the natural world

there was a time

when people were born into the natural world

but that was long ago

before all this progress

and all these little toys we play with

a friend recently fell out of a tree and broke his shoulder

there are those in the medical profession

that i don't much approve of their response to that situation

when a doctor punishes a patient for not acting right

from his personal point of view

i don't consider him much of a doctor

and he is dragging out my friends discomfort

and that really pisses me off

my friend was trying to save a tree

that prick of a doctor is trying to save his reputation

and not the least concerned about my friends broken shoulder

Woman

listen

very quietly

and you might hear

personal glory

a trap little people set for themselves

defeating others

what if defeating others

is not the point of the game


and personal glory

of no value at all

my best intentions

and my best intentions

are of no value at all

courage

another false god

acting as if you are fearless

only proves one is afraid


freedom from fear does not come from a lie

it comes from facing fear

hope

a false god

and the loss of so many

the wayward wind

and i was born the next of kin

to the wayward wind


liked eddy arnold too

be kind to your horse

and all those you enslave

for in time

all things are reversed


who ever created that time thing

was definitely not embracing life

i can't forget

i can't forget but i don't remember what

have been there


remembering can be painful in our situation

if we weren't really there when we were there

leonard cohen and rumi

there ain't no cure for love

capitalists

when we chose to let the capitalists rule us

we put the retards in charge of our situation

and nature was left behind

and the great emptiness was upon us

and the drugs the cartels and the so called health care industry

sold us to survive got stronger and stronger

to seek vengeance

to seek vengeance upon another life form

is to become very intimate with that life form

it's like choosing a new lover

and all the stuff that goes with that


choosing and loving don't have much in common

to exploit people and the planet

what the system in place that i see does

and was designed to do

even the sick and the poor

especially the sick and the injured by all this

and the tragedies are all around us

it doesn't have to be that way

but it all comes down to how we respond to life

which is what we are


life isn't artificial

but so much of the stuff we surround ourselves with is

and most of the people


artificial can only be unnatural

and the truth of our essential natures is in very short supply

which was the plan from the start


humans come up with plans

the creatures of the field sure don't

they don't try to change the world or what they are

they just be with all this as they can

according to their own nature

freedom

we have created a situation here

that allows very little freedom

and all these new laws take that situation even further

and most of us had nothing to do with that

it was done by the powerful few

who i guess we trusted

probably because we are lazy by nature

most of us

of all the places i have been

of all the places i have been

and have yet to be

now is all there really is

our thoughts and words

our thoughts and words are creative

and great chaos is upon the land

and very little peace to be found

the pisces gift

let go

and let life have it's way


and that is all i know

anyone that blames the retarded child

for being a retarded child

is no friend of mine

at least not yet


i do sometime blame them for being stupid

cause that's a personal choice

a weird email from lewis

most people i have met in this life

have made it hard for me to like them

but a few didn't

and perhaps you are one of those

i wish you well

dead man walking

the story of my life

and a few others i have known

i have loved everyone that i could

so many didn't make that very easy for me

but a few did

and i am a very lucky guy

how it once was

what we all have to face

in our own time


and also how it is

as we can

a girl and her gown

she has a right to life

and i have spoken

as i can

truth

a popular word in our time

as long as truth is not allowed too much influence

has been my experience

satistfied

as soon as we are satisfied

we have certainly lost the way


the way is forever unfolding

and satisfied can only get behind

good people and bad people

some people think there are good people and bad people

but there are just people


a lot of us are stupid people

as i can personally testify

but until we can face our stupidity

we will be hidden from ourselves

behind our own creation

which is our satisfaction

which is a very dangerous game to play

chuang tzu

have been reading chuang tzu again

he speaks of doing and non-doing

those birds i watch on the bird bath aren't doing anything

they are being birds

if someone were to train them

and teach them what to do

they wouldn't be being birds anymore

comments

comments are rare

very few have the nerve to comment

what i see

is not at all

what i was lead to believe i would see

what i see

is almost all i have

if i can't face my own blindness

how will i ever be able to face yours

when was the last time i wasn't mad

i actually don't remember

when the ice cycle melts

it returns to the air

from which it came


unless it lands somewhere

and then it becomes a part of where it landed

for a time

that which we have faced

is what we no longer have to fear

sex

and i would ask you

what about sex are you afraid of

rain

rain tends to land all over you

a drip tend to land on one place over and over

one thing i have learned

you can't hear when you yawn

at least i can't

fear

the saint most worship today

one way or the other


some cultivate fear

as governments and law enforcement people to


some claim to be able to free us from fear

for a price


they both lie


fear is just a figment of our imagination

we are the source of our fear

and that is a clue


we persist in abusing ourselves

until we don't

courage

a blind mans bluff

or a girls

our consciousness of ourselves

is always a relatively small part of ourselves

and probably shouldn't be taken all that seriously

wanting things from other people

not a very nice thing to do

and actually a great crime against the human race

and ultimately against the planet as a whole


wanting implies a lack

which we are not capable of

cause we are perfect

which is all life can do


now we humans do have the ability to be imperfect


we are naturally born free

which is natures way

and lifes

courage

is mostly just misleading


strong is the hiding place

of the weak

those that don't understand me

seems to mean they immediately distrust me

which is about the same way i do that stuff


trust is a strange word

what am i doing wrong

a question rarely asked anymore


that situation seems pretty arrogant to me


we don't seem near sharp enough to be getting everything right

at least not to me


yet so many claim they are

positive thinking

a very dangerous game to play

distorting ourselves with lies

will not improve our situation

and only makes our situation worse

courage

a blind mans dream

and the curse of those that fear life

woody guthrie

he saw what was being done to us

and that was before they got so good at doing us

and he suffered greatly for his seeing


the music helped a little

singing is more fun than cursing

but being here killed him

as it has most of us

but not all


life nurtures us

when we accept life as life is


rejection is knot the way

and very painful


the way of life

is the way of life

and no one gets a vote

unless they want one

which is a lot less than all


we each must speak for ourself

cause no one else can

except sometimes

training

don't much care for the training of dogs and horses and other creatures

and training human children is downright offensive to me

training is nothing more than slavery

lying

if we lie to ourselves

we lie to the children

and our friends

and everyone we meet


sometime the lying is unintentional

do to our training and beliefs and opinions

but is still lying


truth can only be manifested

truth cannot be created by man

truth can only be yielded to


the hopeful are lost

courage

a false god

and no friend of mine


mine is just a hole in the ground

all

a word so few can embrace

yet all is what we are

control

the god of the week

and the very weak

for so many in our time

but not all

time

just another illusion

another delusion

another attempt at control

and the god of the week

and the very weak

freedom

more than just a word

to think about

and to hope for

the health care industry

no industry i ever heard of

ever sought to put itself out of business

that would not be good business

and business is the rule of the day

for a time

employee

the modern word for slave

employed

there was a time we didn't have to be employed

to feed ourselves

but that was long ago

when we were free

we the people

there was a time we were people

but now we are addicted to electronic doodads

and other silly stuff


now we are the consumer

and we work for others

for trinkets and beads

and our daily bread


and life is no longer our friend

and fear and insecurity rule the land


and the doctors are among the rich

most of them

i knew one that wasn't

but he was among the few

life

far more important than money

and a lot more satisfying

some times

sometime life is a bitch

and life marches on

into every where

and every thing


there are those that still serve life

but their numbers are way down

in our time

the people at the top of the pile

are not focused on your self and my self

or even their self

they are focused on money

money is their god

that which the serve and long for


they don't even see us

and so often we fear our selves

sometimes you get what you want

sometimes you don't


and love lives somewhere in between

an astrology lesson

you can't grab water

you can't grab water

and astrology lesson

seeing and being

sound like different words

but thats not true

heaven loves me

an old bob dylan song i never heard

was about to say something

but it went away

dignity

all ye who seek such situations

are probably not going to like me

am not quite sure what is going on here

but am inclined to flush it anyway


and that is after extensive research

if you can't face where you are

facing where i am will be impossible


to reject your life

is to reject mine

building that pipeline from canada

may be in your best interest

but what is in your best interest

may not be what is best for you


am obviously not a banker

of even a light weight capitalist


i am alone here

as we all are

until we aren't

other stuff

mostly lately has been other stuff

to be

requires great devotion

and more than a little balls


even the girls have to find their little balls

is what they have in common with boys


man and woman can share the results of that situation

some times

when both are willing

which requires more than little balls


boys and girls are where we meet

man and woman is where we could be

if we were willing to be as we are

successful

to be successful

is to be the greatest of all failures

that

just another word for rejection

fears

it is important to face ones own fears

before one has to face an others fears

failure

far more have survived failure

than have survived success

stumble up on me

another one of my indian names

and i have earned them all


those that give names

are not familiar with names

has been my experience

and i went to wherever i was

there was no where else to be

am a little bit too tired to go upstairs tonight

and a little bit too tired not to

independence

a pretty scary word

if one is attracted to government

and the being of that stuff


governments are no fans of independence

they seek to prevent that ever happening

they serve the bankers

and the capitalist guys


and here we are

in the midst of all this exploitation

and wondering who we are

those that can still wonder

those that are not so sure

a lot of noise being made tonight

very little respect for silence in our time


as there was earlier

looking

a far cry from seeing

and a blind man

shall lead the way


cause he sees better than we do

we are just looking


was about to say something

but it's gone now

knowing

knowing is in the now

in the moment of being

thought is retrospective

awareness is not a product of thought


awareness is a product of being

and surrender to Absolute Truth

the only worthy goal


awareness has nothing to do with what we want

which only misleads us

liar

truthfulness is almost extinct here

we live in a time of political correctness

which came long after manners and rules of conduct

truth has been sacrificed on the alter of image

and liars rule the land

because we are so ignorant of ourselves

and freedom died so long ago

what was done to the native population

is now being done to us

complete submission is required

the 4th of july

the dogs bark

and the cats run and hide

and some of the dogs


welcome to america

at least the one i live in

war

a lonely career for man

and ultimately for woman

and then the children

you can tell a lot about people

by how stupid their dogs are

or those who cultivate cats

watching over

what am i doing

one thing is certain to me

i don't know

so to face myself

i must face not knowing

and my goal was to know