how it once was

and Oron spoke to his son Jacob about how it once was

about how the land once supported mankind and the creatures
of the field

in the beginning the cycles of manifestation were the greatest
power

the cycles of dispensation regulated all life on this plane

the fruits of nature came and went

each learned to work and live within the system

or it died


there was no way to cheat

the forms of life came forth and grew and evolved  -  and their
natural course of existence

and died in their own time  -  as all things must

but the force or spirit of life once more cloaked its self in the
material of this plane

to come forth again and again it it's apparently endless
sequence of expressions of its self

each more refined and remarkable than the one before

this is how it once was

as the creative force wove the glorious fabric of life

a living cloak upon the once barren globe


at some point in time  -  i know not when

the idea arose in man that he could or should take charge of his life

to make things better for himself

that he need not accept the cycles of dispensation as life provided

and took away

perhaps he thought or desired not to die in his own time

or that his children or mate should not die

this is not known to me

all that is known is that mankind came to rebel against the order of life


perhaps this is the natural next step of man

i do not know

in any case  -  man made many changes in this world

apparently to improve his situation  -  that he might not have to
strive and struggle and die

that life might be made easier  -  and last longer

how and why is lost in the passage of time

all that is known is that man became greedy and selfish and
feared for himself

once man took only what he needed to live and there was
balance in this world

but man then came to take more than he needed

and deprived others of his kind and the creatures of the field
what they needed to live out their allotted span of time

the order of life was disrupted

soon the vast green cloak of the forests began to disappear

slowly at first  -  but with ever and ever increasing speed

for a time nature could heal the wounds to the body

but as man sought more and more not to die  -  with his vaccinations
and his cures  -  the population grew and grew and began to overwhelm
the natural life support system of this plane

more and more the great canopy of the forest disappeared

the creatures of the field  -  who also make up the fabric of life
on this plane  -  began to disappear

the atmosphere and climate began to change

the concoctions of man to improve his lot in life began to sterilize
and poison the earth

whole species were destroyed to make man safer and gorge his belly
beyond and reasonable need

the signs of decay and corruption were clear

but man refused or was unable to see the error of his ways

the great crime being perpetuated on the fragile beauty of the earth

and ultimately upon himself

man created new systems to support himself

and as each failed in time  - sought to create another and another

each failing more quickly than the last


it is not known if this journey man has taken is right or wrong

perhaps we have failed at our destiny

perhaps not

all that is known to me is that man suffers greatly amid his own creations

has brought this suffering upon himself by not accepting the gift of
life as they are offered

and accepting their loss when they are reclaimed by the order of things

the creatures of the field are born and die in their own time  -  without complaint

i have seen it so

in our own time  -  we each make our own contribution to life

money

money was designed

by a few humans

to finance the slave trade


as were most religions


and here we are

what to do

so many

want to be told what to do


so many

are willing to please them

in time to face their wrath


and a great tragedy

is upon the land


when i was much younger

i asked my father what to do


i was lewis jr.

he was the only man i respected

up to that time


his response to me was

i don't know what to tell you boy

you have to work that out with yourself


and i still do

as i can


as we all can

if we can respect ourself

life

praise from me to life

how can life be anyone

when life is everyone


life can do that

how about you

and all the rest of us

sex

human sexuality

is about more than our genitals


human sexuality

is about who we are

and sharing who we are


sharing is the clue


freedom is the greatest

gift of all

what we have in common

and the question to me is

how do i deal with

what we have in common

and what we don't


all at the same time

standard

a really stupid word

song

kind of a funny word

sounds kind of old

maybe asian

somewhere back east


my favorite song would be

a song we could sing together

as we are


with out all the other crap

that is so popular in our time


so many

seeking to control life

so few

willing to be life

cherished beliefs

our cherished beliefs

do not cancel or eliminate truth

except in our own eyes and experience


the truth of life

is beyond human control


we are not here to control life

we are here to serve life


and life is all that is

self

if you can't look

at your self


how will you ever

look at the rest of us

doing

if we were aware

of what we are actually doing

we probably wouldn't be doing

what we are doing


thinking about life

is a foolish and stupid exercise

and usually an attempt

to make life different than life is

which is a really stupid idea

and pretty darn arrogant


we humans just ain't qualified

for that situation

hope and wishes

just another attempt

to cheat life


right up there with

sacred beliefs


life is all


hope is a personal want


and a pretty small place

to be

religion

if we can't give up

our religious beliefs

we will never be able

to see life clearly


and all them other beliefs too


beliefs are just our sacred hopes

and hoping is less than living


being is quite another experience


not so popular in our time


but preforming is really in

truth

resisting truth

can be a very dangerous game


life is far more than a game

oppose

that which we oppose

we become


we can only pass judgement on our self


until we don't


and are free of that judgement crap


many have shed the blood of others

to serve their god


those others

were also the children of god


such service seems not natural to me


why would a sane loving god

wish to have his children killed


perhaps the children would not obey

and god is a slave master


not where i come from

what i know

most of what i know

is what i don't know


what i do know

don't seem to hang around

all that long

the man was lost

the man was lost and almost broken
when from within these words were spoken
rise up my son  -  for i am with you
you feel alone but that is not true

i'm the life that fills your heart
i've been with you from the start
you've let ideas fill your head
not listened to a word i've said

for i am all and know you well
you turned away  -  that's why you fell
i will guide you through this life
in this time of so much strife

my life is the life of all
i'm the source of great and small
but most today don't hear my voice
and each is free to make his choice

yet blessing life is all i do
my love is boundless  -  ever true
this gift is all i ever share
my blessings put an end to care

but love's a gift  -  i do not force
all are free to choose  -  of course
man receives what he does give
try loving all  -  like me  -  and live

urgent words

urgent words and stressful faces
this is seen now in most places
humans seem to worry more
most don't seem to know the score

ideas are the chosen goal
endless dreams torment the soul
it's fantasy my heart does say
no truth in all the games we play

life does have its own true course
which all must live or see remorse
and truth will in the heart be found
thru love we'll see the world rebound

ideas only block the view
the mind must open to the new
we must release all old belief
which is the source of all our grief

the plans of man have surely failed
upon the rocks we now have sailed
to truth of life we must return
the sacred trust we must re-learn

the spirit lives  -  it's what we are
and always with us  -  never far
but all must listen for its voice
and with the heart make love the choice

failure

just another way of winning


we all win in our own time

we all lose in our own time


we all are

as we are

in our own time


sometimes we share

what we are

in our own time


sometimes we don't

rules

i only have one rule


don't ever make a rule

you can't break


rules are restrictions

and limit freedom


which only applies to

children under three years


some times just a few months

sometimes even days or weeks


freedom

ia the greatest

gift of all

time

there is a time to laugh

and a time to cry

and a time to be quiet


and being quiet means

being with the stillness


when you are all three at once

life is

impatience

the only problem

i have ever had

was with my impatience


and my attitude a few times

problem

the only problem

i have ever had

was with my impatience

secret

a secret

can only be a secret

if you are keeping it

from your self

foot prints in the sand

all we will ever be


which is certainly

more than enough

rejection

how does one deal with rejection


sadly for so many

that has become

reject them first


which is the only way

to join them

answers

spent a lot of time

looking for answers


all i ever found

were clues

wondering

i have often wondered

about what we humans are doing


for a while i thought

this is a big mistake


but we are just exploring

our potentials and possibilities


the best and worst of them

as we can


the rest of our story

dependes on what we see


or what we think we see


and how we respond

to our new situation

can you spot the roadrunner

virgins

it was quite a shock to me

to realize this was the land of virgins


have always been a big fan of girls

and of most children


the saddest part of this story

for me

was to realize

the girls wanted to keep us that way


i was expected to accept

being left out


that ain't actually my nature

except with children

who aren't expected

to face life yet

secrecy and lies

the greatest curse of mankind


have been in this body

on this planet

for almost seventy trips

around this sun

looking at that moon out there

and feel qualified

to comment on that situation


not sure what that means


seems a little arrogant to me

stars

how the light gets in here

the sun and the moon were first


and then man discovered fire making

and the struggle began


light is the clue


secrecy and privacy

are a fools errand

as are lies and deception


all attempts to deceive our Self

will end in failure

as they always have

in their own time


our truth

is all

we actually are

hope

a more gracious form of want


not so demanding


yet still with those expectations


our premeditated desires

to control life


which is to reject life

as life is

wonder

if you wonder who you are

examine your prayers


if you wonder who you are

it probably ain't who you think you are


and certainly not who you hope you are

dream killer

probably one of my indian names


nine beers would be another


have been called many things in this life


have seen many things in this life


and been many places with my self

perhaps the dumbest word of all

to say to your self


and i don't mean what you want

or who you think you are

or who you wish you were

willingness

perhaps the greatest virtue of all

the human race

here among the human race
each could know his rightful place
if he would set all thought aside
and from the truth no longer hide

life does have its natural order
tho rarely seen within our border
with no respect for life as whole
greed and power the new goal

wipe out all that nature made
kill the life in field and glade
a new plan for life we cry
get on board or else you die

all the kindness of the heart
must be stifled if your smart
for a time it seemed so great
but things have changed it seems of late

chaos now does fill the land
truth can find no place to stand
most live in fear from day to day
the pills and booze push it away

order once again can be
but we must first set ourselves free
the spirit lives but is repressed
such is why we feel depressed

the heart must open to the light
this is how we know what's right
the soul of man must be set free
to live the truth as meant to be

the plan is not found in the head
or from all the books we've read
love and truth are of the now
and open heart will show us how

the voice of truth

the voice of truth
will  still be found
within the heart
that hears no sound

with silent mind
yes still all thought
have no belief
you'll just get caught

in all that maze
that men create
when to their thoughts
they do relate

the living essence
must be known
this is how the
truth is shown

it's not outside
all those are lost
life's in the now
and without cost

no one has
what others need
within yourself
you'll find the seed

of life eternal
endless love
it's in you heart
not up above

here i sit

here i sit  -  still out of work
am i  ok  -  or just a jerk
only time will make it clear
the guiding light or clouds of fear

all must walk their path they say
must take each step through each new day
the heart of truth is surely led
but strange ideas fill the head

no one knows for sure i guess
sometimes more and sometimes less
still the game must be played out
we'll not turn back  -  the soul does shout

nothing past can draw my heart
life must have a brand new start
so here i am  -  depressed but eager
resources lean but not yet meager

knowing life does have it's plan
in time to share with this mere man
as we once again take part
in what will be a brand new start

angel

there are two angels

at the gates of heaven


one to remind you

of what you did do

and confirm what you did


one is to remind you

of what you didn't do

and confirm what you didn't do


some consider the latter

the dark angels


i don't always agree


sometimes what i didn't do

tells me more about my self

than what i did do

giving

don't ever give anyone anything

that you would not want back


wanting and not wanting

are the same

me and truth

we get along

most days


some days

we just get along


and some days

we just are


which i guess

is just plural

for am

pride

a very dangerous word

thinking

we are taught to think

which slows us down


thought is retrospective

an interest in the past


life is forever now


being is the way of knowing

irresistible

just a slang term

for resistible


mostly used

by those that resist


and an expression

of self deception


which they sell

to their lesser selves


we all see life

in our own way

until we don't

true

what if all is true

and there are no lies


and we are guilty

of self deception

face

the only way

to face me

is to face your self


and it only works

if i am facing

my self

what if

what if

the people telling us what to do

don't know what they are doing


now we get to see

what we will do


knowing is a very personal word

and we all have to find our own way


as we can

approval and disapproval

these words seem to be

the hallmark of our time


don't really know what hallmark means


what the words mean

is accept this and reject that

and live with less than whole


which seems to me to be

a pretty crappy deal


less is not actually an option

we just get more crap than usual


have been reading

the perfumed scorpion

strangers on a train

that sounds like

the story of my life


and the story of a few others

i have met

along the way

want

a rejection of what life is offering


recognizing what is needed or required

is far more valid and constructive

than creating conflict

rejection

a situation i am familiar with


most often

by those that claim

to want me


want is a demanding word

and not a seeker of sharing

want is a be mine now word


which is


probably whatever you think it is


but it ain't me

wanting

the greatest curse of all


just another self inflicted wound

on us all

resistance

how does on overcome resistance

well the trick is

don't resist

time

and there came a time

when life asked me

what i cared for


and i said woman


and then i cried

bread

the bread ain't ready

till it's ready

as every baker knows

this plane of existence

our plane

manifests itself

as dominance

and submisiveness


and the trick is

both must accept

the truth

of what we all are


and the clue is

we are both


and that's just to start with

Life

Life is not about getting what we want

Life is about the Truth of what we share


the truth of what we are


and to know what we are

we must face the truth

of what we are

which is not a product of thought

and just another silly idea


not ain't much of a word

Idries Shah

have read a lot of his books over the years

and am really glad i did

they helped a lot

life

so many in our time

want life to be other than it is

which ain't a smart move

and a very dangerious game to play

protect

protecting your self from me

makes being with you

very difficult


which is my nice way

of expressing that situation

seeing

perhaps if we could see

what we are doing


we would not find ourselves

so facinated with

what we are doing


the first step to seeing

is to slow down

and quit trying so hard


which will only lead

to tunnel vision


and a hidden life

which don't sound like much

of a life to me


life is a treasure

to be shared

by those that  can share

without a price tag

resist

to resist life

is to make life

a little less fun

which don't make much sense to me


cold is still difficult for me

business

business is a war like enterprise

and always leads to conflict


and submission and slavery

nothing

nothing is tolorable

if you ain't too picky


we still

get to be

what we are


we always have our self

if we're willing

being stupid

it is important to always know you're being stupid

when you're being stupid


cause if you don't

you really are being stupid


innocence is only for the child


all else is ignorance

training

those that rely on their training

will not survive

life is in our natural instincts

which training seeks to dominate and control


this was once the warriors code

and the only way to survive

until it was time to die

statistics

those that only examine

statistics and stuff

can never know life

which is what we are


all of us

life

life is just making deliveries

giving

don't ever give anyone anything

that you don't want back


and never expect anything

reading

mostly we read

what catches our eye


but in time

we must also read

what didn't catch our eye

the penny joke

that joke was about sex


first you hung a penny

by a thread from your left hip


and about girls


then you hung a nickel

by a thread from your right hip


now you move you hip

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the penny

hit the nickel


then you hung a quarter

by a thread to your ass

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter


then you hung a dime

down there in your front

between you legs


hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the dime

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the dime


hit the dime


hit the dime

hit the dime

life

the only one

that can ask a question

with out an answer

and laugh

interpreter

any one who needs

an interpreter

is not listening

iphoto

have loved and used iPhoto for years

now it tells me

i am out of date


i got the app store

and no updates

are available to me


good bye iPhoto


some one hijacked me

and capitalized the t's


pretty sure i didn't do that


i was kind of pissed off

about not getting and upgrade

end

in life

you go from

the begining

to the middle

to the begining


there is no end

heaven and hell

the opposite end

of all that is


we humans

have tricked our self


here in this land of dualities

john norman and the gor books

the early books in that series

were great

and very educational


after that

they were just crap

and of no value at all

woman

all i can say to woman


you must face your self

to face me


which will only happen

if i can face my self

innocence

a nice word

for the freshly ignorant


and our ignorance

in our own time

we must all face

prayer

another form of rejection

of what actually is

with all those expectations

and hopes and wishes

which are just dreams

and creations of our imagination

which are just our hopes and wishes and dreams


we sleep

until we don't


wake up

if your willing

to face truth

which is the greatest gift of all

hoping

hoping is actually

a rejection of

what actually is


an escape tactic


as is wishing

and trying

and all that other crap

a clock

if you need a clock

to tell you

what time it is


you probably

ain't very good

at being who you are


or where you are

write a book

maybe some day

i will write a book


i will call the book

the dragon

who loved me


and then

i will run for cover

medal

when you medal

in your own affairs

you expose your self

to those who like to medal

in the affairs of others


mostly because they are afraid

of their self


actually in this comment

was referring to meddling

as in interfere


was not sure of the spelling

opponent

who ever you choose

for your opponent

is who you will dance with

tragedy

the tragedy of our time is

the boys don't know how

to be with the girls


and the worse tragedy is

the girls don't know how

to be with the boys


and the man and woman situation

hasn't happened in a long time

wining

life on this plane

is not actually about wining


life on this plane

is about losing gracefully

track

every where we go

we leave a track

until we don't

god

an idea we humans made up

which i usually call

our imaginary friend


some have been taught to think

one must fight and kill and die

to please god and get some reward


some have been taught to think

they must submit and suffer and die

to please god and get some reward


what i see

is we humans are pretty ignorant

arrogant and egotistical

and not overly nice


and this situation seems to me to be

face our ignorance and be free of that crap

or face the results of that crap

and be buried under that crap

for a while


and apparently lately

we just start the game again

example

i am an example

of what i am

you are an example

of what you are

whether we like it or not


all i can say to that is

sure hope i'm be'n me


which only reveals

how afraid and insecure i am

with my self


life is only really scary

if we are afraid to face life


have done some research in this life

about how to face that situation

and a few times

how not to

an organism

what i get to be for a while

what we get to be

what our fellow creatures get to be

what the plants and bacteria get to be


organism is kind of a funny word

humans seem to like to come up with types of life


types is a stupid word

awareness

awareness is not a product of thought

confusion and conflict

are products of thought


thinking has become

the greatest affliction

of the human race


we have been domesticated

and trained how to preform

like cattle and sheep and horses

and are no longer allowed

to find our own way

with our self

and be as life made us


we now substitute thinking

for mind and being


the modern human system

that rules and regulates us all

is in conflict with

and preys upon nature

and is rapidly becoming a threat

to our little world

because we train the children

to be what we want them to be

with no respect for their true nature


if we can't face what we are doing

and respect the sovereignty of the children

we tread a dangerious path

and don't know who we are


what we think we know

is mostly guessing and speculation


ideas aren't real

and wareness is not a product of thought


untrained human beings

don't know how to act


act is the clue

water

without water

there is no garden


without the garden

there is no water

rejection

if you can't accept

those that reject you

you will have a harder time

accepting those that do


rejection is an incomplete way

sorrows

sarrows are only sorrows

if you can't face them

for what they are

me

for some

the smallest

part of their self


for some

the greatest

part of their self


for some

not all that

particularly relevant


and some just wonder

what all that crap means

cancer

the disease of

self rejection


which is encouraged

almost from birth


so few are accepted

for who the are


so many are told

what to be


so few are free

to be

hole

digging a hole

in the whole

leaves behind

a pretty big pile

of refuse to climb

dignity

not sure what that word means

seems to me to be

kind of a play like thing

like acting

doing

when you do things

only for the money

you sell your self

into slavery

faces

life has many faces

learning

learning becomes almost impossible

when we reach conclusions

and think we know something


then comes wanting

which rejection of what is


and then the desire for control


being is then lost

as we become lost

in our personal ideas and desires


we now manage our self

and our true nature betrayed

true

if one thing is true

then its opposite

must also be true


here on this plane of dualities


apparently

we don't know

what we are doing


as we multiply ourselves

with such enthusiasm

facing

facing the lesser

is the first step

to facing the greater


for we are both

stop

the only perfect word

in this time of doing

and trying


we forgot about being

knowing

if you don't know

who you are

just be who you are

and face the music

as you can

fathers

most get to look at their father

few have seen their father

in modern times


the same can ususally be said for mothers


and very few see the children


but most sure like money

and their pride


seeing is really important


thinking not so much

no subject

the hard we do immediately

the impossible takes a little longer


seems like i saw that somewhere

don't remember where

but its a great line

nun or none

seems the same word to me


those none girls

always want more

hearing

if you only listen to the words

you will not be able to hear


listening

is a very primitive form

of hearing

Love

love that is

only for the one

or the few

is not love

the highway sound

i grew up around

highway sounds


can hear highway sounds

from the back door


highway is a funny word

seems to imply

going faster is best


i have gone fast

and i like going fast and slow

at the same time

the best


so far

wanting to understand

wanting to understand

is an affirmation

of a lack of understanding


being willing to understand

is a passive state

the gaps in humans

the only way

to understand

the gap in humans

is to understand

the separations

virginity

the untouched


sure are a lot

of virgins

in this world


and a lot of violence

runners

so many run today

in our time


so few stand still

modern humans

by modern i mean what i have seen of this place


most modern people seek gratification

by using others


seems a psychological disorder to me


too much thinking

and not nearly enough being

life

most in our time

seem to think

they have life


most seem to think

they should use life


and the results

of such behavior

are now for all to see


mostly i feel like

life has me

Stop

real life

don't have

a stop button

Fear

fear can only be based upon

not knowing who you are

Toes

your toes

are much more

than those things

on the end of your feet

we start in on children

we start in on children
so early today
to program their minds
before they learn to play

a child needs the time
to first know its self
and it hurts to be told
to just get on that shelf

with no time to consider
just what this might be
we rob them so quickly
of their right to see

it seems plain to me
the old way's not so smart
as we rip up this planet
and tear at its heart

in spite of the terrors
which now fill the land
the stink of pollution
so carefully planned

we still tell them all
that "i know what's best"
but the results that i see
sure don't pass the test

the innocence found
in the eyes of a child
the master once spoke of
in terms not so mild

be as the children
is what he once said
the will to respect them
today seems quite dead

most just play roles
that were forced in their mind
with no thought of nature
now so hard to find

a fresh look at life
is the gift of new birth
if we don't respect it
then what is it worth

Nature

we humans seem to have developed

a real affection for

interfering with nature


i don't see that

as a very wise decision

Escape

there is no escape

from our self


we can create barrers

which only make our situation worse


and my self

is also your self


Krishnamurti was right

we are the world

and the conflict is within us


we are both the source

and the solution


yet in our selfishness

we are unable to work

for the good of all life

Rejection

it is always more fun

to be rejected by

those that like you


especially if you like them

Vengeance

if we humans can't give up

our obsession with vengeance

it's pretty much over for us


no one ever wins that game


and we humans sure do like our games

and our stupid little emotional disorders


vengeance has taken many names

retribution

payback

punishment

justice

the law

gods will


but vengeance is still vengeance

and the greatest destroyer of all


we all have to find

our own way

winning and losing

how we humans loose

reveals a lot more about our character

than how we win


we humans are pretty prejudice

about winning and losing

which causes a lot of conflict


life is not about winning and losing

but most of us seem to think it is


my father told me a long time ago

it ain't whether you win or lose

it's how you play the game


he was a pretty sharp guy

although i didn't recognize that

at the time


we humans have such a fascination

with conflict

which will probably lead

to our downfall

which probably won't be much fun

or very pretty

thinking

just another form of escapism

and another product of our time


awareness is not a product of thought


product is the clue

rejection

if you want me to be

who i was yesterday

you are rejecting

who i am today


life is not stationary

to write on as you choose

as so many seem to think

wisdom

being smart is one situation

wisdom quite another

that technology stuff

is just a gimmick

and only here for a while

your self

is all that lasts forever


and i am no fan

of any modern or ancient religion

the new goal of capitalism

the new goal of capitalism

is to replace all those humans in the factories

with machines


but what shall they do with the humans

they just put out of work


detroit, michigan is the first clue

personal profit

when personal gain

becomes more important than life

more important than people

and the children

and the creatures of the field

and the green cloak of this little planet

and our self

we humans have lost our way

and may god have mercy on our souls

as the religious people like to say


but not me

we deserve to face what we do

what we have done

with the gift of life


how else can we learn

the human race

here among the human race
each could know his rightful place
if he would set all thought aside
and from the truth no longer hide

life does have its natural order
tho rarely seen within our border
with no respect for life as whole
greed and power the new goal

wipe out all that nature made
kill the life in field and grade
a new plan for life we cry
get on board or else you die

all the kindness of the heart
must be stifled if your smart
for a time it seemed so great
but things have changed it seems of late

chaos now does fill the land
truth can find no place to stand
most live in fear from day to day
the pills and booze push it away

order once again can be
but we must first set ourselves free
the spirit lives but is repressed
which is why we feel depressed

the heart must open to the light
this is how we know what's right
the should of man must be set free
to live the truth as meant to be

the plan is not found in the head
nor from all the books we've read
love and truth are of the now
an open heart will show us how

gracious me

gracious me
what do i see

iss that you there
beneath the tree

all fresh and clean
and wide awake

could this be true
for heavens sake

a gift so pure and innocent
can only be a present sent

from life itself and i can see
the gift appears to be for me

for this day my heart did wait
and by my clock  -  you seem quite late

but all is well now that you're here
and i will always love you dear

for in the winds of time we've flown
and through all time your love i've known

fresh and true we rise again
to share ourselves once more with men

for they have been quite sad of late
all sick and tired and full of hate

in large numbers they do kill
at times it seems just for the thrill

but we will show them  -  you and me
there's more to life  -  as you shall see

for love like ours was ment to be
and love's the gift that sets man free

anger

an expression of self pity

and a form of self abuse

which we have become so fond of

blaming on others

thinkers

thinkers seek to improve life


which is in truth

rejecting life as life is


just an other attempt

to play god


we humans are probably

too smart for our own good


what we are

is the gift


what we could be

just a dream


which is rapidly becoming

our latest nightmare


we are apparently

asleep and dreaming


life is the gift

and the outcome

just how life gets

where life is

and where life is going

awareness

is not a product of thought


being is not achieved by thinking


being is a real word


thinking is a play like word

and the opposite of being

fire and water

fire always goes up

water always goes down

sometimes they meet in the middle

and make rain

which the earth needs

to be green


perhaps the garden is what matters


and the air

makes all this possible


the fire and air

work together for

the earth and water


the earth and water

work together for

the fire and air


and thinking about all that

just leads to knot the way


not a natural act


nature is short for natural

and our nature

is what we are


sometimes what we feel

never what we think


which is still just escapism

and leads to nowhere

which ain't all that much fun

normal

another modern word


obviouly in contrast

to the word natural


which is far easier

for me to process

security

a false god

and a really stupid idea

rejection

rejection is only a threat

to those rejecting their self

blame

in modern time

and for a while now

the most popular way

to reject freedom

freedom

so many flaunt the word


so few embrace the meaning

and responsibility of the word


or what the word actually represents

institutions

another word for prisons

weaning

modern societies

are not designed to free us

of our dependencies

but to cultivate them

which does not lead to freedom

our truth

to know our truth

we must face our lies

and give up lying


our hopes and beliefs and wishes

are of no value at all

and only mislead us from our truth

which is the sacred trust


know thy self

is good advice

and essential to our well being


and the well being

of our little world


awareness is not a product of thought

which is usually a form of escapism

or get what i wantism

greed

only pursued by those

that view life as nothing

fighting

just another way to lose

mostly favored by those

that seek to lose the hard way


they seem to think

being hard and strong and dangerious

is the answer


mostly a game girls got into

followed by a lot of guys


and the clue is

there ain't no answer

cause life ain't a question

thinking

the blind mans (or woman's) option

and where stupid people come from


some people blame man for that situation

most christians blame woman


who were the first thinkers

that don't really matter


it's just another waste of time

and time ain't really real either

we are the world

and a whole lot more

the only way to help your self

is to help the world


the only way to help the world

is to help your self


and trying to figure that out

is just another attempt to control

and more waste of time


life is in the being


thinking is devotion to escapism

which ain't actually an option

urgent words

urgent words and stressful faces
this is seen now in most places
humans seem to worry more
most don't seem to know the score

ideas are the chosen goal
endless dreams torment the soul
it's fantasy my heart does say
no truth in all the games we play

life does have its own true course
which all must live or see remorse
and truth will in the heart be found
thru love we'll see the world rebound

ideas only block the view
the mind must open to be new
we must release all old belief
which is the source of all our grief

the plans of man have surely failed
upon the rocks we now have sailed
to truth of life we must return
the sacred trust we must relearn

the spirit lives  -  it's what we are
it's all ways with us  -  never far
but all must listen for its voice
and with the heart make love the choice

the soul cries

the soul cries out from stoic faces
all bound up in plans and chases
seeking more and getting less
in every way no truth confess

some new dream would feed me better
all thought out  -  yes to the letter
on and on the quest is run
in search of some new source of fun

still the wails fill every plane
so much loss for so much gain
your plan in truth is poorly made
there is no love in your parade

the way of life is still an option
there's something more than your concoction
the life that is the source of all
still sends its eternal call

one must take the time to hear it
to share its love  -  no more to fear it
lifes one purpose is to serve
to live its perfect love takes nerve

this special gift of life is free
there is no purchase price you see
love abounds for those who let it
a willing heart is how you get it

live the truth

live the truth my child it said
don't let deceptions fill your head
most think they know but they do not
look at all the wars they fought

i'm the hand that holds you all
without my love the worlds would fall
the universal spirit lives
and it's the one that gives and gives

a kindness is the way to serve me
unkind acts just so un-nerve me
loves the only way life grows
an open heart is how it shows

love is more than an idea
more than a sensation
love is a universal experience

awake

awake  -  oh man
you sleep so late
such a roar'n reprobate

the time has come to clear your head
or else you'll find your self quite dead

tears alone won't save your soul
love of life must be the goal

the wreakage of a world's upon you
regret in time will soon surround you

the past is piling up you see
from karma there's no place to flee

the golden light lives in your heart
but head must let the feeling start

too much thought does fill your head
it drowns out all the spirit said

life is found in one and all
one life i am  -  the spirits call

the gift of life must be protected
the young and old must be respected

lifes own order is the way
creation is alive today

expectations

how can i expect others

to be truthful with me

if i am not truthful

with my self


how can i expect others

to be a friend

if i am not a friend


how can we expect others

to respect us

if we do not respect

our self


true life

has nothing to do

with our expectations


true life is not what

we hope life will be

or what we think

life should be


life is free of our will

which is probably

the greatest blessing of all

a fairy tale

this is a fairy tail

i found in myself

a long time ago


once there was a beautiful princess

who went for a walk in the woods

one day


it was a very pretty day

and she felt like stretching her legs

and feeling free


much later that day

a handsome prince rode by


he heard cries for help

out there in the woods somewhere

and decided to see if he could help


soon he came to a clearing in the forest

in the center of the clearing

was this beautiful princess

up a tree


a large dog was barking

at the base of the tree


and she cried out

oh my handsome prince

please save me


the prince rode over to the tree

and looked at the dog

and up at the princess in the tree


after a moment he said

tell the dog to go away

and he rode off

our friend all that is

what i call god

the unity of all life

want

the greatest of all curse words


want and not want are the same

both are rejections of our situation

which will never solve our problem

and only make the problem worse


as anyone who watches the news could see

if we were into seeing

and not just hoping and wishing and blame

this life experience

in this life experience

a few have been with me

more than a few sought to drain me

which i sometimes permitted

most didn't notice me at all

wanted

to be wanted by an other

means you are not seen and accepted


to be wanted by an other

means you have been rejected


this only occurs

with those rejecting their self

and experiencing the great emptiness


which is a self inflicted delusion


usually learned from an other

but not always

true religion

true religion

does not teach the children to hide

in shame and fearfulness

and then show them a way to live

and the price they must pay


there is no price for life


and those that say there is

no nothing of life


and so many in our time

seek to pay for the gift

which is just a cruel joke

and in no way funny


there was a time i was mad

about this stupid game we play

but being mad about life

ain't no way to live


the gift if forever free

and to seek what can never be lost

is no where to go

dying

the only way to learn about dying

is to take the life of an other


not a very interesting experience

but very popular in the current time


time ain't really real either

some clown made that stuff up

now so many sell their time

and get so little stuff in return


life manifests all the stuff we see

and touch and taste and want

or don't want


life is the source of all stuff

and yet can never be stuff


the scientist studies stuff

but the greatest microscope or telescope

can only see stuff


and life goes on being


all questions are trick questions

and the game of idiots

the hopelessly unaware


and life goes on being life

unseen but all that is

fear

fear is not a natural state


it has been brought into being

by centuries of teaching children

to be ignorant


the free man

can not be taught


those that experience life

can't be taught about lack and dying


those that have faced life

have no concept of being saved


we don't have to be so miserable and afraid

life is free


all that stuff we can buy and pay for

is just stuff


and the stuff we steal or cheat for

even more dangerious stuff

clothing

there was a time

humans wore clothing

to protect the body

from the cold

or harsh plant life

they were passing through

or the sun

in a harsh dry climate


most modern people wear clothes

because they are ashamed

of what they are

and seek to hide

and create a false impression


religions are mostly responsible

for that situation

at least in the beginning of that phase


now appearance is the new god

and business is very profitable

sell illusions to hide behind

or actually within


clothes are now required by law

and the free being

pretty much a thing of the past


i have known very few


have been a very fortunate man

death

death is just an illusion


those that believe in death

get trapped in their own delusions


the body is only the clothes we wear

to take away an others clothes

is the only way to lose your clothes


the human race in our time

is mostly just making stuff up

and selling stuff for a profit


and the little planet we call home

has become a real hell hole

all

all can only mean all


exclusive is a private word

and isolated by choice


some learn about life

by being life


some learn about life

by avoiding life


some by what they are

some by what they wish to be


which is only affirming a lack

which is an artificial creation

and not natural

feelings

those that hide their feelings

only get credit for a lie


truth is our only salvation


and the modern world

is mostly based on many lies

which is just a cheap imation

of life

and of no value at all


all is the clue

losers

the only losers in life

are those trying to win


the winners are just taking part

and being who they are

winning

only those that can lose

with grace and dignity

can ever win


it's a pisces thing

which is about grace


that dignity thing

is a real loser

children

to understand the children

we must face

the child within us all


which has rarely been permitted

in our life times


the assault

has arrived sooner

almost every year

Malcolm Berko

just read todays column

he continues to be one of my heroes

facing me

only exists

with those facing their self

the life we live

we have allowed

the teachers and the preachers

and government propaganda

tell us how to live


and look at what we wound up with


perhaps we are looking for life

in all the wrong places

instead of being the life we are


what we think we are

and what we think we want

only misleads us

the life we choose

the life we choose

is the petty little life we get to live


only those that don't choose

receive the gift


wanting this or that from life

is selective living


life is a gift to all

the selfish ones came up with prices


life is far more than a shopping center

and forever free

using

most humans today

seem to think and believe

that life is for them to use and exploit


seems pretty backward thinking to me


using is bad enough

but exploiting is down right nasty and cruel


we humans have become a pretty ignorant lot

and not so pretty anymore


life without respect

is life without love

and no life at all


thinking is a form of escapism

and apparently the lord of our time

ideas

all our ideas are just

bubbles blown in the ocean


life is the ocean


all bubbles do

is rise to the next surface

and cease to be


again to be all

mathmatics

mathmatics is a delusion

0 is the only true number

liking

liking is only really fun

when one has no interest in disliking

which is still very popular

for so many of us


i still fail at my own game

so very often

punishment

just another way

to gratify our self

at the expense of others


who happen to be

just more of our self

condemnation

if i were to condemn others

for their failures

in what we call life


i would have to condemn

almost everyone

including my self


i see no value in punishment

although i have seen myself

inflict it on some one i liked


didn't care much for how that felt


there are other options

available to us


if we have any interest

in peace and harmony


instead of all that other stuff

which has been so popular

for so long


the history of us human types

mostly ain't all that pretty


which is the nicest way i can speak

of our history


the exceptions have been few

and pretty far in between


and yet we are still the potential

to be other than how we have been

acting

a preformance

designed to elicit

a specific emotional response

in an other


a form of manipulation

of an other


which is so popular in our time


and a symption of

the great emptiness of our lives

in what we like to call

modern times

homosexuality

a semi-popular activity

in our time


which i am often being encouraged

to accept as just another

natural way of being


but still just an unnatural act to me


and in all fairness

the hetrosexual community

is also very fond of unnatural acts


and both are fond of unnatural acts

even in areas not considered sexual


there are those that might consider

my position to be judgmental

but judgmental implies punishment

which does not interest me


that was just an observation


every act is its own punishment


act is the clue

money

once we become attached

and dependent on money

it becomes a sickness and disease


attatched and dependent

always leads to sickness and disease


and violence and war


we humans are walking

a dead end path


mostly because we were mislead

and not allowed to find our own way


and now we mislead our selves


there are other options

if we are willing to give up all our beliefs

and hopes and wishes and dreams


and be open to life


the life within ourselves

and what we call outside ourselves

is the same life

which we have fragmentated

in our so called minds


and we have become dangerious

to our self

and all our selves

pride and shame

the greater the potential for pride

the greater the potential for shame

they are opposites

and the same


our ideas of love

lead us to hate


true love is not an idea

true love is being

and open to all

without prejudice

without  separation


life is whole

our isolating ideas

make us separate

and incomplete


which can only lead to want

and our eventual destruction

at the hands of our greed

life can be complicated

there have been instances

where the victim

was actually controlling

the crime scene

and preying on

the rescue workers

people and machines

more and more

business is using machines

to replace people


we people can help

put people back to work

by not using machines

and go back to

dealing with people

civilized

so many wishing to appear civilized

so few aware of

what that word means


civilized means

restricted and under control

to me


am not a big fan of that word

or whatever it is supposed to mean


seems to be an artificial word to me

and of no value to me


never cared much for artificial flowers

responsibility

still not quite sure what that word means


but what still amazes me

is how often modern humans

are willing to accept responsibility

when they aren't responsible


and how rarely they are willing

to accept responsibility

when they are

what happened

what happened

is not what matters to us

all that really matters to us

is how we responded

to what happened

zero

0

the only complete number

J. Krishnamurti

read a lot of his stuff when i was younger

what he said was remarkable to me

the story of his life even more remarkable


just found a copy of

Education & the Significance of Life

which i don't remember reading

just finished the 1st page

and was impressed


just finished chapter 1

this may be the most remarkable book i ever read

it was published in 1951

not sure how i missed it

probable wasn't time

getting past where you are

the only way to get past where you are

is to face where you are

and perhaps notice your self

if your lucky


trying to get anywhere

will only get you no where

but one little bitty place

if your unlucky

blame

we use blame

to justify our failures

and avoid responsibility

for our self

and reject our souverinity


rejection is knot

the way of life


no one wins that game

we all lose


life far more

than our petty little game

which we seem to cherish

more than life


don't see much of a fun future

in such a path


to choose any path

is the blind ones gamble

just another guess


knowing only exists in being

facing me

the only way to face me

is to face your self


if you can't face your self

you will never be

able to face me


i don't tell life what to do

or what to be


we all choose for our self

until we don't


choosing is an escape tactic

just another attempt

to avoid life

and get what you want


in the old days

most were weened

by the second or third year

some even earlier


dependencey is a crippiling disease

after the age of four or five


some become dependent

on anthers trickery

some on their own


neither will last forever

then what do we do with the blame

which always been our justification

for our failures


another escape tactic

and their ain't no escape from life

except in our imaginations

which ain't really real


and a great emptiness

is upon the land

so full of chaos and pain

over thinking things

the most difficult problem

for me to let go of


think happy thoughts  - feel happy

think sad thoughts  -  feel sad

think angry thoughts  -  get mad


always chasing or running from

our stupid little ideas


constantly over stimulating

and misleading ourselves

with our silly little games


what i call mental masterbation


awareness is not a product of thought


life cannot be figured out

life can only be acknowledged

or ignored


the process starts with our self

all i can say

all i can say about my response to this life

is a line i heard in an old movie

it seemed like the thing to do at the time

a way of life

many humans have learned

to stand up for

their way of life


perhaps in time

to stand up for life

greed

a major affliction

of the human race

for a long time


and a curse on the human race

on our little world

and our fellow creatures


a symptom of

a serious emotional disorder


human emotions are

mostly manipulated in our time

and for a long time


this affliction is trashing our lives

before we even get to live them


we could examine what we are doing

but so few notice their self


all the wants are outside

when what really matters

what we are inside


our self


we have let our selfishness

leads us astray


and being a stray

is being a stray

wild animals

what most people call

the untrained creatures of the field


i call them free

cheaters

cheaters never win

they just get to face their failures


winners don't win either

failure must always be faced


winning and losing

is not what life is about


life is about being


and cheating a foolish dream

as is winning

up and down

if the universe only went up

and never went down

there would be a great imbalance

in the universe

and therefore in life for us


good luck to all these control freaks

that have so often stalked the land


after all this time

none have pulled that off

for more than a little while

more about winning and losing

there are those out there

who seem to think

life is about winning and losing


that don't happen to be true

life ain't a game


the only security i experience

is that i can't win or lose

neither option appeals to me


maybe i am just selfish

but to me i seem to be stuck with


i don't care who wins or loses

i just want to take part

i just choose to play


have no interest in manipulating the game

am interested in how the game works out

or turns out

or whatever is next


some of those that watched over me as a child

thought i might be retarded

others thought i was just slow to catch on

which was true

fighting

fighting will not solve our problems

which our long bloody history

has proven so many times


all these precious divisions

we seem to cherish so

will in time destroy us all


i like this little planet

and being human

most of the time


that took a little practice

and a lot of letting go

being mad

anger is just an expression

of self pity

which has no redeaming value


and in our overpopulated world

our anger/self pity has the potential

to destroy our little planet

for no valid reason at all


we are all different

and all the same

as life made us all

the girl

all i would ever wish

for the girl

if i didn't know better


would be that she

just gets to be

her self

trying to win

the only reason

i am still here

is because

i am not trying

to win


if i had been

trying to win

i would have lost

and been flushed

a long time ago


i am just being here

as is can

because this is where i am

security

the desire for security

is how we cultivate insecurity

in our self

rejection

have experienced rejection in this life

mostly for all the wrong reasons


it mostly wasn't for what i was doing

it usually was because

i wouldn't do what some one wanted me to

modern people and jets

most modern people

have become like jets

most of the noise

comes from behind them


those i grew up around

called it talking out their ass

or being full of crap


that generation is mostly gone now

and the world's not a better place

wandering the hallways

wandering the hallways of life

and the hallways of my mind


sometimes i have gotten them confused

fighting

how do we stop the fighting

perhaps to recognize

we are only fighting our self

and projecting that situation

on those around us

and ignoring

those around us

who we are punishing

as we punish our self

being

not an active state

a passive state


just being with self

only observing


not all that popular

in this time of great escape

in the land of great distractions


the truth of our self

is all we ever have


our self

is often confused

with our situation

with our self

escape words

them and those are escape word

as is that as i mentioned


humans seem to be attracted to exclusiveness

which leads to narrow mindedness

and other selfish stuff


life is all that is

and cheating is not an option

yet so many wish to try that stuff


life is forever free

and we are free to try

hiding

a girl tried to hide behind me one

maybe more than once

i haven't always been paying attention


that didn't work out so well at first

all i did was encourage her to face her self

and face the day


then she could try facing me


have never been very good a lying to girls

i tried that once

and very quickly gave that once


that is an escape word

and there ain't no escape from life

life

my friend

i know you are there for me

even if i didn't ask

and would never interfere

boundless

life is actually boundless

but has to have limitations

to be what we call tangible

cure

if you want to find a cure for malaria

go get malaria


but if you are afraid of malaria

it will make you sick


fear is the clue

and there ain't no way to cheat

money and capitalism

what i often call

legalized slave labor


convincing the slaves

that they were free

was a pretty cute trick


now we have to sell our labor

to feed our self and our family

it we have one

which is a form of prostitution

which is also supposed to be

against the law

truthfullness

there is little truthfulness

to be found

in a well planned

presentation


all thought out

and well planned out

always means a lie


truth can never be

a fake

or a trick

or any of the stilly stuff

we humans

have become so fond of

forgiveness

most in our time

go to a church

of some kind

to ask for forgiveness


forgiveness

is of no value

if you cannot

forgive your self


to be forgiven

in a church

means to have

the apology accepted


to apologize for

our self

means we are

ashamed of our self


which don't seem to me

a very comfortable

place to be


the people

of this world

have not been

very welcoming

if so many children

feel that way

personal self

most people in our time

have a public self image

and a private self image


all outsiders

only get to meet

one or the other

what we do

am not very interested

in what we do


mostly it just bores me

if not pissing me off


but am still fascinated

by what we are

hard

the hard

we do immediately


the impossible

takes a little longer


either heard or read that

somewhere


seemed about right to me


we can only be limited

if we choose to be limited


seemed pretty silly to me


now i remember what silly means

die

only dreams can die

life can only change


we humans like to

try to change


our self

our world


rejection

of our self

and our situation

probably won't

make us happy


not sure what

happy means


sounds kind of

artificial

to me


just another silly idea


have some knowing

of what silly means

all the right places

life only is real

when we are in

the right places


our places are

where we were

born to be


and none of us

gets to choose

who we are


but most of us

have learned

to try


trying has

nothing in common

with being

open to life

if we are not open to life

we are closed to life

what the ancients call damned

conflict

conflict seems to be

the way to be alive

for so many


and the children suffer


as the weapons grow

more powerful everyday


selfishness is a harsh mistress

and leads only to desolation


selfish giving is the worst

at best pretty tasty bait

lonely

the only way to be lonely

is to avoid you self

or maybe to never have noticed

you had one

and so many

profit

profit is a poor mans gain

from the start


a big pile of stuff

is never more than a big pile of stuff

at a very high price


and life is forever free

as we wander amoung

all these things


once we were people

not so much anymore

so many are only

the care actors they play


caring only makes life seem small

as does not caring

both are emotional devices

just another form of mental masterbation

apparently to convince our self

and others of our choosing

that we have feelings

liking

if you can't truly like you self

you will never be able to truly like me

or any of lifes creation


the same is true of love

what ever that word means to you


some people love getting stuff

some people love giving stuff

some people just love

sex

if your looking for sex from me

that won't work

sex only works when we share

which starts with our self


denial is a dead end street

as is rejection

which is the same


we so try hard to live

and life is all there is

and free


growing up in a capitalist world

has made us short sighted

and narrow minded


and the religions haven't help

we just become more narrow minded

and short sighted


eyes are for seeing

ears are for hearing

but of no use

if we won't listen or see


being is a passive state of being

and cannot be bought

our attitude

our attitude toward life

will be what ever we choose to choose

as long as we choose to choose


for most their life has become

what they have chosen

or what they refused to choose


and the tears fall like rain

the world is in pain

how long will is be

till we see

that life is only free

when accepted

doing

most today don't seem to realize

we become what we are doing

on both sides of what we are


which has led to all this abuse


most like to blame

their imaginary friends

their devil and their god


what if life is all we see

and all we don't see


all we feel

and all we don't feel


picking and choosing

don't seem a valid option to me

blogging

notes that i write to my self

in the past i threw them away

after a while


not sure what happens to this stuff


deleted the first couple our so years

don't know what happened to them either


we are only here for a while

i wouldn't want to miss anything

which seems so easy to do


we humans don't seem to be

very good at this game we call life

our creations are just stuff

which we destroy life to create

which seems pretty silly to me

which i call what we seem to be doing

when i feel like being nice

trying to avoid life

is just another way to be

which leads to great emptiness

which is just another way to find life

which is all that is and is not


we all have our own nature

which is our only guide

which we can accept or reject

as we choose

if we choose to choose

which is not required by life

but so often encouraged

in our present time

challenges of life

one of the greatest challenges of life

on this plane of existence

can be and so often is lately

learning not to resist life


there is no real need for challenges

but we humans seem so facinated with them


we seem to want to prove something

which makes no sense to me


life is generally pretty obvious

if we aren't seeking to avoid life

what to do

my advice would be

find something constructive to do

which might provide the opportunity

to learn something about your self


or maybe wait and see

until you learn to see


or maybe just be your self

challenges

life on this plane

seems to be a series of challenges


how we respond to these challenges

seems to determine what comes next


or maybe just influence

openness to all

is not possible

without openness to self

and we humans

seem to have become

very selective

which can only lead

to limitations


life can be very complex

selective choosing

can be a very dangerious game

being with our self

can be the greatest challenge we face


and all escapes are delusional


if we can't face our self

we will never be able to face

all our other selves

leaders

true leaders

lead by the life they live

and rarely give orders

if ever

surrender

why fight

if anyone loses

we all lose

wanting

as soon as we want something

what we want becomes very important

and everything else

becomes very unimportant


we humans have become very accomplished

at achieving imbalance within our self

profit

the greatest profit

seems to me to be

to not be a slave of profit


every gain is a loss

every loss a gain


and there ain't no way to cheat


but the cheating game

seems to be so popular

in our time


yeah       i'm here too


get as much as you can

give a little as you can


that cursed little flag

flown by so many

in our time


can see no validity

in gourging our self on nothing

the sword and the shield

the garb of the warrior


the sword was pretty easily thrown away

after all that nastiness


the shield took a little longer

rejection again

to reject any man

is to reject all men


to reject any creature

(as we like to call so much of lifes creation)

is to reject all creatures


and on the story goes


my life is your life

and what i call your life

is the rest of me


unless i want or reject your life

which seems to be a human creation

and very popular in our time


life is life

even the ground we walk on

and rejection

just a torment we have created for our self


which seems to be self abuse to me


life gets very confusing to me

when i think too much

which seems to be my nature


good night my friend

whoever you are


just another reflection

of who i am

life

life is forever free


but so many of we humans

have sought to make

life our own


pretty arrogant


and more than a little selfish

embrace

to embrace

is not the same

as to grasp


one is to accept

one is to take


the gift cannot be taken

escape

those that seek escape

will always find

that no matter where they go

their self is all ways there

one thing i have learned

the one thing i can't do

is go back to where i was


life is forever

and only where i am


where life once was

is a game historians seem to like to play


life is far more than a game


and losing is not an option

traditions

am not a big fan of traditions

which seems to be

trying to be again

what we once were


seems to me to be

just a way to reject

what we are today

facing the truth of our self

facing the truth of our self

can be difficult

when we have been told

so many lies


and so much more difficult

when we decided to

carry on the tradition

facing a girl

once i faced a girl

who had not yet

faced her self


that situation

was a bit awkward

for a while


that actually happened

more than once

pretty much

every time


i still adore girls

apparently for

my own reasons


also apparently

the girls no longer adore

being a girl


so my adoration

is no longer acceptable


a parent my be a clue


most parents seem to think

children need some sort of encouragement


i don't agree


it seems to me

the children need freedom

to be the children they are


so many tell us what not to be

so many tell us what to be

and the children seem to be lost

in all those ideas in our heads

doing something

the only way to do anything

is to not do any thing


some call that situation

letting life be what life is


others giving in to life


i never cared much

for not being me


did not seek to involve my self

with those that required such behaviour

being

being ones self

is not the same

as doing ones self


doing is very popular

in our time

being      not so much


doing is an active state

being is a passive state

with ones self


some call that surrender


i prefer yielding to truth and existence


words ain't very good for expressing life


being is         whatever being is

the hawk

if one can be with the hawk

one can see through his eyes


an old indian proverb i just made up

green

the planet earth

seems to like

covering its self in green leafy stuff


we humans have become a real problem child

what we're doing

if we new what we were doing

most of us would probably not be

doing what we're doing


we would be far too frightened


awareness is not a product of thought

but thought is the most popular game in town

being with all those fantastic ideas


i call that crap mental masterbation

which i am very familiar with


not as fascinated with thinking as i once was


as i child i read a lot of story books

beautiful joe was the first

about a dogs life


next was black beauty


i could get lost for a while in the stories

which was more fun than most of the rest of my life


but life is not a dream world

thing

no thing lasts forever

only the essence


mostly in our time

we only see things


training the thing

is a very dangerious game


the results are what we see

security alert

there ain't no security here

and there never has been


deal with it

or not

as you can


that's all i know to do

the brain thinker part of me

have spent a lot of time in this life

involved with the brain thinker part of me


read a lot as a kid

which stimulated my imagination


imagine nation

don't make it so


but with a little encouragement

and a few lies and made up stories

we sure can try


being is a passive state

which can be all things


the creator and the destroyer

are both the same


peace comes only to the willing

who do what actually needs to be done


and am no fan of new ideas

control

most modern day people

control their self a lot


and after all that time under control

they probably should i guess


am not a big fan of control

and consider control

a great crime against life

and ultimately against our self


and being out of control

is usually a problem for a while

for those that have never experienced freedom


the transition can be quite a shock


the control people have yet to face their self

freely and openly

so they cannot face anyone else

freely and openly

rejection

it is not necessarily rejection

to be other than what or where

we are with our self

power

the greatest curse of all

and very misleading


a moment of personal glory

and a life time of suffering

for so many

willingness

probably the greatest gift of all

and certainly the most powerful

for those that get into that power crap


will fullness is the most popular

game in town

in the present time


will fullness has a very limited range

and potentially very dangerious consequences

if you don't know what your doing

but think you do

what i would do

sometimes i know

what i think i would do


but usually

i have to wait and see

what i do


they are rarely the same

but sometimes are


i wasn't overly trained as a child

and experienced more freedom

than many well trained children