the loser

if the loser doesn't win

we all lose

the song bird of the north

loves the song bird of the south


have often wondered how that could be

and yet here we are

sometimes i wonder about what i see

sometimes i wonder about what i don't see

often not sure what i should do

should i bow

or step away from you

ahoy there my friend

life is a long way off

and so is now


i often wonder how that can be


perhaps i am not paying attention


paying never was my favorite thing

mostly i have been poor

the bottle thrown in the ocean

some are here to find the bottle

some are here to watch over the bottle

some are here to be the bottle

and some are here to be what is in the bottle


and some other stuff

a poor excuse for a word

depending on how it's used


as is know

depending on how it's used

i love life

in what ever way someone like me can

and i wish life well

as i can


welcome to the trail of tears

my friend

the history of america

the history of the conquest of the americas

makes hitler look like a light weight


the extermination of the natural environment

the creatures of the field

and the native population

are unparalleled in any history i have heard of

except maybe genghis khan


i am not saying the wrong thing happened

and not qualified to know if that is true

but i am saying it did happen


and the record of this is well documented

but not taught in schools


and we play with our electronic doodads

and sit on our ass watching electronic imaging devices


and life goes on without us

the brain thinker

to be brain thinker orientated

is to be mindless


ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean


awareness is not a product of thought

am apparently moving into a new house

do not intend to wear street shoes in there

would prefer that others respected that situation


i have no idea what life is doing


not wearing shoes in the house

find that a great idea

doubt we will probably do it though

paying homage to a man

a female situation

most males reject that situation

which is a form of self rejection

for them both

for different reasons

zero

zero is all numbers

as is one

neither has any place to go


two is not a real number


three is a narrow number

four is a full number


and we are all suffering greatly

worrying

just another way to avoid disappointment


and avoid our self again


we fear failure

we fear success

where else is the for us to go

courage is a false god

and a product of thought




awareness is not a product of thought


and life is more than a product

you

you are just a different version of me

hi

do you remember me


i still remember you


most of us

what is all ways right

is not all ways the way the way was yesterday


sometimes this may be so


but not all ways


life is all that is

and is not

whether we like it or not


liking it or not ain't much fun

but i did for a while


for some silly reason it felt safer

and truth was a little scary

ego maniacs

the most popular game in town

in our time


not such a big fan of that crap


pride is a curse

as is greed

and yet to popular in our time

now

sometimes the scariest place of all

sometimes the funnest place of all


and sometimes i don't know what


but now is all there is

and all we can ever have


yesterday is a false god

woman

if woman has not showed up in your life

you have never yet lived

no matter who you are

light

when we rely on artificial light

we go in harms way

honor

the price we pay

to be who we are


and the respect we pay to others

who also have the right to be who they are

don't get around much anymore

another old song i listened to tonight


that which has already passed

seems to be a pretty big part of me


and there is always what is yet to be

someone was born today

someone died today

and today is what actually matters


being is more than getting what we want


being is being as we are


and what we could be is just bullshit

heaven on earth

an other old song i am listening to now

the harbor lights

another old song i am listening to at the moment

mine

an empty word

smoke gets in your eyes

an old song

a very old song

i listened to again tonight

the bottom

where we all meet

in our own time


the top is a false god

and only a friend of the word mine

and nothing belongs to me


all is what we are

confidence

don't know what that word means

our time

if i were to comment on our time

it would be that these are times of great abuse

upon so many

by so many


and this has been so for a very long time


perhaps we should re-examine our values


perhaps we should re-examine our self


so many wish to tell us who we should be

and what we should do

and no one is qualified to do that

certainly not our self


life is forever now

life is being

pleasure

what all the great religions fear the most


and the capitalist saw as a great opportunity

it's a mad mad mad mad world

watched that movie tonight


it was a clue

caring

one of the dumbest things we do

confusion

the reason there is so much confusion in the world

is because everyone speaks their own language

most people don't know that

they just listen to the words

money

chasing the money tree

becomes no way to live

need

when we acquire and hoard

far more than we actually need

we are depriving others of what they need

ideas

ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean

my friend

my friend is not a thinker

and i like him a lot

quite a lot actually


he is a male and not my only friend

the other friend is a girl

and i like her a lot

quite a lot actually


i like people

but they don't always like me


have wondered about that some


not so much anymore


life is beyond my little understanding


i can only be as i can

as i am


and do not give in to hoping for the best

cause i don't know what best is

the old days

the old days are always here

if we don't forget who we are