money

if we can't do without money

we will never be free

sexuality

we humans

don't seem to be

very comfortable

with our sexuality


that seems to be

where i am

all the heaven we got

is right here where we are

as mark said

the unknown

that which is new

one thing i have learned

just because you cannot be with me

does not mean i cannot be with you

thinking

awareness is not a product of thought

love

life is not about being a verbal affermation of the word love

life is about being love


and if your thinking about that

you don't get what was just spoken of

me

just an annoying little brother

courage

if you need courage to live your life

you aren't really living

the natural world

we modern humans are more and more

a long way from the natural world

which seems pretty wierd to me

and more than a little dangerous

life

life ain't about fuckin

life is about a loving touch

love

when an others situation

is more important to you

than your own situation

safe places

if you only go to safe places

you will never be free

a human being

a human being

is not the same

as a human thinking

serving

serving life

is not the same

as serving an idea

truth

if you can face truth

your are free


i have seen it so


accepting life

is the only way

to be with life


the only way

to be with life

is to be life

not sure what to say

probably should not say anything


but here we are



excuse me

our sense of adventure

that which first comes in conflict

with our sense of security


i guess wanting to return to the womb

and hide

dying

dying is as natural as being born

we get to be who we get to be for a while

then we move on


all that stuff about heaven or eternal hell

is just bull-shit


we all have to face our self

but life ain't cruel


only fucked up humans are cruel

and some cats

reveal your self

every mans dream


if your me

this house

when i was born

this house was pretty old

why

not sure what that word means

human

sure a lot of us humans on planet earth today


we have human primates


we have human beings


the human primates serve their self


the human beings serve life


life is all that is


all that we like

all that we don't like

face

if you can't face what your doing

how will you ever face who you are

want

the more you want

the more you lose


want always has a cost

to nights notes

walking in the forest


the known

the unknown


facing the known

and the unknown

(which could be considered new)

together


to get her

always thought that was kind of cute


am going to take a break now

wonder

i still wonder

who i am


probably a pisces situation

safe

a steel box

very hard to open


not sure why anyone would want to live there


maybe if that is all you got


feel like going and laying down now

two

if i could not do two

there would be no you

if your me

self control

when the children are taught to control their self

as is so common in our time

the self is no longer free to be its self

the god word

i have no interest in those different ideas of a god

maybe that's short for good


my interest is in life

which is all that is

and is not

love

to seek love is a fools errand

if you lack love

be love

ideas

figments of our imagination


and of no value at all

wanting to be with me

is a form of rejection

cause i right here

being open to you

and you haven't noticed me yet


you still want something

but it ain't me


probably some idea you are stuck on

wanting

the only way to be with someone you like

is to quit wanting them


have mentioned that situation previously to a few


that has not been so popular


the trick is to be willing to like someone

without expectation of reward

want

the sorriest of all curse words


and the cultivation of wants

within our fellow humans

is a great crime against life

the sacred trust

the constant reorientation

of the old and the new

the sacred trust

protect and assist as one can

the women and children

if your happen to be me

me

was once accused of being a man

and a lot of other stuff

want

a curse word

was going to say something

but don't remember what it was

locked doors

locked doors don't keep you safe

they just slow um down

and make um make noise



there is no security here

educated people

educated people

gradually lose the ability

to communicate with uneducated people


religious people

mostly experience a similar situation with their self

as do rich people and on and on


maybe we could just be the people we actually are


but few seem to


be able to face their self

and speak to their self


all of their selves


not just the one they are wearing

our train of thought

the source of our tunnel vision

how we dumb our self down


do you see what we have done to our little world

and are still doing


we are all wrong


that is our starting point

true life

true life

is always free

want

the art of avoiding

that which actually is

had something to say

but what ever it was

ain't being with me now

want

what if you can't face life

if you don't get what you want


i don't much like stuff like that


i almost said don't care for stuff like that


obviously scared of that want stuff

pearl harbor

my mother heard about pearl harbor on the radio

my father heard about pearl harbor

from inside the battleship w. virginia

keeping track of time

our greatest mistake

sentiment

the attitude i am confronted with

when someone tells me yesterday mattered

i wonder

thats about as far as i got

that

did you ever wonder

what does that mean


i did

religious people

those that seem to think

they are qualified to tell me

what their god wants me to be


we all have to find our own way


religious people are crazy

so it seems to me


we all have to find our own way


krishnamurti was right

all the conflict in the world

is coming from the conflicts within us all


and those conflicts come from

having ideas of who we should be

imposed on our self

and we go forward in life

imposing ideas on our self

with no opportunity to find our own way

with our true self


i asked my father once how to deal with all this

and his response was

"i don't know what to tell you boy -

your going to have to work that our for yourself"


and i have as i can


this life has not been well planned like so many

mostly i just keep up with this life as i can

ideas

ideas are a product of thought

awareness is not a product of thought

my motto

if it ain't free

i don't want none

a reader

what i was born to be

and i did

a question for a girl

how did you find yourself loving me

freedom

that which is no longer permitted

for quite a while now

me

sometimes i have been very hard to ignore

if your me

why

let me count the ways

wanting someone

wanting someone

is not the same

as accepting someone


wanting someone is actually

rejecting someone

and wanting someone

to be who you want then to be


mostly just control freak crap

and a dangerious game to play

in harms way

an old john wayne movie i just watched

have seen it several times


sometimes i wonder if we humans

will ever get past this killing each other


a lot of the people i grew up around

fought in that war


my father was in the navy at pearl harbor

when it started


he was reported killed

but that turned out to not be so


i'm a war baby

sex

human sexuality when its actually shared

is a celebration

which i have experienced in this life


most modern people are afraid of life

and seek protection from life

which they call security


which is a figment of their imagination

found

if you ain't never been lost

how you ever gonna be found

the circle

everything in life

goes in a circle

around the self

which is life

entertainment

what people are interested in

when they don't have a life


to have a life means

accepting who you are

where you are

girl

if the girls are not speaking to each other

we will not survive

innocence

lacking premeditation

science

the greatest tragedy of our time

this world

this world

is not a world that is thriving

and neither are the guys


no world can survive without girls

good

don't worry about being good


be true

never

never is a children's word

as is always


there ain't no security here


accept life

how much do you love life

that is quite a quest ye on


for most in our time not all that much


it depends on how much you want life to be in your dreams

being

being 72 years of age

is not the same

as being 26 years of age

can we face each other

that remains to be seen

bees

bees are important

but so are flies

my new indian name

many tears

what if

what if there is so much movement

and nobody really moves

politics

there is no place for politics

in truthful living


truthful manifestation of a human being

have become very rare in my lifetime

and they weren't all that common

when i was a kid

cheaters

only humans are capable of cheating

which is being untruthful in their self expression

the creatures of the field

and the field it's self

have no ability to manifest such a crime against life


the human race

we are the problem


our selfishness and our greed

and our control freak tendencies

and our terrible insecurities

which result in our desperate search for security


and there ain't no security here

plan

when we choose our personal plan

instead of life's natural order

we are fucked

being

can you be right here where you are

without resistance

want

to want something from me

indicates

you aren't interested in who i am

tangible

that word is the clue

hey bea

you still out there


i called her rossie bea

want

what you want

is what you are rejecting

if that was not so

you would not be wanting

there would be no lack

life

there is always where we are

and who we think we are

and who we probably ought to be


but who the hell are we

a message to marjory

i met you as a boy

but i came back from war a killer

and could no longer face you

what i thought

what i thought was

a virgin dragon could not exist

but i was wrong


awareness is not a product of thought

what you know

in my experience

what i don't know

has always been greater

than what i do know

the dragon joke

and the dragon said

i have processed 9000 years of evolution

i can do anything


and the monkey comes along and says

how about this

this ain't never been done before

respect for life

if you ain't respecting all life

you don't respect life

eights

if there are no eights

there will be nines

shangri-la

this is all the heaven we got

right here where we are


i really love that song

thinking

most people think what they are thinking is the truth

but that is rarely accurate

awareness is not a product of thought

some times i wonder

why we do what we do

i still wonder

the passage of time

four leads to eight

and five leads to nine

the greatest lack of the young

the opportunity to find their own way

which besides being a crime against life

creates a very dangerious situation in our world

afraid

had a comment to make about that word

but it ain't being with me now