want

it you want anything from life

you probably aren't really alive

judgement

everyone passes judgement on their self

by how they respond to life

the top of my list

all the girls i've known

are at the top of my list

blinds

what if safari can't find the blinds

who am i

a pipeliners kid

life with out expectation

expectation is just our cowardly little attempts

to control life

with out

with out darkness

there is no light

everybody pays to play

Terri Sadler

i remember you

what i see

mostly a lot of male female stuff

not much of a man and woman situation

in the present time

with golden hair

with golden hair and eyes of green
such beauty i had never seen
yet from my gaze you quickly ran
i cannot look upon you man

for then i could not play this role
if i don't run you'll touch my soul
and wake me up from this deep sleep
i'll blush at first and then i'll weep

for it's hard to face the truth
that was abandoned in my youth
i fought well but they were many
of friendly faces  -  no not any

now it's safe  -  i do not feel
this final refuge you would steal
and bring me back again to life
take me for your loving wife

but that would bring the longing back
the freedom that my heart did lack
when i was young and tried to fight
the darkness here with my small light

but love died
and now i fear it greatly
to live again  -
i have thought of it lately

god it scares me
love is defenseless
war is so senseless
the violence is so hard to bear

i stood once alone
and for a while shone
they beat that out of me
cant't you see

i'm one of them now
please go away

please don't love me

don't make me remember
that final december
when i broke  -
and the pain went away

now i do what they say
no more price must i pay

i fought them
but finally lost

yes  -  my heart is now dark
you awakened some spark

but  -

damn you

you bastard

you reminded me of
who i once was

but she died

let her be

it hurts to feel


what a place to be

your there  -  how can i not see

that's just not my way

i hear what you say
but death is not what i embrace

you're still so alive
tho you valiantly strive
to repress all that
you meant to be

now you hate what i am
say you can't  -  but you can
i'll not die to make lies
be more easy

it was wrong from the start
you belong to your heart


damn

time and time again

time and time again
we face the dawn and know not when
the end of all this grief and pain
will come and wash the bloody stain

from this world that suffers greatly
and even more from events lately
killing never leads to peace
oh  -  will the violence never cease

peace will only come through kindness
vengeance only leads to blindness
the rage and pain we choose to feel
will never let the old wounds heal

until we learn to respect all others
until we see that all are brothers

everyone claims to be right
everyone claims to know what's right
so few question themselves
so much is wrong

mothers weep

mothers weep
we live like sheep
the hard is all we know

live for pride
the child do hide
and act is all we show

to live the truth
would save our youth
but that is long forgotten

the sands of time
are oh so fine
inside we're slowly rottin'

the gift of life is one for all
the wise man knows it so

yet in our greed and desperate need
it isn't love we show

our wants become our only guide
get it all  -  oh how we tried

yet in the end we all have sinned
from truth we learned to hide

our design code

how i describe our essential nature

that which we are born to be


i was very fortunate as a child

when i was still pretty young

i asked my father

how do you deal with this


his response to me was

i don't know what to tell you boy

your going to have to

work that out for your self


i had a very fortunate childhood


although it wasn't all fun

i wasn't lied to

shadow

never stand

in your own shadow

no more time

no more time to stand around
all those dreams still not quite found
now the truth is clear to me
i've lost enough and now i'm free

the game of life i'll never win
they lied to me  -  but that's their sin
mine was falling for their story
fantastic tales of wealth and glory

many think they know the way
but don't believe in what they say
creation makes us what we are
and each must follow his own star

no matter what the world thinks true
you find the truth inside of you
to lose your self too much in thought
will lead to being what your not

in silent moments here inside
i found the spark that almost died
and regained what i had lost
that precious gift beyond all cost

our essence is what's rightly made
it's truth is through the heart relayed
but we must heed the spirits call
that lives within the heart of all

do not push

do not push on another
he in truth is your brother
there's only one life
that we share

tho we feel so apart
cause we live without heart
and of kindness
we don't seem to care

all this we could change
and the mess rearrange
but the grudges and greed
have to go

the past has been bad
yet more vengeance is sad
and the pain
will continue to grow

the chain  must be broken
our love can't be token
we have to find
some other way

to deal with this life
and end all the strife
or the debt
will become to great to pay

it only will start
if we each do our part
and let go
of the blame and the hate

we must find here inside
some way not to hide
from the truth
before it's too late

for the pain  -  it is growing
the signs are all showing
a breakdown
is not far away

but all talk is cheap
it's the trust we must keep
with our heart
we must face the new day

exploring the great secret

of me and you

schedule

if life gets too scheduled

it ain't no fun to be alife

always

there will always be

those who go forward

and those that get

left behind