ideas

the lost world

another great escape attempt

Sagittarius

there ain't no kings in Sagittarius

life is the ocean

when you tell someone
its ok to be themselves
it is generally taken to mean
that it's ok to gratify the idea
that they have of themselves

this is not helpful

but it sells a lot of books

to have and idea of ones self
does not necessarily indicate
any true awareness at all

ideas are a product of our  -
or someone else's  -
imagination

ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean

awareness of the ocean
cannot be achieved
by thinking about the ocean

an awareness of the ocean
can only be achieved
through the direct experience
of the ocean

which can only be achieved
by a complete openness
to the truth
of the oceans existence

without any preconceived idea
of an ocean

become as little children
was good advice

yet rarely taken

children have no ideas at all
until we infect them with them


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and the tumble turd bugs
were upon the land

rolling their little balls
of waste material

fighting for their share
searching everywhere

always on the go
no time to be slow

having  -  having
is our game

destroy the world
don't give your name

we start in on children

we start in on children
so early today
to program their minds
when they should learn how to play

a child needs the time
to first know its self
and it hurts to be told
to just get on that shelf

with no time to consider
just what this might be
we rob them so quickly
of their right to see

it seems clear to me
the old ways not so smart
as we rip up this planet
and tear at its heart

in spite of the terrors
which now fill the land
the stink of pollution
so carefully planned

we still tell them all
that "i know whats best"
but the results that i see
sure don't pass the test

the innocence found
in the eyes of a child
a master once spoke of
in terms not so mild

"be as the children"
is what was once said
the will to respect them
seems mostly quite dead

most just play roles
that were forced in their mind
with no thought of nature
now so hard to find

a fresh look at life
is the gift of new birth
if we don't respect it
then what is it worth

punishment

if you seek to punish me

or any expression of life

you will be punishing your self

our self

money

what i want

in this little world

depends on how much money i have


there is actually more to life than that stuff

want

if you are not free of want

you are not free

sexuality

the one topic

humans seem to be the most interested in avoiding


which is not how life has been for me

the mason dixon line

consumerism is an enslaveing system

as are the religions i am familiar with


freedom is in short supply in our little world

and more killing and conquest ain't going to help

Love

most people i see

seem to think

love is about gratification

about getting what you want


that ain't what i see happening here


don't seem to be too much love

in our little world


to love life is to cherish and serve life

in all of life's expressions and manifestations


we all have to find our own way

beliefs

am no fan of beliefs

at best we just guess from that position


and religious beliefs

are particularly dangerous

because they are considered sacred


guessing and sacred


i will have to pass on that


i would rather just wonder what is going on

and keep up as i can

thought

thought is retrospective

and of the past


Life is forever of the now


a little retrospect perception or examination

can sometimes have value

but you don't want to get lost there

Life

Life is not about

what we have done

in the past


Life is about

who and where we are

right now

fear

most don't know why they are afraid

they just are


these are those that don't yet recognize life

but think they do

wanting

the greatest curse of all


life is all potential

we little organisms called human

choose for our self

until we don't

facing your self

if you aren't facing your self

the truth of your life

you are throwing your life away


to face our self

we must be open to who we are


which is not the same as

an idea of who we think we are

or what we want to be


thinking about life

and being open to life

are not the same

and we have been taught to think almost from birth

which is nether intellegent or kind

and is now our greatest problem


awareness is not a product of thought

life can be pretty scary

if you think about it too much

free men

they mostly don't wear hats

but some do

how to really live

be willing to be

who you are

where you are

in all truthfulness

Life

the purist experience of Life

it seems to me

is to want nothing from Life

and accept Life for what Life Is


wanting something from Life

invites the potential for disapointment in to the experience


and even lead to frustration and anger

which is so common in our little world in our time

and apparently for quite a while

assumptions

a pretty dangerous game to play


i find life more comfortable

when i just pay attention

and keep up with Life as i can


and there ain't nothin out there

or within us all

that ain't Life


most of us seem pretty confused

most of the time it seems to me

cus we ain't paying attention

when we are thinking

ideas

most ideas are just bull shit

some seem nice enough

some not so nice

but ideas are a form of mental masterbation

products of thought


Life ain't a product of thought

and neither is awareness of life


thought is just a mind game

at best just not very interesting

at worst dangerious as hell


in our time all these ideas about how we should be

are the source of so much conflict within ourselves

and in our little world


to be our self

and accept Life as Life is

we have to be open to Life as Life is

and  be of service to Life as we can


but first we have to be open to and with

Life as we are Life

and i ain't seen much of that in over seven decades

but some

tai che

to me that means

cling to nothing

be with all that is


pretty sure i didn't spell that right

one thing you got to learn

no two are exactly alike

and we are all the same

how to really live

don't want anything

and be willing to serve life


not such a big deal

unless your a greedy little bastard

or little bitch


wanting is the most dangerous game of all

and giving that crap up would be a great step forward

for the so called human race


life is all of us

and a whole lot more

thinking

the human race is sure thinking a lot lately

that's not very smart

speaking truthfully

that can be dangerious in some circles

and in some circles not permitted at all

preforming

pre forming

means making it up in advance


most of the girls that preformed for me

expected me to preform for them


sometimes that worked out ok

not always

be true to your nature

if you aren't

you ain't going to have much of a life

misrepresenting your self

and living a lie for all your friends and family

and  your self


ideas are just guesses

our truth is who we actually are

Life

most today seem inclined

to plan their Life


i have mostly been inclined

to keep up with this Life


i don't feel qualified

to plan a Life


my father was the only person

i ever asked for advice like that

and only once

his response to me was

your going to have to work that out for your self


he was a good man

and my friend

conflict

Krishnemurti was right

the source of the conflict in the world

is the conflict within we humans


we are source of all these problems

but we sure like blaming others for them


and besides all our inner personal conflicts

there are all these conflicting ideas about

how we should be and preform


peace is a state of being

as is love

an other mark knopfler song

and on a parapet

a scottish piper stands alone


i knew him

the scottish piper


he was and is my friend

hurting people

until we get past

the inclination to hurt people

we shall know no peace or happiness

let it all go

is very good advice

personal gratifaction

life is not about personal gratification


life is about recognizing what needs to be done

and doing what needs to be done


all our ideas are just bull shit

boys and girls

fear

the greatest divide of all


don't know what the cure for fear is

not even sure there is one

but if there ain't

we got a serious problem


people talk about love

don't know what that means either

who do you know for sure

don't seem like anybody to me

just thought of you

and decided to say hi

hi

modern humans

modern humans are pretty confused

most seem to think life is about winning and losing


well that ain't so

life is about being who you are


life ain't some game to play

some idiot thinker came up with that crap


life is not about performance

life is an affirmation of the truth of what we all are

potentially

seeing

the first step to seeing

is to quit looking for some thing

killing

so many in our time

are so casual about killing

under the correct circumstances


each with a different idea of correct


killing is a really big deal in your evolution

and not a step to take too lightly


cause you just might not know what your doing


playing with ideas can be a very dangerious game

if you don't actually know what your doing

but you think you do


awareness is not a product of thought

a letter to my father

the astrologer guy in the Oklahoma Gazette

recommended a letter to my father


i do have something to say to my father


your presence was valid

so far you are the only one


the next one is a little hesitant

men

have known or met a few men in this life


no women yet

but still a little hopeful

which i am pretty sure will pass


anyone that feels like calling me a liar

is welcome to speak up


that statement brings me no joy or satisfaction


it's actually pretty tragic

the fool

and i'm the fool

i never thought i was


and thought

is just attempted escape

Darlin' Pretty

another Mark Knopfler song

maybe my all time favorite

i have had so many


love is the only cure

and we humans ain't got a clue what that word means

all life

if you can't love all life   you can't love your self

love

love is a state of being with your self

the human race

here among the human race
each could know his rightful place
if he would set all thought aside
and from the truth no longer hide

life does have its natural order
tho rarely seen within our border
with no respect for life as whole
greed and power the new goal

wipe out all that nature made
kill the life in field and glade
a new plan for life we cry
get on board or else you die

all the kindness of the heart
must be stifled if your smart
for a time it seemed so great
but things have changed it seems of late

chaos now does fill the land
truth can find no place to stand
most live in fear from day to day
the pills and booze push it away

order once again can be
but we must first set ourselves free
the spirit lives but is repressed
such is why we feel depressed

the heart must open to the light
this is how we know what's right
the soul of man must be set free
to live it's truth as meant to be

the plan is not found in the head
nor from all the books we've read
love and truth are of the now
an open heart will show us how

no more time

no more time to stand around
all those dreams still not quite found
now the truth is clear to me
i've lost enough and now i'm free

the game of life i'll never win
they lied to me  -  but that's their sin
mine was falling for their story
fantastic tales of wealth and glory

many think they know the way
but don't believe in what they say
creation makes us what we are
and each must follow his own star

no matter what the world thinks true
 you find the truth inside of you
to lose your self too much in thought
will lead to being what your not

in silent moments here inside
i found the spark that almost died
and regained what i had lost
that precious gift beyond all cost

our essence is what's rightly made
its truth is through the heart relayed
but we must heed the spirits call
that lives within the heart of all

thinking

the original artificial intelligence

and very misleading


awareness is not a product of thought


confusion and conflict are products of thought

and all these random ideas we are being subjected to


we humans ain't really qualified to play at creation

it seems to me

slavery

when the capitalist

came up with consumerism

we were trapped

and then they came up with credit cards

which are even better at keeping us in debt


as long as we owe them

we belong to them

and are no longer free

in spite of what america is often called


we consumers

are the gerbils

that keep the little wheel going round and round

and that ain't natural

how can we be one world in harmony

every man is my brother

every woman my sister

all the other creatures are my cousins

the natural world is my mother


who do you want to be with me

a more valid question would be who are you


apparently my father is life its self

no one seems quite sure what that is

can't seem to get it under the microscope


some people call that god

and claim to know what i should do to please their idea of god

i mostly leave them alone

and be who i am as i can

Mark Knopfler

a remarkable human being

not the first i have met

"high on a parapit a scottish piper stands alone"

i saw him there too


and a couple of others

another line from a song i just listened to

heal me with a smile,  darlin' pretty

alone

some people are afraid to be alone

people who can't face their self

are destined to be alone

a line from a song i just listened to

and on a distant hill

a Scottish piper stands alone

war

the greatest curse of the human race

usually a product of greed and self pity


the wide spread desire for control

is a product of the great insecurity

of the human race in our time


thinking we know what we are doing when we don't

is a very dangerious game to play

and life ain't a game

going to write a book

am pretty sure

it's a gemini book


the title will be



Welcome To Hard Times

ps.

i don't give a damn what you think


the second book will be called

life on the staircase

lady

girl and woman are real words

lady is a bullshit word

as is gentlemen

eyes

i have two eyes

both see things

a little differently


the gift is not choosing

self respect

lies

the more lies

you build your foundation on

the quicker it will crumble


unless your a dragon

which will take a little longer


most today

seem to be looking

for a parking spot


some place safe and secure

which is just a dream

they have chosen to follow


which is a response to fear

and a not response to life

the girl

if i can't face the girl inside me

i will never be able to be

the man that i am


if the girl can't face the girl inside her

she will never be able to face

the woman that she is

facing today

if you can't face today

you will wind up

stuck behind tomarrow

thinking you know

thinking you know

ain't the same as knowing

wanting

a want is always accompanied

by a not want

and always a desire for avoidance


seeking to avoid life

is knot the path to completion

and makes life harder than life actually is

want

a want is a personal creation

personally created as a substitute

for what we think we lack


substitution will not replace

what we lack


all this is just a misunderstanding


and making a few of us humans very rich

from our misunderstanding


and we just go on being frustrated and miserable

except for a few


seems to me are confused about our self


our thinker self is confused and distracted

by what we think we want


a want

is an artificial lack

we create within our self

until we don't


our obsession with want

is the price we pay


life is free

dying

no one ever dies

they just change

never

perhaps the most dangerious word of all

a word of advice

always face your self truthfully

as you can

and don't expect anything


actually a few words

8 and 9

so close together

yet so far apart


separated at birth

by the thinkers among us


the connivers within us

as we deceive our selves

the first step

the first step

is to face what we are doing


the last step

is to face who we are

mark knopfler

that guy makes remarkable music

don't be late

will and willing

in the old days

i was offended by will

will full ness that stuff was called


willfullness was a bad word to me


i cultivated willingness in my self


which was just as dumb


life is not about will

life is about being

which is static

being born

being born in this world

is like being born into slavery

for so many


they don't get a vote in their life

until they are trained and programed

and don't know who they are


and then


this kind of crap

sure ain't made the world a better place

which is our job


all of us


so many are lost in thought

and emotional turmoil

my

a posessive word

and very misleading

wild

in the english language

and in most languages i assume

but i don't know for sure

wild means untamed

and uncontrolable


in my personal language

wild means free


well trained animals aren't free

and neither are well trained humans


free is very important for life to be


free is more than the word or the idea

free is a state of being with ones self

and all selves

abuse

if you abuse any manifestation of life

you abuse your self

and all your other selves

knowing

if you seek to know truth

what you think you know will block your way

understanding

if you want to understand

the want will block your way

praises sing

praises sing and night bells ring
all around this precious thing

places and faces and midnight races
all the while the nomad braces

more and more the onslaught rages
in the wind all ripped out pages

find me now  -  oh lord of love
we seek and pray thy long lost dove

will peace upon the land yet stand
must heart still face the burning brand

on and on the rage does rush
the bonds of shame a mighty crush

still the flame  -  it has not died
tho bled and fed on brutal pride

so far we hold the beach head slightly
no longer bold and brave and mighty

battered troops once fresh and rested
now reel and waver  -  nearly bested

the hope that once so fill the heart
still lives  -  yet in the smallest part

tho battered  -  scarred and mortal weary
at dawn we stand to face the fury

no longer brave we could be called
but no  -  by god we will not fall

to twisted minds that rule this land
with whip and chain in brutal hand

we will not yield the sacred trust
nor feed upon the moldy crust

which the beast does offer gladly
all inflamed and grinning madly

tho tattered rag  -  thy flag once proud
and bleeding feet  -  tho head up-bowed

we face the dawn with shining faces
of doubt and fear there are no traces

for in thy time each heart does know
as life moves on its sacred flow

the soul of man will seek thy light
and move beyond this endless night

the whisper that i dimly hear
does speak that time may yet be near

oh yes  -  the force does feel some stronger
the soul cries out  -  not too much longer

the love long sought by this small band
does in truth feel near at hand

the stirring in the heart grows stronger
raging pain i feel no longer

the mission tho still unfulfilled
will be complete as thou has willed

and light yet fill the hardest heart
and love shall reach the darkest part

in time the sorrows past will fade
and truth regain this world you made

for as the story does unfold
eternal love each heart will hold

opinions

mostly what we think is probably true

basically our best guess

which seems to indicate to me

we aren't sure what truth is

blame

when you blame another

for being where you are

you throw your self away

selfishness and greed

a great affliction on our little planet

in our time


where do you suppose

all that crap came from

thinking

a human thinking is a long way

from a human being


awareness is not a product of thought

want

when what we think we want

is the most important thing in the world

we are really fucked up

and a dangerous threat to others

and our little world


we humans have a lot of growing up to do

to once again become

humans being

anger

aggressive self pity

directed at others usually


just a brat way of blaming others

for not getting what i want from them


wanting others to submit to our will

is pretty chicken shit behavior

which is about the nicest way i can express that


we humans got a lot of growing up to do


we humans are the source of all this conflict and suffering

in our little world

fighting and killing

over our petty little ideas and opinions

and our terrible selfishness

lesbian

some lesbian girls

do other girls

some lesbian girls

don't do anyone

except their self

which is also becoming more popular

with the male part of the population


not much sharing of our self anymore

just getting what i want from you

who ever you are


which is an obvious misunderstanding

looking for something

if your looking for something from life

you are obviously lost

and blind to your self

the man of truth

the man of truth

or woman of truth

is the greatest fool of all

judging by what i have seen

in my wanderings on this planet

security alert

look to the left side of page

wanting me

a state of rejection

if your me

cause i'm right here

being me

winning

only the winners lose

and only the losers win


choosing is a lonely game

knowing what you are doing

knowing what you are doing

and thinking you know what your are doing

are not the same situation


awareness is not a product of thought

thinking

the quickest way to confuse my self

as i have proven to my self

so many times

keeping score

if you are keeping score in life

you will soon lose track of

what is actually taking place here

where you have been

if you don't know where you have been

you may have a difficult time

getting where you are going

beliefs

those that recognize truth

have no interest in beliefs


most that choose a belief

are generally insecure

and a belief makes them feel more secure

when they still aren't

but they think they are


and all these conflicting beliefs

are leading to all the violence and hatred

in our little world


and we humans are the source

of this great tragedy

fun

the only way to have fun

is to be who and what you are


and i am not referring to

who you think you are

or what you think you want to be

which is rejecting who you actually are