understanding

in my early 30's

nothing about our little world

made any sense to me


i tried to understand

those around me

which got me even more confused and frustrated

i wasn't qualified to do that


i finally realized

understanding my self

was the only option for me


trying to understand myself

didn't help either


i finally realized

i had to face my self

to be open to myself


to accept my self

openly and freely

and quit trying


willingness is a passive state

and took a little practice


awareness is not a product of thought

or any type of effort