i fear it greatly
to live again  -
i have thought of it lately

god it scares me
love is defenseless
war is so senseless
the violence is so hard to bear

i stood once alone
and for a while shone
they beat that out of me
can't you see

i'm one of the now
please go away

please don't love me

don't make me remember
that final december
when i broke  -
and the pain went away

now i do what they say
no more price must i pay

i fought them
but finally lost

yes  -  my heart
is now dark

you awakened
some spark

but  -

damn you

you bastard

you reminded me of
who i once was

but she died

let her be

it hurts to feel


what a place to be

you're there  -
how can i not see

that's just not my way

i hear what you say
but death is not what i embrace

you're still so alive
tho you valiantly strive
to repress all that
your meant to be

now you hate what i am
way you can't  -  but you can
i'll not die to make lies
be more easy

it was wrong from the start
you belong to your heart


damn

praises sing

praises sing and night bells ring
all around this precious thing

places and faces and midnight races
all the while the nomad braces

more and more the onslaught rages
in the wind all ripped out pages

find me now  -  oh lord of love
we seek and pray thy long lost dove

will peace upon the land yet stand
must heart still face the burning brand

still the flame  -  it has not died
tho bled and fed on brutal pride

so far we hold the beach head slightly
no longer bold and brave and mighty

battered troops once fresh and rested
now reel and waver  -  nearly bested

the hope that once so filled the heart
still lives  -  yet in the smallest part

tho battered  -  scarred and mortal weary
at dawn we stand to face the fury

no longer brave we could be called
but no  -  by god we shall not fall

to twisted minds that rule this land
with whip and chain in brutal hand

we will not yield the sacred trust
nor feed upon the moldy crust

which the beast does offer gladly
all inflamed and grinning madly

tho tattered rag  -  thy flag once proud
and bleeding feet  -  tho head un-bowed

we face the dawn with shining faces
of doubt and fear there are no traces

for in thy time each heart does know
as life moves on its sacred flow

the soul of man will seek the light
and move beyond this endless night

the whisper that i dimly hear
does speak that time may yet be near

oh yes  -  the force does feel some stronger
the soul cries out  -  not too much longer

the love long sought by this small band
does in truth feel near at hand

the stirring in the heart grows stronger
raging pain i feel no longer

the mission tho still unfulfilled
will be complete as thou has willed

and light yet fill the hardest heart
thy love shall reach the darkest part

in time the sorrows past will fade
and truth regain this world you made

for as the story does unfold
eternal love each heart will hold

darkest night

through darkest night
we each yet wander
and still this heart
is growing fonder

of each hand
i've yet to hold
of each new story
still untold

for precious is
this child called man
who fears himself
and yet still can

find peace for him
and woman too
regain the love
that they once knew

for as the heart
begins to open
love will heal
that which was broken

wandering

wandering

no goal in sight

no mor seeking for the light

the time has come to play it dumb


one and on through wind and rain

no more for the heart to strain


take it slow

don't make show

accept life soft

and just refrain

no more  -  kiss the girls

and make them squeal

no more  -  make up jokes

and some you steal


the way of peace is four inside

no longer from the truth to hide


our daily bread is all we need

no more human ego feed


let it go  -  the foolish playing

all the foolish hope and praying


the quiet life does suit me now

tho being here i don't know how


but feeling peaceful
is more fun
than anxious wanting


all the needing is just in our heads

just tormenting our self with foolish thought

we don't have to do that

it is just a habit we picked up

along the way

wonder

once is was of the wonders

not so much anymore


once i was of the warriors

not so much any more


once i was

and still a little

the house

the house is not really real

the steps it has taken

actually are


it is the clue

as are you and i

an old story

an old story is was once a part of


hey boy

you get to be very tangible


now your father

he gets to be

very intangible


the mother is real

the father just a dream

yet he was here

and she was not


which does not appear to make much cents

on the surface


surface is a clue


the front is a small part of what is


is is just another word for

me and you

and what once was


life is the crazy bitch

that can never be caught

but sometimes catches you

and me and the rest of our little band

that which is

that which is forgotten

is usually better off forgotten


what which is remembered

is usually better of forgotten


that which is

is all ways with you


who or whatever you are

and you ain't a real word

video games

am not a big fan of video games

am kind of partial to real life


life ain't always cute

and sometimes downright ugly

but can be cute

and sometimes downright beautiful


life is all that is

and i see no reason for me to limit

all that is