we have a problem

we have a serious problem in the world today

we are a serious problem in the world today

as children we are taught how to preform

how to act

now  -  instead of living  -  we are acting

playing roles

in order to sustain the role we must repress our true nature

which means we are repressing life

and living a lie

experiencing ourselves as a lie

lying both to ourselves and others

we are now several generations deep in untrue existence

the parents are playing roles

the teachers are playing roles

the preachers are playing roles

we play roles with each other

with our partners

with the children

with our selves


this role we are playing  -  this lie we are perpetuating
  on ourselves is stifling the

Truth of our Existence

we are creating distance between our truth

we are creating barriers between the role we are playing

(who we believe ourselves to be)

and who we actually are

this leads to great conflict and pressure inside our selves

this pressure is making us sick and mean

this seperation from the truth of our selves  -  what life
  created us to be  -  makes us afraid

the sickness and fear and violence in our world is a
  product of our unnatural existence

and will continue to grow until we give up our
  unnatural existence

we are emotionally constipated  -  constantly frustrated

the conflict between our true nature and the role we are
  playing  -  the lie we are living  -  leaves us no peace

the thought processes we involve ourselves in are constantly
  seeking escape from the pain and fear and conflict and frustration

this leads to our great confusion

we create and endless stream of ideas of what we think
  will make us happy

we live in almost constant torment and need

all the time trying to act like we're not

we are taught to act confident  -  when we're not

we are taught to take control  -  when it was control
  that got us this way

life is not to be controlled

life is to be lived

to be lived and experienced openly and fully

we repress life and expect to be happy

that is insane thinking

the creatures in zoos are not happy

they were meant to be free  -  living their lives and taking
  their chances in a free environment

thinking the we are ok when we're not  (so called positive
  thinking) will only make our situation worse

more lies won't help

it will only lead to more disappointment and frustration

the truth of our existence is the only hope we have


without respect for life within and without our selves

our situation looks pretty bleak to me

but every day is a new day

all the girls i've loved before

an old song

and one of my favorites


first heard it by julio iglesias

later he did it with willie nelson


a great song


if it wasn't for the girls

there would be no reason

to come to this little planet

december 7, 1941

where my father was that day

this world

this world

is nothing like the world

i was born into

over 73 years ago

but it is still

where life is

for me


was born in 1944

some called us war babies


the human race

sure seems to like

that war crap

but i ain't like that


out here in the west

just another stray


never been much

for the herd situation

how close are we

how close are we

to that which we were actually

born to be


lately i have called that situation

our design code


what we were born to be


which has nothing to do

with what others think we should be

or what we think we should be

awareness

awareness is not a product of thought


only a quiet mind can experience peace


conflict and chaos are products of thought


as is this wierd civilization we are involved with

my fathers advice

if your ever in a gunfight with five guys

you better know which one to shoot first


his way of saying  "pay attention boy"


i still remember after all these years

my father was at pearl harbor that day

some people

some people seem to think

some ways are right

and some ways are wrong

what if all ways are right

and the thinkers are wrong

corruption and greed

the curse of so many

for so long

december 7, 1941

my father called that day his anniversary

he was at pearl harbor that morning

on the battleship west virginia

he didn't talk about that morning much

teeth

take care of your teeth

false teeth ain't no fun

but better than no teeth

a long time ago

a long time ago

when i was a lot younger

i asked my father

what's going on here

how do you deal with all this


his response to me was

i don't know what to tell you boy

your going to have to work that out for your self


he was a good man

and never lied to me


i learned to take responsibility for my self

and learn my own lessons

not someone else's

true

the deer and the mountain lion

are being true to their

what i call

design code


modern humans

not so much


ideas rule in our time

and ideas are not real


awareness is not a product of thought

fooling people

it ain't no fun fooling people

when they are so busy

fooling their self

on through life

as on and on thru life i go
bewildered by its mighty show
i feel sometimes  -  when i'm alone
that all the joy once known has flown

and in its place i now find fear
replacing all that once was dear
old and cold i still go on
not content  -  yet heart not gone

for life itself is grand to me
inspite of all the pain i see
and still if i get one more chance
to do some thing that might enhance

this world a little  -  i'll still try
to keep my head up to the sky
and do the work as well i can
to not betray lifes faith in man

pieces of eight

pieces of eight
are nothing but freight
if you don't have
a friend at your side

all the gold in the land
is not worth that small hand
that i held when we took
that first ride

when the journey is done
and the course has been run
with a smile on my face
i'll have died

and the moments we shared
in the time we were paired
were a dream from which
no one would hide

an old joke from my childhood

the first little bird said

my instincts tell me to fly north


the second little bird said

my instincts tell me to fly south


the third little bird said

my end stinks

but it don't tell me nothin'

the ultimate truth

when the truth

has to face the lie

trying

if you know what you are doing

you don't have to try

baby boomers

i grew up in a world of baby boomers

i was a war baby

life is a lot more interesting

when we don't take our self too seriously

capital resources

the ability to buy

other insecure people

and control them


if they submit to people

with extra money


that money stuff

is a control freak thing

in the world we live in

stand up

and be who you are

who

who are you

i don't know


what are you doing here

i don't know


what are you

i already told you

one

the road of life

passes through all


the way of life

passes through all


it appears to me

all that is

is all


we are many

and we are one

the knee

allows the leg to be

more than a thing

as does the foot

ambitions

a very dangerous game to play


often leads to conflict with life


which is what we are

wild

civilizations word for free

love

a state of being

and not something you get from another


although it can be shared


being loved is of limited value

until it is shared


we all grow up in our own time

one man

on man is short
and another one tall
to see them as two
has been our downfall

one spirit is all
my heart has been told
the voice was not soft
it was spoken quite bold

all men are brothers
i know that it's true
tho this is suspected
by only a few

all are yourself
the same essence inside
but to hear it i know
just might hurt your pride

pride's just a shield
and it locks us away
in chains of restraint
that won't let us play

life must be free
to unfold as it should
all our thinking and planning
has led to no good

the spirit of life
is its own plan you see
it can't be improved
and it sets us all free

for love is the gift
that it shares with us all
there's no time like the present
to answer its call

on and on

on and on through life i go
it's an endless wander
still i know that in my heart
i just keep growing fonder

of all the people that i meet
of all the creatures here
more and more i cherish them
forever hold them dear

they seem to be so real inside
tho many no more show it
with outer shell they've learned to hide
but in my heart i know it

all are one  -  as has been spoken
mostly long ago
still i feel i know them all
the bond is still unbroken

a friend of mine

a friend of mine
not long ago
asked if i was crazy

i said no
i don't think so
but i might be lazy

all i want to do is play
and fill some girl with fun

my conscience doesn't bother me
that part is surely done

i like to do the things i like
my heart says it's ok

to have some fun  -  make someone laugh
don't censor what you say

just be your self  -  it's lifes own plan
and you must live it true

don't worry what those others think
that's not the life for you

the past is dead  -  ideas burned
you don't get nothing back

your life is now and you'll know how
there's nothing that you lack


kind of silly but i like it

day of mourning

day of mourning
no more scorning
this i do implore

tell me why we act this way
help me know the score

i have wondered all my life
in this land of free

why we never quite turn out
to be what we would be

still i know here in my heart
as i think of you

here inside we're all the same
no matter what we do

perhaps the truth we do not serve
perhaps we do not know

just what is the truth of life
who really runs the show

ourselves we glory
same old story
with our egos grand

always sure of who we are
and where we make our stand

a word of caution we might heed
in our current state

too much power can mislead
and result in so much hate

please don't bully and impose
your will so upon others

life tells me with every breath
that all who live are brothers

the other side is still yourself
no matter where you go

the truth of life will be revealed
to those who wish to know

and are willing to accept
the truth of what actually is

divided

divided over where we go
what we do and what we show

seems to me  -  now that i'm old
it makes no sense what i've been told

the truth inside must first be found
or life is one big run around

if you don't be just who you are
you'll wind up wishing on some star

and wishing always leads to sorrow
always living for tomorrow

but what about your life today
just dreaming lets it slip away

the here and now is what we are
truth can never be that far

let the whole of now be lived
so nothing has to be re-lived

life on this plane of existence

at this time

life on this plane

is a salvage operation

wanting

wanting indicates a lack

which is a lack of openness

our time

being with ourself

in ways we have never been before

welcome to hard times

where we are

as a species

we start in on children

we start in on children
so early today
to program their minds
when they should learn how to play

a child needs the time
to first know its self
and it hurts to be told
to just get on that shelf

with no time to consider
just what this might be
we rob them so quickly
of their right to see

it seems plain to me
the old way ain't so smart
as we rip up this planet
and tear at its heart

in spite of the terrors
which now fill the land
the stink of pollution
so carefully planned

we still tell them all
that "i know what's best"
but the results that i see
sure don't pass the test

the innocence found
in the eyes pf a child
the master once spoke of
in terms not so mild

"be as the children"
is what he once said
the will to respect them
today seems quite dead

most just play roles
that were forced in their mind
with no thought of nature
now so hard to find

a fresh look at life
is the gift of new birth
if we don't respect it
then what is it worth

greetings my friend

greetings my friend
i've not seen in so long
tho here in my heart
you have never been gone

and i wish to say
in a personal way
just to have known you
does brighten my day

the love that you share
where ever you go
reminds all around you
that love is the show

that brings us together
with its own special gift
and it's the true healer
that mends every rift

i might have forgotten
had i not met you
of all of the blessings
yours is most true


hi jim

heros

heros come and héros go
mostly they disrupt the show
for we tend to imitate
this will lead to second rate

each is born with its own plan
this is true of every man
copies only lead to sadness
self-denial leads to madness

to your heart you must be true
even if rewards are few
the plan of life is what is real
we're not here to make some deal

true nature first must be respected
our duty must not be neglected
the truth of life is its own goal
and living truth will heal the soul

times of conflict

in times of great conflict
like these that i see
it's hard to make judgement
like just what to be

confusion and chaos
will keep us uptight
that by itself
makes it hard to know right

perhaps if we slow down
and just clear our head
give up the ideas
that make us brain dead

cause when this one says this
and another says that
we settle the issue
with fist and with bat

most think they know something
but i think we don't
we outsmart ourselves
with ideas that won't

fit in with nature
which has it's own plan
which we disregard
because we now can

if we took the time
and gave life a look
it just might not be
as we read in some book

the mind that's not made up
and fused with belief
might find something more
and provide some relief

but if no one will face
that they just might be wrong
we may someday look up
and find our world gone

the most popular men for modern women

those that are the easiest to ignore


except for a few

priceless time

experience each moment fully

it will not return

the price of life is yourself

love is not a marketable commodity

life is complete in and of itself

life is a bargain unless you want something

life is the only noble cause

love is the only noble cause

life and love are the same

life is only real when it's free

love is only real when it's free

life and love are the same

truth is the only noble cause

truth and life and love are the same

freedom is of the heart

truth is of the heart

freedom and truth are the same

joy is of the heart

joy and freedom are the same

peace and joy are of the heart

peace and joy are the same

man is lost in his head

a comment

time
truth
opportunity

action

ability

strive for nothing

function in the world as it is

seek no answers

be truth

be as you are

function in the world as you are

each has his own individual function

none is better or worse than another

do what is your nature to do

be what is your nature to be

allow others the same opportunity

peace is acceptance of what is

respond to opportunities as they present themselves

be a human being


allow the children to find their own way

life

life could be a celebration of what we are


but there are those that don't agree with me

will power

don't try that if your a pisces

that's a pretty primitive state of mind


pisces is a by life be led situation


not many know what that means anymore

9

also called nine

the number that clarifies

1131

had something to say about that number

but i forgot

and you pisces girls

you ain't here to receive the gift


you are the gift

pisces

the gift

what if i don't deserve

what if i don't deserve

the gift i have just received


welcome to pisces

a friend called rama

wanting

if the human race would give that crap up

we would all be a lot better off


but it wouldn't be good for business

children

children can't be taught how to  be human beings

they must be allowed to find their own way


ain't much of that going on in our little world

an old poem

SATURDAY, APRIL 22, 2017

in times long past

in times long past before we learned
about ideas and got burned
men lived in peace with one another
and knew each to be his brother

but in time we lost our way
how this happened i can't say
maybe this was meant to be
a plan of life to help us see

as i said i know not why
yet these results make my heart cry
it seems that all we learned is hate
and at times it seems too late

can all this change  -  the mind does wonder
must the guns all roar like thunder
if we continue on this way
night will soon engulf the day

the children all will lose their home
all will grieve and wail and moan
just because we forsake love
and with our armies crushed the dove

there is still time the heart does say
but we must return to the way
all thought of what to be must go
an open heart and mind can know

our sexuality

that which divides us

and makes us what we are

three women in my life

one was called bea

one was called terri

and the third was also called terri

man

the naked ape


just some thing to be

the lost romance

what a place to be


where marjory miller wound up

with her mother

pisces

pisces is the key to the universe

aquarius is the gate


if you happen to be here

on the planet we call earth

old fashioned houses

old fashioned houses
and trees all around
no rumble of engines
a beautiful sound

i stand here in silence
my heart filled with joy
for i had not seen it
since i was a boy

most don't remember
it just slips away
but i can't forget where
i learned how to play

the summers in clover
that filled me with glee
the house that we built
in that old maple tree

the girls of my youth
they were gentle and kind
the peace of those days
is now so hard to find

it don't seem to me
that we've made the world better
all mapped out and
planned to the letter

perhaps we'll remember
in time what we lost
what we tore down and changed
at a terrible cost

once life was free and
we all breathed clean air
nature was loved and
we knew how to pair

but that was another time

aries and libra

the me

and the we


then there is where we are


the who we are is the holy grail


and we all have to find our own way

children

the children require the opportunity

to find their own way with their self

which is no longer permitted

in our little world


the natural what i call the design code

is being overridden by thought

and awareness is not a product of thought

but confusion and conflict are

facing your self

if you aren't able to face your self

you won't be able to face me

openness

openness to what we call out there

and openness to what we call in here

is what we will come to call being alive someday

her

the woman

that was still a girl

an old one from 2012

to be with an other

i have to be able to survive an others pain

and our time has so much pain

how it once was

and oron spoke to his son jacob about
  how it once was

about how the land once supported mankind
  and the creatures of the field

in the beginning the cycles of manifestation
  were the greatest power

the cycles of dispensation regulated all
  life on this plane

the fruits of nature came and went

each learned to work and live within the system

or it died

there was no way to cheat

the forms of life came forth and grew and
  evolved  -  ran their natural course of existence

and died in their own time  -  as all things must

but the force or spirit of life once more cloaked
  its self in the material of this plane

to come forth again and again in its apparently
  endless sequence of expressions of itself

each more refined and remarkable than the
  one before

this is how it once was

as the creative force wove the glorious fabric of life

a living cloak upon this once barren globe

at some point in time  -  i know not when

the idea arose in man that he could or should take
  charge of his life

to make things better for himself

that he need not accept the cycles of dispensation
  as life provided

and took away

perhaps he thought or desired not to die in his own time

or that his children or wife should not die

this is not known to me

all that is known is that mankind came to rebel
  against the order of life

perhaps this is the natural next step for man

i do not know

in any case  -  man made many changes in this world

apparently to improve his situation  -  that he might
  not have to strive and struggle and die

that life might be made easier  -  and last longer

how and why is lost in the passage of time

all that is known is that man became greedy and
  selfish and feared for himself

once man took only what he needed to live and
  there was balance in this world

but man then came to take more than he needed

and deprived others of his kind and the creatures
  of the field what they needed to live out their
  allotted span of time

the order of life was disrupted

soon the vast green cloak of the forests began
  to disappear

slowly at first  -  but with ever and ever
  increasing speed

for a time nature could heal the wounds to
  the body

but as man sought more and more not to die  -  with
  his vaccinations and his cures  -  the population
  grew and grew and began to overwhelm the natural
  life support system of this plane

more and more the great canopy of the forest disappeared

the creatures of the field  -  who also make up the
  fabric of life on this plane  -  began to disappear

the atmosphere and climate began to change

the concoctions of man to improve his lot in life
  began to sterilize and poison the earth

whole species were destroyed to make man safer and
  gorge his belly beyond and reasonable need

the signs of decay and corruption were clear

but man refused or was unable to see the error
  of his ways

the great crime being perpetuated on the fragile
  beauty of the earth

and ultimately upon himself

man created new systems to support himself

and as each failed in time  -  sought to create another
  and another

each failing more quickly than the last

it is not known if this journey man has taken is right
  or wrong

perhaps we have failed at our destiny

perhaps not

all that is known by me is that man suffers greatly
  amid his own creations

has brought this suffering upon himself by not
  accepting the gifts of life as they are offered

and accepting their loss when they are reclaimed
  by the order of things

the creatures of the field are born and die in
  their own time  -  without complaint

i have seen it so

in our own time  -  we must make our own choices


                               ********

self-control

perhaps the greatest curse of our time


perhaps the greatest curse of all time

security

there is no security here

which i suppose is why

it sells so well

combine

the definition

of the word life

trying

life is not about trying

life is about being

i don't know

i would like you to like me


but not sure if i like my self

a pipeliners kid

that some people called me

some just called me crazy


 now me

i just keep up with me as i can

marjory

she bought a trailer


and parked it in her back yard

was just hangin out here

didn't mean no harm

a plan

to have a plan for a project is one thing


but to have a plan for your life

could be limiting your freedom


i mostly just keep up with this life

as i can


we all have to find our own way

some words i wrote down

words that were being with me


the decline of human sexuality

the greatest challenge of our time
for the human race

and our little planet


we know so little of life

of ourselves

cause we think too much

and have forgotten how to be


that was page 1

next is page 2


and have forgotten how to be


being ourselves is not learning

it is willing to be who we are


was a line across the page here


comments on life

to every one and all


selective resistance


facial hair


and that was the end of that experience

love

love can be a burden

among other things

a time to be and a time to not be

and there you have it

the square and the cube

the square and the cube


one that becomes the other

the offspring of war

a situation so many of us

get to face in our time

greed

to let greed rule you

will not lead to a happy life

joyce autry

i worked for her at starwind

a long time ago

if your me

just because i don't want to

dosen't mean i can't

my mind still wanders

which i still find entertaining

the ancient voice

the ancient voice
has said to me

you look and look
yet still don't see

one must open
to the truth

with childlike grace
embrace its youth

the love of life
in all its forms

will shield you from
the coming storm

for truth is all
and all are one

from smallest to
the blazing sun

this one is a rerun

a woman face was all it took
to launch this bold crusade

up till then i did my job
i thought i had it made

then i www her standing there
my heart went all a'flutter

but all i got was empty arms
next i found the gutter

self-pity took me to its breast
i fed with such delight

it seemed to me that i'd been wronged
this brought me some respite

in time i learned and now i'm free
or maybe on parole

those want things sure do drag you down
they always hurt the soul

the obstanant rock

she was my mother

and my friend

the sacred trust

always be who you are

and not who you think you are

or who you think you want to be


think is the clue


the thinker is a mindless state


awareness is not a product of thought

them

those that are other than my self


not a real word

a friend of mine

a friend of mine
not long ago
asked if i was crazy

i said no
i don't think so
but i might be lazy

all i want to do is play
and fill some girl with fun

my conscience doesn't bother me
that part is surely done

i like to do the things i like
my heart says it's ok

to have some fun  -  make some one laugh
don't censor what you say

just be your self  -  it's lifes own plan
and you must live it true

don't worry what those others think
that's not the life for you

the past is dead  -  ideas burned
you don't get nothing back

your life is now and you'll know how
there's nothing that you lack

the right words

the right words

are different every moment

as circumstances change

which is how life is


sometimes fast

and sometimes slow

yet forever changing

on and on

on and on through life i go
it's and endless wander
still i know that in my heart
i just keep growing fonder

of all the people that i meet
of all the creatures here
more and more i cherish them
forever hold them dear

they seem to be so real inside
tho many no more show it
with outer shell they've learned to hide
but in my heart i know it

all are one  -  as has been spoken
mostly long ago
still i feel i know them all
the bond is still unbroken

the ancient voice

the ancient voice
has said to me

you look and look
yet still don't see

one must open
to the truth

with childlike grace
embrace its youth

the love of life
in all its forms

will shield you from
the coming storms

for truth is all
and all are one

from smallest to
the blazing sun

me

i get to be

the 72 year

old fart

now

life again

as i have said

if you can't face your self

you will not be able to face me

my first wifes name

my first wifes name was Bea

Rossie Bea

one of the exceptional women

Life has exposed me to in this experience

there have been others

i have been truly blessed

what can be said

what can be said
in the land of the dead
nobody really listens

all are wanting
see me  -  flaunting
how my ego glistens

needs so great
but it's too late
no one's really there

but still i try
to feel the sky
don't know why i care

the game is lost
at such a cost
the soul has lost its way

glassy eyes
and mindless cries
i don't know what to say

goodby?

not yet my friend


     ******


pretend it's real
act like you feel
play the game just right

it bores me so
no place to go
it gives me such a fright

yet i'm still here
and life is dear
even tho so wasted

so on we go
in truth we know
to see what can be tasted

play the game
be free of shame
who cares who wins or looses

it matters not
it's all we've got
this is what life chooses

thanks for the chance
for one more dance
as life goes on it's way

this can't be wrong
it's natures song
a special game we play


      ******


the truth inside is real
and that no one can steal
so stand up straight and don't be late
don't fear the way you feel


life is a gift
we have just forgotten how to live
but we sure know how to act
now we perform
now we conform
it's all fake
yet truth does exist
everywhere


     ******


such pain
such delusion
such shame
such illusion

pity the man who sees

and praise his courage


     ******


words have no meaning
they are only sounds
ideas are fantasy
thoughts imagination
desires dreams of yesterday
or tomorrow
ultimately all there is is now
what actually is

accept all that is
as it actually is
with all your heart
and mind
and soul
and be free

most are lost in thought
a form of escapism
and all we escape is life
and life is love

when we want love
we have escaped life

eescape is an illusion
a delusion
our suffering is self imposed
this need not be so


     ******


truth is not popular

when not actually forbidden  -
  certainly frowned upon

life is the truth of all existence

the essential truth of all existence is love

love is not popular

look around

very few even smile
happiness is rare
anger and sarcasim all the rage
greed and pride and shame in abundance

and the terrible fear

life has not forsaken us
we have forsaken ourselves
we have lost the way
we have been misled
we believe in the great lie that
  our culture has become
we want what is not real or unnatural
  because we are not real or natural
our presence is no longer valid  -
  except for the children for a while
untile we demand that the conform
  to the great lie

and most do

the brutality is too great

     ********

Life

for modern humans

the greatest of all misunderstandings


to think you know

is not the same

as knowing


awareness is not a product of thought

but insanity is


life is a state of being

as is peaceful life

the commanding self

by idries shaw


been looking at that again


have been a big fan of sufi literature

travel talks

by james (maybe a) fitzpatrick


these are of historical significance

times of conflict

in times of great conflict
like these that i see
it's hard to make judgement
like just what to be

confusion and chaos
will keep up uptight
that by itself
makes it hard to know right

perhaps if we slow down
and just clear our head
give up the ideas
that make us brain dead

cause when this one says this
and another says that
we settle the issue
with fist and with bat

most think they know something
but i think we don't
we outsmart ourselves
with ideas that won't

fit in with nature
which has it's own plan
which we disregard
because we now can

if we took the time
and gave life a look
it just might not be
as we read in some book

a mind that's not made up
and fused with belief
might find something more
and provide some relief

but if no one will face
that they just might be wrong
we may someday look up
and find our world gone

Life

Life does not submit to your will

or your insecurities

A Guide For the Perplexed

by E. F. Schumacher


a little book

which i certainly admire

innocence

probably my first day on the job here


sure have been a lot of those

security attachments

see security alert to the left

life is a process of becoming

mostly we just get to hang in there

and keep up as we can

if we have any sense left at all

modern humans

that really sounds silly to me


we modern humans think too much

this is a serious affliction

which keeps our emotional nature

in chaos most of the time

which leads so many to medicate themselves

with alcohol and drugs

drugs are really growing as we seek to escape ourselves


all this thinking is a result of our training

which starts very early in our lives for most of us

we were never permitted to get comfortable with ourselves

which all children require to be who they are


we are being told who to be

and how to perform


we are free as long as we conform to the rules others make for us

if not we are punished severely


awareness is not a result of thought


the native population were not often great thinkers

but they were still human beings


european invaders pretty much eliminated the human beings on this planet

love

wanting some one

is not an expression of love


wanting can never be

an expression of love


consumerism cultivates want

and dependency

as do drug dealers


sometimes it seems to me

we should look at what we are doing


love can only be free

without expectation of reward

virgin

it was quite a shock to me

when i realized we are all virgins

what would i say to the world

after all this time

i am still a virgin

as are you


and i ain't kidin'

posted this once or twice before

a child cries
another tree dies
how long will it be till we see

that the world is pain
and the wails are like rain
the pills must be stronger each day

this cannot be right
such a horrible sight
we each are a cause in some way

let another one change
i will not re-arrange
seems such a cop-out to me

we all must take part
in any new start
if any real change is to be

to think of ourself
beyond everyone
is wrong and it's so plain to see

we're all selfish inside
yet most try to hide
from the truth  -  which is what sets us free

no  -  we're not all bad
but our minds have been had
and we think someone else is at fault

but each must accept
his own part of the debt
not just armor ourselves like a vault

love you will find
is not in the mind
be open to find your own heart

was once sent to me

"Colorless green ideas sleep furiously." -NC

openness

you can't be open to me

if you aren't being open to your self

no one really remembers

that time that we forgot

sometimes

sometimes it is kinda hard

to be me


but i keep up as i can

most of us

most of us won't be remembered

but some of us will


which is all that matters

control

so many in our time seem to think

that life is to be controlled


they control their selves

they require the children to submit to control

and also control their self


such behaviour is insane to me

and only leads to out of control


life is forever free


as for me

i mostly just keep up with life as i can

want

to be free of want

one must give up wanting

and not wanting


and our world makes that pretty difficult


getting us to want something or other

is what business is based on in our time


consumerism took it to the next level


soon even the children were targets

face

we all got a face to face

don't really have anything to say

but i am still here

trying and not caring

the two walls

of our prison cells

sailing to philadelphia

a mark knopfler album i've been listening to

the guy is brilliant

once i said to a girl

i am not interested in what you think i want

i am interested in who and what you are


she still kind of looks at me funny

me

just something to be

and not to be taken too seriously

animals

we are just a different version

of those we call animals

and far less civilized than most of them

in spite of what we think

wanting

wanting  ain't a sharing

wanting is a mugging

an exploitation

an assault


and a form of rejection


openness and sharing

is what life is all about

sometimes

sometimes

i don't know why i am here

or why i am speaking to you


and then there is life to deal with

what ever i am being

i don't appear to be very good at

1102

not sure what to say now

probably should just go lie down

another your truth comment

if you can't face your own truth

you will not be able to face mine


if i am facing my self

and you are not facing your self

a wall is between us

or a fence


there will be separation

and no sharing

your truth

if you seek to be with your truth

first you must surrender your lies


almost all modern people

hide behind a mask

a false front


furtunately my father

didn't learn about that crap


that was a long time ago

and no one told him who he should be


he was just stuck with his self

and he made the best of that situation

as he could

on and on

on and on through life i go
it's an endless wander
still i know that in my heart
i just keep growing fonder

of all the people that i meet
of all the creatures here
more and more i cherish them
forever hold them dear

they seem to be so real inside
tho many no more show it
with outer shell they've learned to hide
but in my heart i know it

all are one  -  as has been spoken
mostly long ago
still i feel i know them all
the bond is still unbroken

here inside

here inside a voice has spoken
from a heart i thought quite broken
seek not love outside yourself
it's not received from someone else

the source of love and life are one
though the spirit is all done
open up your heart to gladness
put and end to all this sadness

in our ideas we have lost
the greatest gift  -  beyond all cost
love's the gift of life you see
endless and of course it's free

one must open like a flower
to receive this mighty power
that holds the world and stars in place
soon to heal the human race

this is what the heart does say
i know it's true in every way
life is love and for us all
the time has come to heed its call

in times long past

in times long past before we learned
about ideas and got burned
men liven in peace with one another
and knew each to be his brother

but in time we lost our way
how this happened i can't say
maybe this was meant to be
a plan of life to help us see

as i said i know not why
yet these results make my heart cry
it seems that all we learned is hate
and at times it seems too late

can all this change  -  the mind does wonder
must the guns all roar like thunder
if we continue on this way
night will soon engulf the day

the children all will lose their home
all will grieve and wail and moan
just because we forsake love
and with our armies crushed the dove

there is still time the heart does say
but we must return to the way
all thought of what to be must go
an open heart and mind can know

facing your self

if you can't face your self

you will never be able to face me

or anyone else

life is more than a preformance

life is a response


which is a part of growing up

and our education with our self


if we are willing to learn


just thinking we already know

is out of date thinking


awareness is not a product of though


as soon as you think you know

you aren't keeping up with life

finding our way

we each must find our own way

which we must respect in others

especially with the children


to not respect a childs right to its own way

is a great crime against life


and life is what we all are


we humans don't have such a great record

in that respecting life stuff

wanting me

all that means

is you are rejecting who i am

and requiring me to preform

cause i'm right here

what now

leave us alone

we almost grown

as chuck once said

well more than once

am a pretty good drinking hand

as i can

by nature

and by birth

thinking about life

is sure as hell not the same

as being life

we

the really cool silver haired dragon

and the wierd guy

being

are you being who you are

or who you think you are

or who you want to be


we all have to find our own way

on through life

as on and on thru life i go
bewildered by its mighty show
i feel sometimes  -  when i'm alone
that all the joy once known has flown

and in it's place i now find fear
replacing all that once was dear
old and cold i still go on
not content  -  yet heart not gone

for life itself is grand to me
inspite of all the pain i see
and still if i get one more chance
to do something that might enhance

this world a little  -  i'll still try
to keep my head up to the sky
and do the work as well i can
to not betray lifes faith in man

ideas

ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean

in an age

in an age the soul remembers
sensing still its dying embers
man to truth was honor bound
rarely was deception found

but today our greed does rule us
strange ideas do retool us
no more is the spirit free
to create life as it should be

the hand of fate is shunned and broken
respect for life no more than token
now the children live in fear
finding little to hold dear

fantastic dreams now fill our heads
strange contortions fill our bed
grace and love so rarely found
with war and violence so renowned

it's said that once the ancients spoke
about the time man would evoke
the beast that would bring on such pain
when tears would fall like endless rain

perhaps now is what they meant
when powers what we represent
but love is lost in such a way
and peace and joy the price we pay

with guns and bombs we blast and kill
we push and shove  -  enforce our will
the seeds we plant will surely grow
yet still it's grief and pain we sow

love will not be found in war
more sorrow  -  that's what we're in for
you don't make friends with pain and fear
we're losing all the heart holds dear

there's still time  -  we're not quite broken
but it takes love much more than token
no more must we live for power
we must sow love for peace to flower


i wrote that down back in the mid 80's it seems

no one we knew had money

so we didn't know we were poor

electricity

how the native population

managed to live without that stuff

a long time ago

apache woman

i saw her once

many years ago

and a couple of times today


someone said who was that

i said someone i once new

astrological patterns

the astrological patterns this evening

are pretty significant

to mister mark knopfler

thanks for sharing what you do

a piper to the end

a man named lewis

he was my father in this life

he wasn't being what he thought he should be

or what he wanted to be

he was being who he was

and spoke to me a few times

and i am a real lucky guy

complaining

complaining about life

just makes our situation worse

explaining my self

if i were to try that

it would only confuse

both of us

self

we all have to face our self

which is the only way home

being

the hardest situation in life

that i have seen so far

is how many people

in our time

seek to not be who they are


and the drug dealers

both legal and illegal

are making a lot of money

the drag on

if you haven't faced the drag on

what good are you

your expectations of me

not very import ant to me

submiting to an others will

has no attraction  to me

be a man

something my father said to me a long time ago

he didn't say all that much to me

but those words were a gift to me


what he said was

face your day

wanting at me

means i am being rejected

for who and/or what i am

thinkers

thinking to much

retards the mind


thinking all the time

disconnects the mind


the gift is being rejected

want a lot

people that want a lot

are not comfortable with their self


they seek escapes from their self

which is  a symptom of diss-ease


and our little world is in great diss-stress


not getting what is wanted

leads to self-pity

which is an expression of rejection

of self and selfs situation

which leads to more problems

and more self-pity

which is so common in our time


words about our situation are kind of hard to come by

and mostly not very flattering

but if we can't face our situation

we get stuck

which is the original problem again

the moon

without the moon

there would be no life one this planet

as we know life


the moon stirred the water

and made all this possible


the planet provided the heat

pearl harbor

my father was there that day in 1941

just a kid from tulsa on the west virgina


didn't speak of it much

there was a scrap book with a front page picture
  of his mother holding a picture of him in the tulsa world

he was reported killed

but that turned out not to be true


he didn't speak of it much

he did once when i was older a little bit

and i asked him about that morning

he said he swam ashore with another guy

the guy gave him his st. Christopher medal

and then he died

i didn't ask him about that stuff again


he was the best man i've met so far in this life

and i ain't no kid

i've been around

nothing

there is nothing like standing up

when you feel like falling down


and in this world

everyone gets to be some thing


since life ain't tangible

and still is


what do you make of that sport

differences

there are differences

very many differences

between being

and trying to be


and yet they are

the same life

looking for love

that's a waste of time

you better bring it with you

wanting me

wanting me

is not the same

as accepting me

for who and what i am

want

what you want

is what you are rejecting


which is the only way

that can happen

there was a time

when i did not know where to go

or what to do

and i did nothing that time


which was correct

for that time

me

ain't doing nothing

just making deliveries

words - times - places

words
times
places

here among the frozen races

hear me now oh lord of light
free me from this endless night

to share is what we're meant to do
tho this is practiced by so few

the trust for so long has been broken
truth is now so rarely spoken

here inside i feel you still
and pray to know i always will

the healing process has begun
no more do i wish to run

for alone we all must stand
with only you to hold our hand

till love of life is all we feel
with open hearts we can be real

and once again to know thy grace
as truth is found in every face

time and time again

this and time again
we face the dawn and know not when
the end of all this grief and pain
will come and wash the bloody stain

from this world that suffers greatly
and even more from events lately
killing never leads to peace
oh  -  will the violence never cease

peace will only come through kindness
vengeance only leads to blindness
the rage and pain we choose to feel
will never let the old wounds heal

until we learn to serve all others
until we see that all are brothers

everyone claims to be right
everyone claims to know what's right
so few question themselves
so much is wrong

pieces of eight

pieces of eight
are nothing but freight
if you don't have
a friend at your side

all the gold in the land
is not worth that small hand
that i held when we
took that first ride

when the journey is done
and the course has been run
with a smile one my face
i'll have died

and the moments we shared
in the time we were paired
were a dream from which
no one would hide

a womans face

a womans face was all it took
to launch this bold crusade

up till then i did my job
i thought i had it made

then i saw her standing there
my heart went all a flutter

but all i got was empty arms
next i found the gutter

self-pity took me to its breast
i fed with such delight

it seemed to me that i'd been wronged
i fed with such delight

in time i learned and now i'm free
or maybe on parole

those want things sure do drag you down
they always hurt the soul

wanting love

love is not about getting what you want

that's just a silly idea


love is a being situation with your self

disapprove

to disapprove

is to reject life

which leads to

no way to live

blending

if you are too far away

you won't be able to blend


if you are too close

you won't be able to blend

wanting

wanting me


if your wanting me

your a saying i'm not here

which actually means


i am not being

what you want me to be


which is a lot different

from accepting me for who

and what i am

learning

true learning

cannot be taught


we all have to find

our own way


awareness is not

a product of thought

the life i lived

the life i lived in the late 50's and early 60's

is against the law in our time

security

there is no security

someone just made that crap up

Education and the Significance of Life

a little book by J. Krishnaturti

which i consider a major contribution  to our little world

sometime

sometime

the only way to find home

is to lose your way

8 and ten

eight and ten

probably the only real numbers

a private party

how can private be a party


that would be a closed celebration

and closed is no reason for celebration

if your me

want and me

if you are wanting me

your just pushing me away


wanting me is far different

than accepting me

and just  another way of rejecting me


cause if you were accepting me

you would not experience wanting me

approval and disapproval

a pretty serious affliction

nine

a really complicated three

truth

for our self

probably the greatest gift of all

lying to ones self

probably the greatest crime of all

if your me

punish the monkey

let the organ grinder go


mr. knopler tells it like it is


let it all go

those we call animals

those we call animals

are people to me


they are just different

than we human types


and are often treated poorly

as so few of us respect them


wild just means free to me

untamed and untrained

a woman face

a woman face was all it took
to launch this bold crusade

up till then i did my job
i thought i had it made

then i saw her standing there
my heart went all a'flutter

but all i got was empty arms
next i found the gutter

self-pity took me to its breast
i fed with such delight

it seems to me that i'd been wronged
this brought me some respite

in time i learned and now i'm free
or maybe on parole

those want things sure do drag you down
they always hurt the soul

once before

once before the trust was broken
when the truth was freely spoken
men were free and knew lifes way
life was not some game to play

now our heads are hollow vases
stupid looks on all our faces
respect for life not to be found
pride in self does so abound

selfish ways will be our doom
for love of life we have no room
truth could yet redeem our lives
yet greed so far is all that thrives

kindness is what most have lost
frustration rules at such a cost
a selfish heart can not see clearly
and love's the gift we need so dearly

there was a time

there was a time i thought love dead
ghosts and goblins filled my head
life was very bleak and old
all the fires of youth grown cold

then one night as i lay sleeping
a vision to my soul came creeping
and a voice so soft and clear
began to speak inside my ear

you yourself cause all this pain
gloom and doom the fall like rain
it's your reactions drag you down
and twist your heart into a frown

judge not my son all that you see
you must leave that up to me
rejecting life is not the way
on others all the blame to lay

all are free  -  i made them so
it's not your place to judge this show
you think too much and that's not good
it fills the mind with old dead wood

why not give yourself a break
give truth a chance for heavens sake
an open heart and mind that's clear
will find that love is always near

it

perhaps the most dangerous word of all

you

i may have passed on your presentation

but have never passed on  you

can we be

can we be who we are

instead of who we think we are

or who we think we want to be


awareness is not a product of thought

if i'm not married

my secretary will be

my closest friend

old people

now i get to be that for awhile

with a silver haired girl

who seems to still like me

joan baez

been listening to an old album of hers

quite an experience

if your me


diamonds and dust

i've already paid


she and bob spoke to me


it ain't dark yet

but it's getting there


and the answer is blowing in the wind

our private life

the smallest part of our life


the desire for security

makes our life even smaller

with golden hair

with golden hair and eyes of green
such beauty i had never seen
yet from my gaze you quickly ran
i cannot look upon you man

for then i could not play this role
if i don't run you'll touch my soul
and wake me up from this deep sleep
i'll blush at first and then i'll weep

for it's hard to face the truth
that was abandoned in my youth
i fought well but they were many
of friendly faces  -  no not any

now it's safe  -  i do not feel
this final refuge you would steal
and bring me back again to life
take me for your loving wife

but that would bring the longing back
the freedom that my heart did lack
when i was young and tried to fight
the darkness here with my small light

but love died
now i fear it greatly
to live again  -
i have thought of it lately

god it scares me
love is defenseless
war is so senseless
the violence is so hard to bear

i stood once alone
and for a while shone
they beat that out of me
can't you see

i'm one of them now
please go away

please don't love me

don't make me remember
that final december
when i broke  -
and the pain went away

now i do what they say
no more price must i pay

i fought them
but finally lost

yes  -  my heart
is now dark

you awakened
some spark

but  -

damn you

you bastard

you reminded me of
who i once was

but she died

let her be

it hurts to feel


what a place to be

you're there  -
how can i not see

that's just not my way

i hear what you say
but death is not what i embrace

you're still so alive
tho you valiantly strive
to repress all that
you're meant to be

now you hate what i am
say you can't  -  but you can
i'll not die to make lies
be more easy

it was wrong from the start
you belong to your heart


damn

ideas

ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean

what now lord

what now lord
i said to myself
i know you're there
as i sit on this shelf

i know not the way
don't yet hear your voice
here i sit all alone
without making a choice

spirit must move me
i'll not run in distress
i must stay open
try not to repress

truths of the heart
tho i think it sleeps
so i must be patient
as my heart leaps

the mission of life
is a code in us all
the only safe way
is be true to its call

a pisces moon

a pisces moon
did crown her head
and by the spirit
was she led

forever true to
life i am told
her heart was pure
and soul unsold

few knew her secrets
for little she spoke
but the touch of her hand
for me tears did evoke

her beauty and grace
were a blessing to all
and no one said no
if she happened to call

she seems so alone
and yet not the least sad
the spirit of life
was the gift that she had

i remember her smile
and know i always will
the love that we shared
still my heart does fill

what is love

what is love
at times i have wondered
we speak the word often
but mostly we've plundered

power is what
we most seek today
do what i tell you
get out of my way

i try to forgive
and treat others well
yet still i relapse
to respond  -  go to hell

it bothers me some
that we're being so mean
and beauty and grace
are so rarely seen

perhaps we're afraid
to have love for another
it's just not in fashion
to cherish your brother

mostly it seems
we just think of ourselves
i'm back where i started
not sure where love dwells

the land of the free

this is the land of the free

as long as you have money

greetings

greetings my friend
i've not seen in so long
tho here in my heart
you have never been gone

and i wish to say
in a personal way
just to have known you
does brighten my day

the love that you share
where ever you go
reminds all around you
that love is the show

that brings us together
with its own special gift
and it's the true healer
that mends every right

i might have forgotten
had i not met you
of all of the blessings
yours is most true

each must choose

each must in his own time choose
both how to win and how to loose
for all must learn in time you see
what is right for them to be

although the road is long and tight
and the forest filled with fright
there is but one way to live
with open heart that's free to give

blessings come for those who share
who hold back nothing  -  without care
for the gift of life is free
tho this is sometimes hard to see

for love is not held in the hand
and that which is is only sand
truth and love are both a part
of what's found only in the heart

only love can heal this land
and redeem this weary band
for you get what you do give
open up your heart to live

the soul cries

the soul cries out from stoic faces
all bound up in plans and chases
seeking more and getting less
in every way no truth confess

some new dream would feed me better
all thought out  -  yes to the letter
on and on the quest is run
in search of some new source of fun

still the wails fill every plane
so much loss for so much gain
your plan in truth is poorly made
there is no love in your parade

the way of life is still an option
there's something more than your concoction
the life that is the source of all
still sends its eternal call

one must take the time to hear it
to share its love  -  no more to fear it
life's one purpose is to serve
to live it's perfect love takes nerve

this special gift of life is free
there is no purchase price you see
love abounds for those who let it
a willing heart is how you get it

lookin

looking in the mirror

at the face that is deserve


maybe that means

dis-serve

Mr. Mark Knopler

thanks for sharing your music

life

forgot what i was going to say

the age old quest ye on

what the hell did adam say to eve

on

claiming you're on

when you're off

ain't gonna make you on

there she stands

there she stands  -  so full of fear
tho it's source is not quite clear

sometimes she blames it all on me
yet i don't see how that could be

feelings seem to slow her down
turn her smile into a frown

perhaps she fears just what she is
would rather be what she calls his

all of this just makes no sense
the pain i see just makes me wince

i know that this could not be right
for all of us to be uptight

it's said that truth will set us free
an open heart can clearly see

that all must be just what they are
no more to wish upon some star

the gift of love is found within
in our own essence all are kin

but this is never found in thought
that's the scam that we all bought

life and love are all ways giving
that's not how we have been living

greed and fear now rule our lives
and it gets worse with all our tries

peace is never found through war
it brings more hatred to our door

one must love all life in kind
it's ourselves we must remind

rule

i only got one rule

you be you

i'll be me


i learned that from my daddy

my friend jim

not much i can say about that

except maybe thanks

free

they call this the land of the free

but there ain't nothin free around here

face

how do you face rejecting

human

a human thinking

is just another primate

and not yet

a human being

Life

that which is beyond

all thought

and has been called being

times of conflict

in times of great conflict
like these that i see
it's hard to make judgement
like just what to be

confusion and chaos
will keep us uptight
that by itself
makes it hard to know right

perhaps if we slow down
and just clear our head
give up the ideas
that make us brain dead

cause when this one says this
and another says that
we settle the issue
with fist and with bat

most think they know something
but i think we don't
we outsmart ourselves
with ideas that won't

fit in with nature
which has it's own plan
which we disregard
because we now can

it we took the time
and gave life a look
it just might not be
as we read in some book

a mind that's not made up
and fused with belief
might find something more
and provide some relief

but if no one will face
that they just might be wrong
we may someday look up
and find our world gone

i went to a party

i went to a party on saturday night
and the sights that i saw gave my heart such a fright

the masks that we wore were so ghastly to see
i stood there in silence  -  how could this all be

the noise was so great and the smiles so untrue
most were afraid and the others just blue

i watched for a while then did go away
but soon i returned  -  still with nothing to say

the din was still growing and the music so loud
soon i was into the mood of the crowd

we're here to forget just how lonely we feel
for a while to pretend it's not such a bad deal

the wine it's a flowing and the smoke is so thick
a sane person by now would lie down and be sick

but not me  -  i'm so tough i can take it all in
as we strut for the girls and pretend we're still men

now it's over at last and i'm home here alone
all the girls turned away  -  no one threw me a bone

in a while i will sleep till the sunrise again
and try to remember just where all i've been

the head full of aches and a sadness inside
to be such a fool and so full of pride

maybe in time i'll grow up and reform
but it's hard in a world where conform is the norm

venus in aquarius

in pisces house


the story of my  life

tommy edwards and the platters

have come a long way from those days

the hair that comes out of my face

i just disregarded that stuff

George Carlin

welcome to wherever we are

the hair that comes out of my face

have decided not to interfere

with that situation


will just wait and see

men and women

there was a time

they worked together

in this game we call life


but not any more


capitalism is based

on divide and conquer

moment

i have wondered what moment means


i still do

kid

hey kid

i remember you

pretty

how did you get so pretty sport

where ever i came from

where ever i am

let it all go

it is a pisces thing


let it all go


pisces ain't a thing


but probably all things


and no thing

mr. mark knopler

his work is a national treasure

if you're me


and the fat girls

got left by the wall


punish the monkey

let the organ grinder go


and i'll just go

where the lady takes me

blending

life is all about blending

all the many selves

mr. noam chomsky

i recommend reading his material

if life and our planet matter to you

the girl

the girl i live with

is the most innocent girl

i have met so far

back in the mix

where do they go

those that nobody spoke of

to pass judgement

to pass judgement

on anyone

is to pass judgement

on your self

noam chomsky

one of my heroes

as was my father

and a few others

i don't know why

i love you like i do

i just do

truthfulness usually gets their attention

slavery

when america outlawed slavery

capitalism moved right in

and took its place

noam chomsky

a true friend

of us all

what do you do

what do you do

if you are ahead of your time


be patient

and don't expect too much

rossie bea

am pretty sure

she probably saved my life


have wondered if she would remember me

but am pretty sure she would

an old 60's refugee

and i was born in the 1940 era


was conceived   a little while before that

we

we are often surprised

by who we think we are

when we are required to face

who we actually are

being

do you mind being

life

life is all about

hello me

got no place else to go

what do you do

what do you do

when you don't want to be

who you are


what do you do

when you just seek to be

who you are


what to do

we all have to work that out

for our self

anger

self-pity