love is not a performance

love is a state of being

amidst our habitual complaining

we have lost the ability to love

much time has passed

much time has passed since i was young
not much has really changed

the game goes on and i'm still here
not changed  -  but re-arranged

my heart still cries  -  i love it so
and spring still brings me joy

yes i'm alive and i don't mind
inside i'm still a boy

much time has passed yet i still play
in this land of terror

no more to hang my head and cry
i don't regret the error

mistakes were made  -  i bless them so
for through them i did learn

if you're  going to play the game
you better learn to burn


         *********

the greatest gift of all

the greatest gift of all

is to be comfortable

with ones personal situation

what matters

the past is not what matters

the here and now are what matters

trying to be nice

all that means is

i don't know how to be nice

wandering

wandering

no goal in sight

no more seeking for the right

the time has come to play it dumb

on and on through wind and rain
no more for the heart to strain

take it slow

don't make a show

accept life soft
and just refrain

no more  -  kiss the girls
and make them squeal

no more  -  make up jokes
and some you steal

the way of peace is found inside
no longer from the truth to hide

our daily bread is all we need
no more the human ego feed

let it go  -  the foolish playing
all the foolish hope and praying

the quiet life does suit me now
tho being here i don't know how

but feeling peaceful
is sure more fun
than anxious wanting

all the needing is just in our heads

just tormenting ourselves with
foolish thought

we don't have to do that

it's just a habit we picked up along the way

submission

life is not about submitting to who your facing

life is about submitting to who you are

once before man took up dreaming

once -  before man took up dreaming
lost himself in all this scheming
life was lived within the order
life itself its own recorder

but in time a change took place
somewhere in the human race
from the truth we turned away
deception's now the game we play

the price is high for this digression
our sickness is the hearts confession
still the spirit seeks to free us
from the shrouds that so conceal us

the heart must face the truth of life
an open mind will end the strife
but we must no more fear the truth
for man to regain his lost youth

want

it you want anything from life

you probably aren't really alive

judgement

everyone passes judgement on their self

by how they respond to life

the top of my list

all the girls i've known

are at the top of my list

blinds

what if safari can't find the blinds

who am i

a pipeliners kid

life with out expectation

expectation is just our cowardly little attempts

to control life

with out

with out darkness

there is no light

everybody pays to play

Terri Sadler

i remember you

what i see

mostly a lot of male female stuff

not much of a man and woman situation

in the present time

with golden hair

with golden hair and eyes of green
such beauty i had never seen
yet from my gaze you quickly ran
i cannot look upon you man

for then i could not play this role
if i don't run you'll touch my soul
and wake me up from this deep sleep
i'll blush at first and then i'll weep

for it's hard to face the truth
that was abandoned in my youth
i fought well but they were many
of friendly faces  -  no not any

now it's safe  -  i do not feel
this final refuge you would steal
and bring me back again to life
take me for your loving wife

but that would bring the longing back
the freedom that my heart did lack
when i was young and tried to fight
the darkness here with my small light

but love died
and now i fear it greatly
to live again  -
i have thought of it lately

god it scares me
love is defenseless
war is so senseless
the violence is so hard to bear

i stood once alone
and for a while shone
they beat that out of me
cant't you see

i'm one of them now
please go away

please don't love me

don't make me remember
that final december
when i broke  -
and the pain went away

now i do what they say
no more price must i pay

i fought them
but finally lost

yes  -  my heart is now dark
you awakened some spark

but  -

damn you

you bastard

you reminded me of
who i once was

but she died

let her be

it hurts to feel


what a place to be

your there  -  how can i not see

that's just not my way

i hear what you say
but death is not what i embrace

you're still so alive
tho you valiantly strive
to repress all that
you meant to be

now you hate what i am
say you can't  -  but you can
i'll not die to make lies
be more easy

it was wrong from the start
you belong to your heart


damn

time and time again

time and time again
we face the dawn and know not when
the end of all this grief and pain
will come and wash the bloody stain

from this world that suffers greatly
and even more from events lately
killing never leads to peace
oh  -  will the violence never cease

peace will only come through kindness
vengeance only leads to blindness
the rage and pain we choose to feel
will never let the old wounds heal

until we learn to respect all others
until we see that all are brothers

everyone claims to be right
everyone claims to know what's right
so few question themselves
so much is wrong

mothers weep

mothers weep
we live like sheep
the hard is all we know

live for pride
the child do hide
and act is all we show

to live the truth
would save our youth
but that is long forgotten

the sands of time
are oh so fine
inside we're slowly rottin'

the gift of life is one for all
the wise man knows it so

yet in our greed and desperate need
it isn't love we show

our wants become our only guide
get it all  -  oh how we tried

yet in the end we all have sinned
from truth we learned to hide

our design code

how i describe our essential nature

that which we are born to be


i was very fortunate as a child

when i was still pretty young

i asked my father

how do you deal with this


his response to me was

i don't know what to tell you boy

your going to have to

work that out for your self


i had a very fortunate childhood


although it wasn't all fun

i wasn't lied to

shadow

never stand

in your own shadow

no more time

no more time to stand around
all those dreams still not quite found
now the truth is clear to me
i've lost enough and now i'm free

the game of life i'll never win
they lied to me  -  but that's their sin
mine was falling for their story
fantastic tales of wealth and glory

many think they know the way
but don't believe in what they say
creation makes us what we are
and each must follow his own star

no matter what the world thinks true
you find the truth inside of you
to lose your self too much in thought
will lead to being what your not

in silent moments here inside
i found the spark that almost died
and regained what i had lost
that precious gift beyond all cost

our essence is what's rightly made
it's truth is through the heart relayed
but we must heed the spirits call
that lives within the heart of all

do not push

do not push on another
he in truth is your brother
there's only one life
that we share

tho we feel so apart
cause we live without heart
and of kindness
we don't seem to care

all this we could change
and the mess rearrange
but the grudges and greed
have to go

the past has been bad
yet more vengeance is sad
and the pain
will continue to grow

the chain  must be broken
our love can't be token
we have to find
some other way

to deal with this life
and end all the strife
or the debt
will become to great to pay

it only will start
if we each do our part
and let go
of the blame and the hate

we must find here inside
some way not to hide
from the truth
before it's too late

for the pain  -  it is growing
the signs are all showing
a breakdown
is not far away

but all talk is cheap
it's the trust we must keep
with our heart
we must face the new day

exploring the great secret

of me and you

schedule

if life gets too scheduled

it ain't no fun to be alife

always

there will always be

those who go forward

and those that get

left behind

time and time again

time and time again
we face the dawn and know not when
the end of all this grief and pain
will come and wash the bloody stain

from this world that suffers greatly
and even more from events lately
killing never leads to peace
oh  -  will the violence never cease

peace will only come through kindness
vengeance only leads to blindness
the rage and pain we choose to feel
will never let the old wounds heal

until we learn to serve all others
until we see that all are brothers

everyone claims to be right
everyone claims to know what's right
so few question themselves
so much is wrong

a guide for the perplexed

a book by e f schumacher


i wish you well

in an age

in and age the soul remembers
sensing still its dying embers
man to truth was honor bound
rarely was deception found

but today our greed does rule us
strange ideas do re tool us
no more is the spirit free
to create life as it should be

the hand of fate is shunned and broken
respect for life no more than token
now the children life in fear
finding little to hold dear

fantastic dreams now fill our heads
strange contortions fill our beds
grace and love so rarely found
with war and violence so renowned

it's said that once the ancients spoke
about the time man would evoke
the beast that would bring on such pain
when tears would fall like endless rain

perhaps now is what they meant
when power's what we represent
but love is lost in such a way
and peace and joy the price we pay

with guns and bombs we blast and kill
we push and shove  -  enforce our will
the seeds we plant will surely grow
yet still it's grief and pain we sow


love will not be found in was
more sorrow  -   that's what we're in for
you don't make friends with pain and fear
we're loving all the heart holds dear

there is still time  -  we're not quite broken
but it takes love much more than token
no more must we live for power
we must sow love for peace to flower

once before man took up dreaming

once  -  before man took up dreaming
lost himself in all this scheming
life was lived within the order
life itself its own recorder

but in time a change took place
somewhere in the human race
from the truth we turned away
deception's now the game we play

the price is high for this digression
our sickness is the heart's confession
still the spirit seeks to free us
from the shrouds that so conceal us

the heart must face the truth of life
and open mind will end the strife
but we must no more fear the truth
for man to regain his lost youth

ideas

ideas do so fill the head
hearing all the words they said
yet each must know the truth within
to live a life that's without sin

on and on we think and worry
guessing  -  grasping  -  endless flurry
ending up just sad and sick
seeking someone weak to kick

life is only live in truth
a gift so cherished in our youth
but then we're taught control and lie
play those roles and slowly die

the truth of life must be set free
an open heart is free to see
what it sees  -  yes without guilt
for guilt will cause the soul to wilt

and sickness grow within our band
more violence sweep across the land
for love and truth and life are one
without these we'll soon be done

a child cries

a child cries
another tree dies
how long will it be till we see

that the world is in pain
and the wails are like rain
the pills must be stronger each day

this cannot be right
such a horrible sight
we each are a cause in some way

let another one change
i will not re-arrange
seems such a cop-out to me

we all must take part
in any new start
if any real change is to be

to think of ourself
beyond everyone else
is wrong an it's so plain to see

we're all selfish inside
yet most try to hide
from the truth  -  which is what sets us free

no  -  we're not all bad
but our minds have been had
and we think someone else is at fault

but each must accept
his own part of the debt
not just armor ourselves like a vault

love your will find
is not in the mind
be open to find your own heart

lost in time

lost in time  -  all never ending

giving freely  -  never lending

grace its self is our true light

shining free and without fright

one must let the heart be open

not turned in  -  its love unspoken

all is all  -  yes this is true

all is one  -  there is no two

i know how things can appear

but love and life are all ways near

what you do

no matter what you  do

to anyone

or anything

you do to your self

life

life is the ocean

an astrology comment

that jupiter in scorpio and uranus in aries

is a pretty big deal

on and on

on and on through life i go
it's and endless wander
still i know that in my heart
i just keep growing fonder

of all the people that i meet
of all the creatures here
more and more i cherish them
forever hold them dear

they seem to be so real inside
tho many no more show it
with outer shell they've learned to hide
but in my heart i know it

all are one  -  as has been spoken
mostly long ago
still i feel i know them all
the bond is still unbroken

Love

life is love

if you know

how to live

much time has passed

much time has passed since i was young
not much has really changed

the game goes on and i'm still here
not changed  -  but re-arranged

my heart still cries  -  i love it so
and spring still brings me joy

yes i'm alive and i don't mind
inside i'm still a boy

much time has passed yet i still play
in this land of terror

no more to hang my head and cry
i don't regret the error

mistakes were made  -  i bless them so
for through them i did learn

if you're going to play the game
you better learn to burn

what part of my self

am i not accepting


perhaps the first question

we should ask our self

she was

she was such a gentle soul
heart and truth the only goal
but hardship on the way she learned
more than once the did get burned

in time she learned to turn her head
avoid the truth and lie instead
for a while it did feel better
no one lives by just the letter

soon the heart began to close
hardness took our gentle rose
all soft and kind was brushed away
no longer would the soul know play

on through life in mindless rush
push and pull and such a fuss
nothing left but guilt and worry
on she rushed in such a hurry

always tired  -  no joy in work
more and more she learned to shirk
duties seem to drag her down
sometimes feeling she might drown

her own center she had lost
spurned away as such a cost
it happened when she first said no
stick the truth  -  i just won't go

life itself's still bright and free
but when from truth we try to flee
we turn our backs on its true way
now we will have the final say

truth and love and life are one
to close our heart blocks out the sun
it's love it seems that most men fear
tho the word is spoken dear

most in time give up the flight
give up darkness for the light
for truth and love are life its self
this is true and endless wealth

if we can give up all our dreams
all our plans and mighty schemes
we'll find our own true destiny
again live life as spirit free


wrote those words a long time ago

still like the sound of them

but not sure if we humans

know how to be free

we start in on children

we start in on children
so early today
to program their minds
when they should learn how to play

a child needs the time
to first know its self
and it hurts to be told
to just get on that shelf

with no time to consider
just what this might be
we rob them so quickly
of their right to see

it seems plane to me
the old way's not so smart
as we rip up this planet
and tear at its heart

in spite of the terrors
which now fill the land
the stink of pollution
so carefully planned

we still tell them all
that "i know what's best"
but the results that i see
sure don't pass the test

the innocence found
in the eyes of a child
the master once spoke of
in terms not so mild

"be as the children"
is what he once said
the will to respect them
today seems quite dead

most just play roles
that were forced in their mind
with no thought of nature
now so hard to find

a fresh look at life
is the gift of new birth
i we don't respect it
then what is it worth

there are those

there are those who have not heard
yet the silent sacred word
but the lord of life does live
still unceasingly does give

love in torrents to us all
if we but remove the wall
built around the heart so strong
and sentenced us to so much wrong

this was never meant to be
all were at once sent forth free
give up the fight it has been spoken
and the heart will be unbroken

but each must try in his own way
to face the truth of each new day
and live a life as it should be
with open heart and soul that's free

i went to a party

i went to a party on saturday night
and the sights that i saw gave my heart such a fright

the masks that we wore were so ghastly to see
i stood there in silence  -  how could this all be

the noise was so great and the smiles so untrue
most were afraid and the others just blue

i watched for a while then did go away
but soon i returned  -  still with nothing to say

the din was still growing and the music so loud
soon i was into the mood of the crowd

we're here to forget just how lonely we feel
for a while to pretend it's not such a bad deal

the wine it's a flowing and the smoke is so thick
a sane person by now would lie down and be sick

but not me  -  i'm so tough i can take it all in
as we strut for the girls and pretend we're still men

now it's over at last and i'm home here alone
all the girls turned away  -  no one threw me a bone

in a while i will sleep till the sunrise again
and try to remember just where all i've been

the head full of aches and a sadness inside
to be such a fool and so full of pride

maybe in time i'll grow up and reform
but it's hard in a world where conform is the norm


seems like we always blame someone else
for our situation with our self

these times

more than a little interesting to me


sometimes

once before

once before the trust was broken
when the truth was freely spoken
men were free and knew lifes way
life was not some game to play

now our heads are hollow vases
stupid looks on all our faces
respect for life not to be found
pride in self does so abound

selfish ways will be our doom
for love of life we have no room
truth could yet redeem our lives
yet greed so far is all that thrives

kindness is what most have lost
frustration fules at such a cost
a selfish heart can not see clearly
and love's the gift we need so dearly

a word of caution

a word of caution to my friend
the world will break who do no bend

the flow of life goes on forever
and there is in truth no never

on and on through time we go
as life proceeds with its own show

the perfect way is always clear
but only seen when truth is dear

they say today you're free to choose
take any path  -  you just can't lose

but hear me friend  -  life has its way
it's not some silly game we play

mothers weep

mothers weep
we live like sheep
the herd is all we know

live for pride
the child do hide
an act is all we show

to live the truth
would save our youth
but that is long forgotten

the sands of time
are oh so fine
inside we're slowly rottin'


the gift of life is one for all
the wise man knows it so

yet in our greed and desperate need
it isn't love we show

our wants become our only guide
get it all  -  oh how we tried

yet in the end we all have sinned
from truth we learned to hide

             

gentle words

with gentle words he spoke to me
you think you are  -  but you're not free

your wants and dreams still rule this life
and they're the source of all this strife

the gift of life is love and grace
but in this world they find no place

man today just lives for dollars
none are free  -  for all wear collars

slaves to all the things still wanted
live in shame as pride is flaunted

this great addiction is our plight
its cravings fill each day and night

we suffer from our endless need
destroy a world our final deed

this need not be our lasting fate
there is still time  -  it's not too late

but each must learn we're born to serve
tho few today have found the nerve

to break the chains of greed and fear
and serve/love the life we once held dear

                     ********

i am

i am not here to challenge you

i am here to stand beside you

and walk with you


if you find a challenge in life

you brought it with you

goals

one of the greatest crimes

we humans can commit

on our selves


the modern addiction

our current affliction


some take charge of their life

some keep up with their life

we all have to find our own way

the gift

so rarely recognized

in our time

by so many

of us humans


it seems to me

so few even wonder

any more


life for so many

is not the gift

it once was


humans have become

the main problem

life has on this particular

plane of existence


the creatures of the field

have mostly just survived as they can

as have some humans