what we are doing

perhaps we have become

so caught up in

what we are doing


that we have lost sight of

who we are

television

a pretty silly word


saw a show recently

about the birth of television


we humans have become

just like television


just putting on a show

silly games

we modern humans

sure like our silly games

we go to what we call sporting

to watch other people play silly games


we like to watch silly stuff on television

and now on our cell phones

and we tweet and all that other silly stuff


we play silly games with our friends and family

and we play silly games with our self


so few can be a friend

or even a lover


and even less can share there self

central being

what all our lies

has cost us

what we do

what we do to others

is a reflection

of what we are doing

to our self


how we feel about others

is a reflection

of how we feel

about our self


how we think about others

is a reflection

of how we think

about our self


the lies we tell to others

are a reflection

of what we tell our self


after all this time

we humans still learning

how to better abuse

our self

and others

thinking

what we think

we are doing

is rarely what

we are actually doing


thinking often interferes

with being


which is a passive state

and usually looked down up on

in our time

opionions

individuals

with an opinion of others

must have an opinion

of their self


opinion is a stupid little word

and very judgmental  


and so many of us

feel so qualified

to judge others

and tell them what to be

and often why

which is the judgemental part

creations

in our time

mans creations

are the most popular

game in town


and lifes creations

seriously neglected

and abused


we play a very

dangerious game

in our time

pride

a very dangerious

game to play


and the source of

so much suffering

for so many


and so popular

in our time

life management

the human creature

is the only creature

is the only creature

on this planet

capable of conjuring up

such and insane idea


to control life

is a great crime

against life


true life

only exists

when life is free to be


most call us human being

but mostly that aint true


we are taught

from a very early age

what and how to be


and now  there is

great chaos and conflict

in our little world


because so few

have been permitted

to find their own way

from with in

the true self

cursin' and nursin

cursin' and nursin'
she went on her way
the child at her breast
as yet had no say

but in its own time
as life went along
it found itself
its very own song

no hugging or kissing
for this little guy
he'll reach for the stars
tho he doesn't know why

the girls in his life
were so cold and aloof
why fool with them
they're their very own proof

they all want a guy
who will serve them quite well
and they make their best deal
as their goodies they sell

but he was alone
he had nothing to trade
and for awhile
he was somewhat afraid

could life be worth living
with no woman to love
or was this a gift
sent from heaven above

for these past years
he has wandered along
tho once in a while
he would pick up a phone

and remember her number
it just won't go away
but he can't dial it
he knows what she'll say

her mind is made up
it's as simple as that
so his dream is for nothing
oh she's such a brat

no  -  that's not true
for he loves her still
and knows in his heart
that he always will

how could he not

she's so beautiful

what now lord

what now lord
i said to myself
i know you're there
as i sit on this shelf

i know not the way
don't yet hear your voice
here i sit all along
without making a choice

spirit must move me
i'll not run in distress
i must stay open
try not to repress

truth's of the heart
tho i think it sleeps
so i must be patient
as my heart leaps

the mission of life
is a code in us all
the only safe way
is be true to its call

the camera

probably changed the course

of human history

more than any other device

there have been many devices


but to record

a moment in time

if only in its physical manifestation

was quite a deal in those days


mostly today

we live behind time

hopes and dreams

the flag flown by so many


and the fantasy land express

rides again

cheating

one cannot cheat another

without first cheating ones self


trying to win

is the quickest way to lose

how we treat dogs

how we treat dogs

and our other fellow creatures

don't seem very nice to me


we restrict their freedom

after taking them from their mother

from a very early age

and make them be

what ever we want to be


that don't seem very nice to me


how we treat our self

and each other

don't seem all that much better to me


maybe we are just too young to see

social security

which so many seek

in our time

only exists

when we all

support us all

as we can


if anyone is lost

somebody lied


we all face our truth

in our own time

which we do not own


life is a gift

and forever free


we humans came up

with this stuff we call hurt


sometimes i think i know why

we seem to want pay back

and life is free


for me

profit suddenly became

a very small word


personl gain

is a small mans enterprise


or womans

if she chooses

to choose

my story

if i were ever

to write my story

i would probably call the story

a butterfly caught in the wind

the natural order

we all have a natural position

in the natural order

and no one gets a vote

or gets to choose who they are


we live in the time

of the unnatural order

an artificial order

where someone somewhere

is pulling the strings

a time of great manipulation


when i first noticed our situation

the situation made me mad

now mostly just sad


we have come to believe

that we have the right

and even obligation

to control and dominate life


pretty scary stuff to me

all this arrogance and belief

in our silly little ideas


life is sacred

and we have lost our way


being is a gift

life is a gift

and so many humans

seem to think they can do better


and all i can do

is be myself

and see how it all works out


playing roles with life

is a very dangerious game

and usually not very rewarding

virgo

virgo is the scribe

that which can be written down


pisces

that which can never be written down


or even spoken

dragons

waking up a dragon

must be quite an experience


even just being a round

when a dragon wakes up

cuse the time has come

feet

feet are much more

than things we walk on


feet are worthy of respect

and a great gift

to all us humans


perhaps a greater gift

than the brain

and usually far less dangerious

pride

pride is a very popular word

cultivated in us from early age

personal pride

family pride

national pride

and on and on and or


pride and shame

are two sides

of the same nickel

to cultivate one

is to cultivate the other

friend

those that have yet to call

every one friend

have yet to be friend


that situation was difficult

for me

for a time


and time is just

the space with in us


i just added us

to that last line


i got tired

from being alone

the first thing i did

was dig up a dinasore egg


and then it tried to eat me

exclusive

exclusive is less

than a natural world

i ment word


as is except


accept is to include

except is to leave out


it don't seem to me

life has a leave out part

want

some people

(i some times call us peep hole)


some people want

some people accept


and there those that

that only do except


as i under stand

they seem to get to

try again

pisces

for a while i wondered

what pisces meant


have mostly liked pisces

but she stayed away from me


to face pisces

is to surrender

which aint all that popular

in our time


popular is a clue

rejection

perhaps the greatest

curse of all

don't know for sure

but in our time

it sure is popular


as is sure


not sure what sure means

have felt unsure mostly

and i am into my 69th trip

around this sun

in this particular body


this is a particular plane of existence

masterbation

to artificially stimulate ones self

or to artificially stimulate an other


artificial is the clue


mostly in our time

we eat sleep work and play

in an artificial environment

and we have become

mostly artificial life


we humans mostly thought

domesticating dogs and cattle and sheep

was ok

until domesticating took over our lives

and we lost our natural security

which we were born to be

freedom

freedom is only found within self


money and stuff and security and power

ain't got nothin to do

with freedom


money and stuff can be fun

if you don't take it too seriously

the mystery of the girl

the greatest story of this life

if your me

and i am

clinging

we can never be

with that which

we cling to


life is a gift

far beyond possesion


forever free


we humans are missing out

sitting on an empty lot

in this time of great control

multiplication and division

division means to divide

as does multiplication

just in opposite directions


both are illusions

and lead to complication

of the great simplicity


divide and conquer

is an old warrior trick

one man

one man is short
and another one tall
to see them as two
has been our downfall

one spirit is all
my heart has been told
the voice was not soft
it was spoken quite bold

all men are brothers
i know that it's true
tho this is suspected
by only  a few

all are yourself
the same essence inside
but to hear it i know
just might hurt your pride

pride's just a shield
and it locks us away
in chains of restraint
that won't let us play

life must be free
to unfold as it would
all our thinking and planning
has led to no good

the spirit of life
is its own plan you see
it can't be improved
and it sets us all free

for love is the gift
that life shares with us all
there's no time like the present
to answer its call

snows coming down

the snows coming down
and it's colder than hell
but i cannot sleep
i don't feel so well

my soul is so restless
it has always been so
this torment is with me
where ever i go

this life seems so small
not such a good fit
i try not to bitch
at how little i get

life still reminds me
each day that i live
we're not here to get
one must learn how to give

your must share what you are
in a truthful way
be open to love
let it fill your day

but sometimes i forget
still wish for what's not
that's of the past
and what's not ain't a lot

empty is how all that
just makes me feel
and empty is what
makes us all want to steal

the spirit of life is
gift found inside
love is it's blessing
when the truth we don't hide

modern women

most modern day women

seek a man (or companion)

who will not intrude on their

personal life


not sure why i am here


even the males are starting to go

for such foolishness

water

we humans have taken

far too much water from the land

which is our sustenance

and deprived much of the land

what it most needs to exist


we create stupid ugly little cities

which we are so proud of

and in the process

are close to destroying the place

of our birth


maybe this is the time for such things

buy most of this crap seems pretty dangerious

to me


maybe i am just old fashioned

and it's time to move on


we so much like to move the outside

when the only true movement

is on the in side

money

if money is your lord

you serve a harsh mistress

at play in the fields of the lord

a movie i saw a while back

i liked the title better than the movie

the movie was pretty well done

and not very pretty

rejection

to be in this place

one must survive rejection  


and survive the big it

which is usually

someones silly

or rather tragic

idea


life was complete when we were born

but we have now been lied to

and our out come still unclear

what we are doing

at some point

in time

we have to face

what we are doing


other wise

the next gate

becomes an obstacle


truth is the point

avoidance the obsticale

multiply

have often wondered

about that system of thought

when multiply is

based on division


which means to divide

freedom

the native population was free

when the europeans arrived


after a bit of a struggle

the europeans invaders

put a stop to that crap


we all learn about life

in our own way


and we don't own nothin


life is forever free


we human types ain't all that bright

it seems to me


containment is no way to live


just ask a can of vegetables


or the wife of a religious man

or the child of his wife

work

some people work for profit

for personal gain


some people work

for what needs to be done


and the trick is

to be able to tell the difference


life is about all

and we modern humans

are remarkably narrow minded

has been my experience


seeing and believing

are not necessarily the same

and we are often confused

which i am familiar with

what we do

what we do

ain't what really matters


what matters is

what we don't do


thinking is a blind mans fancy


awareness is not a product of thought


being is a lot more fun than doing

control

an awful word

and attempeted murder of life


to kill our self

is one thing


to teach others

to kill their self

is quite another

bull shitting people

bull shitting others

can be a perilous life


bull shitting your self

is no life at all

rejection

rejection is a harsh mistress


and leaves little chance

to meet the blender

or the blended



i seem to like the word chance

and don't really know why

needs

fire has needs

water has needs

as does earth and air

life is about blending

one thing i have learned

don't fuck with

what you don't understand

unless you understand


which requires submitting

to that position

the modern boss

mostly wants to replace

the worker people

with machines


which are much more manageable


don't think they noticed the terminator movies

or the frankenstien movies

or the dracula movies


they were all clues

at play in the fields of the lord

an old movie i saw

way back when


i liked it

although it was pretty sad


we humans can be pretty cruel

when we try hard

and think we are right


whatever right means

pretty sure i don't know


mostly i just try to keep up

know thy self

read that somewhere

not very popular in our time

in the land of the great imposter

us humans

there was a time

when politics and religions

were our biggest problem


now capitalism has joined the fray

and compounded the fracture

movement

don't much care for that word


usually we just move around


sometimes we bump into each other



there are those that fish for us

and sometimes plot our ways

bit the apple

if you bite the apple

life will bite you back


life is big on hugs

if anyone shows up

learning

never cared much for learning

didn't know why when i was younger

it still made me nervous  


later on i realized

my best friend

had never learned anything

and neither have i

portable buildings

was actually raised in

a portable building


it actually had wheels

and my daddy pulled it around

with his pickup

meticulous

meticulous is a virgo talent or affliction

sometimes popular with cancer types

it's a curse or a blessing

depending on whether you use it or not


that "IT" out there

is only valid

when we realize

it is just another reflection of me


my little old self


actually only the body gets old

the self is ageless


i am a child

of many wars

meticulous thinkers

what so many of us

have allowed our self to be turned into


awareness and perception

are not products of thought


products is a clue

which is what we have become


the only thing worse than being

a product of someone else's imagination

is to be a product of our personal imagination

life as we know it

life is kind of like a good cook

it's all about blending and temperature

words

my father was a man of few words

i was the boy of many words


he was a man of peace

with those that came in peace

and a real bad ass for some who didn't


it took me a while to learn how to listen

fear

the man that has faced his fear

can't be manipulated by them

good and bad

two sides of the same nickle

to cultivate one is to cultivate the other

and there ain't no other


all is the path to peace and happiness

pisces

a return to innocence

which most of turned away from

long ago


once i was of the warriors

a long time ago


killing bad guys

just leads to more bad  guys


killing good guys

just leads to more good guys


killing our ideas

of what life should be

or what life should not be

has very little influence on life


but sure determines

what we shall face next

as we face the truth

of our ideas


which are only figments of our imagination

and only mislead us


life is beyond all control

right and wrong

all those silly words we respond to

but what if what you thought

(or had been trained  to think)

was right

was wrong


and what you thought to think

was wrong

was actually right


am not trying to confuse anyone

just pointing out

that we may not know

what we are doing


so many claim we are right

so many claim we are wrong


i claim we are who we are

and no one actually gets a vote


i never got to decided what to be

i am stuck with who i am

and don't mind so much anymore

pisces

pisces is a sacred word

if you happens to be me

situation

a word i have never much cared for


situation was such a transitory experience

i missed it most of the time


and often became confused

getting drunk with a friend

have only done that with a few friends

mostly i have gotten drunk with strangers


as i said we were drinking

and mumbling about serious things

or at least i was


and then i made a statement

which i didn't know at the time


what i said was

as near as i can recall


was that what we did

was what mattered


my friend then mumbled something

and his head bobbed around a bit


and then he said

its not what you do

its what you don't do


and he was right

if your from the pisces time


or headed in the direction


is usually consider pisces

where we come from


i still drink some


perhaps where we are going

is where we come from


the escapists of our time

ain't much going to care for that situation

the game of life

in our time

the game of life

has become the resistible force

and the irresistible object

when i was young

the situation was spoken of

as the irresistible force

and the immovable object

which makes much more sense to me

but i am not a business man

validation

sometimes i have tried to validate myself

which is some sort of justification

sounds like a bull  shit option

to me anymore

fear

fear appears to be

the final human gate

being brave and strong and hopeful

is a poor substitute for being