a girls preformance

i did not seek a girls preformance

i sought a girl


seeking is knot the way

seeking is an affirmation of a lack

as is want


life is without lack


life is beyond the boundries of lack

which so many of us have become so fond of imposing on our self

and just because we aren't getting what we want

i have seem baby birds and films of young bears dealing with that situation better than most of us human types


self pity is just self abuse

and self is all we actually have

sort of


ultimately we are all no thing

just like every thing

and yet we are


what if chooing is wrong

what if choosing is knot the way