independence day

most people i have seen

don't seek independence


most people i have seen

seek what they want


which is the master they serve


so few seek the great weaning

winning

only those that are trying to win

can lose

training

when we train children

from a very early age

we deprive them

of the opportunity

to discover their self


the word training

is from the word train

which is a long line for things

a chain of objects

pulled in one direction

by an outside force

finally

i have nothing to say


that may not be true


sometimes i wonder

about the mistakes

i have made


some of them

were for showing up


for which

i have no apology


sometimes we have to try

to get a girls attention

as is our nature

being

if you can't be who you are

be where you are

that's a start


which happens to be

the opposite of a stop

veteran

am a veteran

of the united states army


never shot anybody

or got shot at


did wear the uniform

for a while


i didn't ask for it

looking

i looked at my eyes tonight

in the mirror


they looked like

two empty

holes in the sand


but my hair didn't look too bad

love and life

love and life

are one


neither can exist

without the other


some people call

this thing we live in

life


mostly i call it

shameful behaviour


on my better days


i know that sounds judgmental

which i have no wish to be


but that is what i see

and have no wish to lie

our self

we modern humans

mostly in our time

seek happiness outside our self

and we become even more lost


the truth of our self

is all we can actually be


but we have lost our way

and mostly we lie

to get along

whatever that means


we seem to know so little of our self

and mostly seem to avoid our truth


and a great sadness is upon the land

life does not have to be that way


our attempts to create our self

and a better new world

have failed miserably

and we just try harder


life is a gift we have forgotten how to accept


but we sure do like to think

which is mostly a form

of mental masterbation


good grief

am so heavy tonight


sometimes being here makes me sad


i see lying to children as a great crime

and lying to our self an even greater one


we are rejecting life

and life has no joy for us


our creative thinking is to blame


awareness is not a product of thought

grownups

for a while i wondered

what being a grownup meant


mostly it seems to mean

acting like you know something

chile and argentina

both have been ruled by dictators


perhaps it is time for a new day


dictation is actually pretty boring


unless your a thinker

with great imagination

and masterbateing your self

with no hands

love

i know a guy

that loved a girl

and gave her everything

he was


and he came up empty

because she was

and had no love to give


he didn't care


and i think he still misses her

as i probably would


or so i like to think

hearing

hereing is the clue


listening is what we do

from our private place

as we seek information

which might be

to our advantage


advantage is not actually

a real word

although very popular

in our time


our so called advantages

are only grand delusions

as so many have learned

and have yet to learn

as they seek the advantage

self

those that do not like their self

will be unable to like your self


those that are unable to face their self

will be unable to face your self


and on we go

through heaven or hell

am sometimes not quite sure


don't even know what quite sure means

but here we are

remember

remembering too much

is no way to keep

your mind clear


remembering

sounds like trying

to put something past

or gone

back together again


together

to get her


seems a funny word to me

and probably a dumb idea


remembering yesterday

is a waste of today


unless you weren't actually there yesterday

in which case it could possibly be enlightening

lost in thought

a common malady

in our time


wandering the land

of endless ideas


mostly chasing rainbows

in our endless dreams


mostly unaware

of who we are


and too afraid

to face our self


we hide behind others

when we can


and we lie so eagerly

when we can't


and truth becomes the enemy

as we perpetuate our little scams


we try to be

what others want us to be

to get what we want


often we try to be

what we want to be

to get what we want


want is the clue

and the lack is from

not being our self


which has become the unknown

which we fear


there is no escape from life

but we sure do try

courage

a blind mans bluff


and sometimes

in our time

a girls


the girls try harder

and suffer the greatest


and some of the boys are jealous

we certainly don't envy them

life for me

life for me

is surviving

my own embarrassment


and all this other stuff


and i'm still here

wondering what to be


have always been

a little slow


being on this planet

is still a little difficult

for me

the oklahoma city trains

the sound of the trains

blowing their horns

as they pull our of oklahoma city

is a part of oklahome city

if your me


have lived here quite a while now


worked in the railroad yards

for a while a long time ago


or so it seems now


i still like the sounds

as does the girl

who happens to be my wife

at the time


those people in brick town

don't remember brick town


or they wouldn't be so ashamed

love

have no idea

what love is


i do know

love is all encompassing


still struggle with that part

can truth be found

and the truth by man be found

the truth that is  -  yet makes no sound

here inside the breast i'm told

in this heart that has grown cold

does the truth of spirit live

with its gift of love to give

if we would only take the time

to open up and let it shine

as the sun so fills the sky

with its gift that none can buy

gives its self in such great splendor

in no way a selfish lender

so could man live in this way

sharing light with each new day

but we must give ourselves to love

let life enfold us like a glove

then we would in time all see

what great joy that life can be

when we just let love take hold

of the heart thats grown so cold

i get pretty hokey sometimes

and often embarrass my self

cursin' and nursin'

cursin' and nursin'
she went on her way
the child at her breast
as yet had no say

but in its own time
as life went along
it found in its self
its very own song

no hugging or kissing
for this little buy
he'd reach for the stars
tho he doesn't know why

the girls in his life
were so cold and aloof
why fool with them
they're their very own proof

they all want a guy
who will serve them quite well
and they make their best deal
as their goodies they sell

but he was alone
he had nothing to trade
and for awhile
he was somewhat afraid

could life be worth living
with no woman to love
or was this a gift
sent from heaven above

for these past years
he has wandered alone
tho once in a while
he would pick up a phone

and remember her number
it just won't go away
but he can't dial it
he knows what she'll say

her mind is made up
it's as simple as that
so his dream is for nothing
oh she's such a brat

no  -  that's not true
for he loves her still
and knows in his heart
that he always will


how could he not


she's so beautiful

feminests

am no fan of feminism

they seem to think

a boys club for girls

is the answer to our problem


i don't agree


i see clubs as the problem

and private clubs

the worst problem of all


life is much more

than a private experience

which is very small

and limited

modern religions

modern religions

are male dominated

in our time

and i consider them to be

the weak link

in the chain of life


this planet is obviously female


i consider domination

to be a curse

and a great egtistical

crime against life

as a whole

a book

maybe some day i will write a book

and i will maybe call the book

wandering around in heaven

creation

if you want to play at creation

the one rule is

never create anything

you are not willing to be

because you will

nine beers

probably my indian name

icebergs

icebergs look pretty formidable

at first glance


but they all turn out to be

just big puddles of water

in their own time

plans

how we humans

learned to fuck our self around

more efficiently


and our creations

ain't near as cute

as what we like to call

the real thing

which is ever beyond

our grasp


which is our salvation


humans are not born to control

humans are born to be humans


and our ideas

only mislead us

thinking

we always

at least mostly

do our thinking in private


thinking is our private world

and we seem to have become lost

in our secret place

which is very lonely


life is out here

all the time


i don't speak of what i know

i speak of what i see


no apology was intended


much of what i see

i don't speak of


some times i cry


if all this means anything

life has not yet shared meaning with me


but for some reason

i still have great affection for life


and i feel very lucky


still not sure why


probably my little ego again

knowing

knowing is retrospective

and always a little behind

the thinker

saw a picture of a statue

called the thinker


it looked pretty dumb

to me


and the posture was silly

even ridiculous


someone posing naked like that

trying to be wise


awareness is not a product of thought

but insanity is


posing it's self

is an artificial placement


thinking you know

is by far

the most dangerious

game of all

help

so many in our time

think they want to help

yet they mostly

make life harder


we attempt to create

what we see to be good

yet all human creations

are artificial


creation is not our job

we are part of creation

imitation of life

seems like that title

was an old movie

maybe a book


we humans have become

so infatuated with life

and imitating life

by trying to figure our life

and copying life

from our limited understanding


we are missing out

on our greatest potential


which is to be life

clocks

life doesn't need clocks

life is the time keeper

where we were

if we can't be

with where we were


we will never be

with where we are


where we are

is where we were

popular ideas

am not a fan of popular ideas


although i live in a place

that seems to live for

popular ideas


ideas just divide us

being makes us whole


life is far more

than our ideas


thinking about life

is just another way

to ignore life

foot prints in the sand

all we will ever be

in spite of all our foolish efforts


what we are

is the gift


how we respond

to the gift

is our gift


allowing the gift

to be the gift

is the greatest

gift of all

planet earth

a place where

the best and worst

of life

come to get her

and some times meet

x plane

not sure what x plane means

but have spent a lot of time there


most english speakers

spell the word explain


sounds like a guilt derivative

an attempt to buy someone off

with words

the price

there is a price

for every thing we sell


and often what we trade

being

being is a gift

and being is free

knowing

as soon as you think you know life

you start to get behind life

as in left behind life


as soon as you think

you start to get behind life


them birds don't seem to be thinking

but they sure are keeping up with life


and the squirrels and the bees

and all the rest of that stuff


only we humans claim

to want to make life better

and look what we have done

winning

a lot of situations in life

would be a lot more fun

if we wern't trying to win at life


we are way out of our league

at that game

the way

we each must find

our own way

which ain't permitted much

in our time

you capitalist people

you want to put everyone

out of work

and put the thing in charge


that don't seem

a very smart move

to me


when profits become

more important than people

and the creatures of the field

and the field

we all go in harms way

hiding

i met a girl once

that was trying

to hide from me


the problem was

i wasn't hiding


which was also

the attraction

suffering

we all must face

our own suffering


which is the only way

to be free

of suffering


certainly don't expect

to be

very popular

truth full

life must all ways

be faced


sooner

or later


life don't seem

to care


we humans

came up

with caring

life

saying yes to

some parts of life


and no to

some parts of life


leads to incompletion


and great chaos

is up on the land

and in the soul

of man

we people

we seem so determined

to change life


and then we get stuck

with what life actually is


with such an attitude

lifes a bitch


cause rejection of life

ain't no way to live

write a book

maybe some day

i will write a book


i will call the book

the dragon

who loved me


and then

i will run for cover

ambition

probably

 the most dangerous word

of all


that we humans

as a part of all

have come up with yet


we seem to see so clearly

but


look a what we are seeing

what we are doing

perhaps we have become

so caught up in

what we are doing


that we have lost sight of

who we are

television

a pretty silly word


saw a show recently

about the birth of television


we humans have become

just like television


just putting on a show

silly games

we modern humans

sure like our silly games

we go to what we call sporting

to watch other people play silly games


we like to watch silly stuff on television

and now on our cell phones

and we tweet and all that other silly stuff


we play silly games with our friends and family

and we play silly games with our self


so few can be a friend

or even a lover


and even less can share there self

central being

what all our lies

has cost us

what we do

what we do to others

is a reflection

of what we are doing

to our self


how we feel about others

is a reflection

of how we feel

about our self


how we think about others

is a reflection

of how we think

about our self


the lies we tell to others

are a reflection

of what we tell our self


after all this time

we humans still learning

how to better abuse

our self

and others

thinking

what we think

we are doing

is rarely what

we are actually doing


thinking often interferes

with being


which is a passive state

and usually looked down up on

in our time

opionions

individuals

with an opinion of others

must have an opinion

of their self


opinion is a stupid little word

and very judgmental  


and so many of us

feel so qualified

to judge others

and tell them what to be

and often why

which is the judgemental part

creations

in our time

mans creations

are the most popular

game in town


and lifes creations

seriously neglected

and abused


we play a very

dangerious game

in our time

pride

a very dangerious

game to play


and the source of

so much suffering

for so many


and so popular

in our time

life management

the human creature

is the only creature

is the only creature

on this planet

capable of conjuring up

such and insane idea


to control life

is a great crime

against life


true life

only exists

when life is free to be


most call us human being

but mostly that aint true


we are taught

from a very early age

what and how to be


and now  there is

great chaos and conflict

in our little world


because so few

have been permitted

to find their own way

from with in

the true self

cursin' and nursin

cursin' and nursin'
she went on her way
the child at her breast
as yet had no say

but in its own time
as life went along
it found itself
its very own song

no hugging or kissing
for this little guy
he'll reach for the stars
tho he doesn't know why

the girls in his life
were so cold and aloof
why fool with them
they're their very own proof

they all want a guy
who will serve them quite well
and they make their best deal
as their goodies they sell

but he was alone
he had nothing to trade
and for awhile
he was somewhat afraid

could life be worth living
with no woman to love
or was this a gift
sent from heaven above

for these past years
he has wandered along
tho once in a while
he would pick up a phone

and remember her number
it just won't go away
but he can't dial it
he knows what she'll say

her mind is made up
it's as simple as that
so his dream is for nothing
oh she's such a brat

no  -  that's not true
for he loves her still
and knows in his heart
that he always will

how could he not

she's so beautiful

what now lord

what now lord
i said to myself
i know you're there
as i sit on this shelf

i know not the way
don't yet hear your voice
here i sit all along
without making a choice

spirit must move me
i'll not run in distress
i must stay open
try not to repress

truth's of the heart
tho i think it sleeps
so i must be patient
as my heart leaps

the mission of life
is a code in us all
the only safe way
is be true to its call

the camera

probably changed the course

of human history

more than any other device

there have been many devices


but to record

a moment in time

if only in its physical manifestation

was quite a deal in those days


mostly today

we live behind time

hopes and dreams

the flag flown by so many


and the fantasy land express

rides again

cheating

one cannot cheat another

without first cheating ones self


trying to win

is the quickest way to lose

how we treat dogs

how we treat dogs

and our other fellow creatures

don't seem very nice to me


we restrict their freedom

after taking them from their mother

from a very early age

and make them be

what ever we want to be


that don't seem very nice to me


how we treat our self

and each other

don't seem all that much better to me


maybe we are just too young to see

social security

which so many seek

in our time

only exists

when we all

support us all

as we can


if anyone is lost

somebody lied


we all face our truth

in our own time

which we do not own


life is a gift

and forever free


we humans came up

with this stuff we call hurt


sometimes i think i know why

we seem to want pay back

and life is free


for me

profit suddenly became

a very small word


personl gain

is a small mans enterprise


or womans

if she chooses

to choose

my story

if i were ever

to write my story

i would probably call the story

a butterfly caught in the wind

the natural order

we all have a natural position

in the natural order

and no one gets a vote

or gets to choose who they are


we live in the time

of the unnatural order

an artificial order

where someone somewhere

is pulling the strings

a time of great manipulation


when i first noticed our situation

the situation made me mad

now mostly just sad


we have come to believe

that we have the right

and even obligation

to control and dominate life


pretty scary stuff to me

all this arrogance and belief

in our silly little ideas


life is sacred

and we have lost our way


being is a gift

life is a gift

and so many humans

seem to think they can do better


and all i can do

is be myself

and see how it all works out


playing roles with life

is a very dangerious game

and usually not very rewarding

virgo

virgo is the scribe

that which can be written down


pisces

that which can never be written down


or even spoken

dragons

waking up a dragon

must be quite an experience


even just being a round

when a dragon wakes up

cuse the time has come

feet

feet are much more

than things we walk on


feet are worthy of respect

and a great gift

to all us humans


perhaps a greater gift

than the brain

and usually far less dangerious

pride

pride is a very popular word

cultivated in us from early age

personal pride

family pride

national pride

and on and on and or


pride and shame

are two sides

of the same nickel

to cultivate one

is to cultivate the other

friend

those that have yet to call

every one friend

have yet to be friend


that situation was difficult

for me

for a time


and time is just

the space with in us


i just added us

to that last line


i got tired

from being alone

the first thing i did

was dig up a dinasore egg


and then it tried to eat me

exclusive

exclusive is less

than a natural world

i ment word


as is except


accept is to include

except is to leave out


it don't seem to me

life has a leave out part

want

some people

(i some times call us peep hole)


some people want

some people accept


and there those that

that only do except


as i under stand

they seem to get to

try again

pisces

for a while i wondered

what pisces meant


have mostly liked pisces

but she stayed away from me


to face pisces

is to surrender

which aint all that popular

in our time


popular is a clue

rejection

perhaps the greatest

curse of all

don't know for sure

but in our time

it sure is popular


as is sure


not sure what sure means

have felt unsure mostly

and i am into my 69th trip

around this sun

in this particular body


this is a particular plane of existence

masterbation

to artificially stimulate ones self

or to artificially stimulate an other


artificial is the clue


mostly in our time

we eat sleep work and play

in an artificial environment

and we have become

mostly artificial life


we humans mostly thought

domesticating dogs and cattle and sheep

was ok

until domesticating took over our lives

and we lost our natural security

which we were born to be

freedom

freedom is only found within self


money and stuff and security and power

ain't got nothin to do

with freedom


money and stuff can be fun

if you don't take it too seriously

the mystery of the girl

the greatest story of this life

if your me

and i am

clinging

we can never be

with that which

we cling to


life is a gift

far beyond possesion


forever free


we humans are missing out

sitting on an empty lot

in this time of great control

multiplication and division

division means to divide

as does multiplication

just in opposite directions


both are illusions

and lead to complication

of the great simplicity


divide and conquer

is an old warrior trick

one man

one man is short
and another one tall
to see them as two
has been our downfall

one spirit is all
my heart has been told
the voice was not soft
it was spoken quite bold

all men are brothers
i know that it's true
tho this is suspected
by only  a few

all are yourself
the same essence inside
but to hear it i know
just might hurt your pride

pride's just a shield
and it locks us away
in chains of restraint
that won't let us play

life must be free
to unfold as it would
all our thinking and planning
has led to no good

the spirit of life
is its own plan you see
it can't be improved
and it sets us all free

for love is the gift
that life shares with us all
there's no time like the present
to answer its call

snows coming down

the snows coming down
and it's colder than hell
but i cannot sleep
i don't feel so well

my soul is so restless
it has always been so
this torment is with me
where ever i go

this life seems so small
not such a good fit
i try not to bitch
at how little i get

life still reminds me
each day that i live
we're not here to get
one must learn how to give

your must share what you are
in a truthful way
be open to love
let it fill your day

but sometimes i forget
still wish for what's not
that's of the past
and what's not ain't a lot

empty is how all that
just makes me feel
and empty is what
makes us all want to steal

the spirit of life is
gift found inside
love is it's blessing
when the truth we don't hide

modern women

most modern day women

seek a man (or companion)

who will not intrude on their

personal life


not sure why i am here


even the males are starting to go

for such foolishness

water

we humans have taken

far too much water from the land

which is our sustenance

and deprived much of the land

what it most needs to exist


we create stupid ugly little cities

which we are so proud of

and in the process

are close to destroying the place

of our birth


maybe this is the time for such things

buy most of this crap seems pretty dangerious

to me


maybe i am just old fashioned

and it's time to move on


we so much like to move the outside

when the only true movement

is on the in side

money

if money is your lord

you serve a harsh mistress

at play in the fields of the lord

a movie i saw a while back

i liked the title better than the movie

the movie was pretty well done

and not very pretty

rejection

to be in this place

one must survive rejection  


and survive the big it

which is usually

someones silly

or rather tragic

idea


life was complete when we were born

but we have now been lied to

and our out come still unclear

what we are doing

at some point

in time

we have to face

what we are doing


other wise

the next gate

becomes an obstacle


truth is the point

avoidance the obsticale

multiply

have often wondered

about that system of thought

when multiply is

based on division


which means to divide

freedom

the native population was free

when the europeans arrived


after a bit of a struggle

the europeans invaders

put a stop to that crap


we all learn about life

in our own way


and we don't own nothin


life is forever free


we human types ain't all that bright

it seems to me


containment is no way to live


just ask a can of vegetables


or the wife of a religious man

or the child of his wife

work

some people work for profit

for personal gain


some people work

for what needs to be done


and the trick is

to be able to tell the difference


life is about all

and we modern humans

are remarkably narrow minded

has been my experience


seeing and believing

are not necessarily the same

and we are often confused

which i am familiar with

what we do

what we do

ain't what really matters


what matters is

what we don't do


thinking is a blind mans fancy


awareness is not a product of thought


being is a lot more fun than doing

control

an awful word

and attempeted murder of life


to kill our self

is one thing


to teach others

to kill their self

is quite another