had a lot to say tonight

and decided not to say anything

at least not much

and it felt pretty good

courage

a thing of the past

don't really have much use for that crap anymore


am far too afraid for that

comments

most of the comments in this life

come from me


most of the others ignore me

and hope i will just go away

but not all


all is the friend

and our only friend

the lies

the lies almost won

because if i become a response to the lie

i must become a lie


a pisces friend of mine

showed me something that reminded me of that stuff

punishment

am no fan of that crap

can find no redeeming value in that stuff

hurting people for being ignorant

seems kind of cruel to me


i have my ignorant merit badge

and more than a few others

killing people

there are those that believe that

if someone kills someone they like

they should be killed

and then they become killers


there are those who believe that

if someone does something bad

something bad should be done to them

and they become doers of bad things

or perhaps just promoters of bad things


jesus spoke of these situations

but here in the bible belt

forgiveness is in short supply

and punishment all the rage


the courts are jammed

and the prisons full and overflowing


vengeance is a harsh mistress to serve

and we all become what we do

when we could have become what we are


but that's pretty scary stuff

to the average control freak

responsabilities

there are responsibilities we have to ourselves

and responsibilities we have to others

and our responsibilities to life


but what if we are not responsible


that situation is also possible

but only if we surrender our will

and that ain't very popular in our time

innocence is becoming very rare in the human population


much more common in the creatures of the field

who can't change anything

they just deal with it as they can

and we humans have been making that a lot harder for them

for a very long time

once you face hell

once you face hell

then you get to face heaven

life is a duality

and perfectly complete


once you face heaven

then you get to face hell

life is a duality

and perfectly complete

lightning bugs in the back yard

has been a long time since i saw so many

the children of nature

still see them in the back yard sometimes


humans somewhere back when

were children of nature

not so much anymore

humans for  a long time now

have sought only to conquer nature

which is conflict with the life support system of this planet

which is our mother

electricity

and artificial human thing

to pass in its own time

as all things do


ipods and all those do dads

are just stuff


you are not a thing

but part of you is

for a while

an old man

once i was who i felt like being

and now i am who i am

self

the scariest situation

one ever has to face

mourning

don't get into that

mostly a little game people play with each other

and their self

passing is a natural part of life

who would want to be human forever

openness

the greatest strength of all

open to self

and open to all life

how do you respond to those that are rejecting life

when life is all you see

sometimes a girl

just needs to be quiet for a while


24 hour hell ain't all that much fun

insurance

perhaps the greatest scam of all

second only to capitalism

and most religions

most everyone is trying to sell something

and life is not for sale

eager to please

the outcome of which

always depends on who or what you are looking at

and how they are looking at you

if they actually are looking at you

and not just caught up in your mystic

religions

they require sacrifices

and i find killing the fatted calf pretty silly

unless your hungry


calling it a gift to god

seems pretty silly to me

and that is when i am being nice

probably because my wife is in the room

and she is a natural born nice person

here is the land of the greatest lie of all