steps

in our little world

eight steps up

also means

eight steps down


life is about balance


not sure if that is the correct word

but it's all i got right now


life can be deceptive

if you think about it too much


there ain't no it


we humans made that up

to separate our selves from others


i tried that too


it wasn't all that much fun

splash

if you don't want

to make a splash


hit the dirt

close to the edge of the pond


but be advised

that might make a bigger splash

than landing in the middle


these are strange times

and few are sure

just what is going on here

pictures

captured moments


in our time

often staged

ambitions

seeking to gratify

our personal ambitions

is probably the most dangerous game

people play


for one thing

life ain't a game


and play is a childhood game


games can be ok sometimes

but not much of a life choice


life is not about winning or losing

life is about you play the game


my father figure told me that

a long time ago


he was a pretty sharp guy

and a good man

and i liked him


he also knew i was a person

in my on right

and not his to mold and shape


as i grew older i realized

how rare that was

in our world today

faith

i have faith in life


not so much in you

or me

or them

or whatever else is upon us

lucky

have been lucky many times


life has often been kind to me


which i often didn't realize at the time

courage

a fools errand

a product of someones propaganda

sometimes their own propaganda


willingness

that takes balls

and more than a little heart


that goes for girls too

they wear their balls inside

fair

fair only exists

when humans play

games with rules


real life goes

round and round

and up and down

all the time


and we petty little humans

don't make the rules

at best we just keep up

the family of man

the family of man

is in serious conflict

with its self


we have a serious problem

with our self


a cure does exist


our biggest problem

is our fear and arrogance

and the magnitude of our greed


which leads to focus

on what we want

instead of what we need

and what needs to be done

life

all life is sacred

a sacred place

where ever you are

how it once was

and Oron spoke to his son Jacob about how it once was

about how the land once supported mankind and the creatures
of the field

in the beginning the cycles of manifestation were the greatest
power

the cycles of dispensation regulated all life on this plane

the fruits of nature came and went

each learned to work and live within the system

or it died


there was no way to cheat

the forms of life came forth and grew and evolved  -  and their
natural course of existence

and died in their own time  -  as all things must

but the force or spirit of life once more cloaked its self in the
material of this plane

to come forth again and again it it's apparently endless
sequence of expressions of its self

each more refined and remarkable than the one before

this is how it once was

as the creative force wove the glorious fabric of life

a living cloak upon the once barren globe


at some point in time  -  i know not when

the idea arose in man that he could or should take charge of his life

to make things better for himself

that he need not accept the cycles of dispensation as life provided

and took away

perhaps he thought or desired not to die in his own time

or that his children or mate should not die

this is not known to me

all that is known is that mankind came to rebel against the order of life


perhaps this is the natural next step of man

i do not know

in any case  -  man made many changes in this world

apparently to improve his situation  -  that he might not have to
strive and struggle and die

that life might be made easier  -  and last longer

how and why is lost in the passage of time

all that is known is that man became greedy and selfish and
feared for himself

once man took only what he needed to live and there was
balance in this world

but man then came to take more than he needed

and deprived others of his kind and the creatures of the field
what they needed to live out their allotted span of time

the order of life was disrupted

soon the vast green cloak of the forests began to disappear

slowly at first  -  but with ever and ever increasing speed

for a time nature could heal the wounds to the body

but as man sought more and more not to die  -  with his vaccinations
and his cures  -  the population grew and grew and began to overwhelm
the natural life support system of this plane

more and more the great canopy of the forest disappeared

the creatures of the field  -  who also make up the fabric of life
on this plane  -  began to disappear

the atmosphere and climate began to change

the concoctions of man to improve his lot in life began to sterilize
and poison the earth

whole species were destroyed to make man safer and gorge his belly
beyond and reasonable need

the signs of decay and corruption were clear

but man refused or was unable to see the error of his ways

the great crime being perpetuated on the fragile beauty of the earth

and ultimately upon himself

man created new systems to support himself

and as each failed in time  - sought to create another and another

each failing more quickly than the last


it is not known if this journey man has taken is right or wrong

perhaps we have failed at our destiny

perhaps not

all that is known to me is that man suffers greatly amid his own creations

has brought this suffering upon himself by not accepting the gift of
life as they are offered

and accepting their loss when they are reclaimed by the order of things

the creatures of the field are born and die in their own time  -  without complaint

i have seen it so

in our own time  -  we each make our own contribution to life

money

money was designed

by a few humans

to finance the slave trade


as were most religions


and here we are

what to do

so many

want to be told what to do


so many

are willing to please them

in time to face their wrath


and a great tragedy

is upon the land


when i was much younger

i asked my father what to do


i was lewis jr.

he was the only man i respected

up to that time


his response to me was

i don't know what to tell you boy

you have to work that out with yourself


and i still do

as i can


as we all can

if we can respect ourself

life

praise from me to life

how can life be anyone

when life is everyone


life can do that

how about you

and all the rest of us

sex

human sexuality

is about more than our genitals


human sexuality

is about who we are

and sharing who we are


sharing is the clue


freedom is the greatest

gift of all

what we have in common

and the question to me is

how do i deal with

what we have in common

and what we don't


all at the same time

standard

a really stupid word

song

kind of a funny word

sounds kind of old

maybe asian

somewhere back east


my favorite song would be

a song we could sing together

as we are


with out all the other crap

that is so popular in our time


so many

seeking to control life

so few

willing to be life

cherished beliefs

our cherished beliefs

do not cancel or eliminate truth

except in our own eyes and experience


the truth of life

is beyond human control


we are not here to control life

we are here to serve life


and life is all that is

self

if you can't look

at your self


how will you ever

look at the rest of us

doing

if we were aware

of what we are actually doing

we probably wouldn't be doing

what we are doing


thinking about life

is a foolish and stupid exercise

and usually an attempt

to make life different than life is

which is a really stupid idea

and pretty darn arrogant


we humans just ain't qualified

for that situation

hope and wishes

just another attempt

to cheat life


right up there with

sacred beliefs


life is all


hope is a personal want


and a pretty small place

to be

religion

if we can't give up

our religious beliefs

we will never be able

to see life clearly


and all them other beliefs too


beliefs are just our sacred hopes

and hoping is less than living


being is quite another experience


not so popular in our time


but preforming is really in

truth

resisting truth

can be a very dangerous game


life is far more than a game

oppose

that which we oppose

we become


we can only pass judgement on our self


until we don't


and are free of that judgement crap


many have shed the blood of others

to serve their god


those others

were also the children of god


such service seems not natural to me


why would a sane loving god

wish to have his children killed


perhaps the children would not obey

and god is a slave master


not where i come from

what i know

most of what i know

is what i don't know


what i do know

don't seem to hang around

all that long

the man was lost

the man was lost and almost broken
when from within these words were spoken
rise up my son  -  for i am with you
you feel alone but that is not true

i'm the life that fills your heart
i've been with you from the start
you've let ideas fill your head
not listened to a word i've said

for i am all and know you well
you turned away  -  that's why you fell
i will guide you through this life
in this time of so much strife

my life is the life of all
i'm the source of great and small
but most today don't hear my voice
and each is free to make his choice

yet blessing life is all i do
my love is boundless  -  ever true
this gift is all i ever share
my blessings put an end to care

but love's a gift  -  i do not force
all are free to choose  -  of course
man receives what he does give
try loving all  -  like me  -  and live

urgent words

urgent words and stressful faces
this is seen now in most places
humans seem to worry more
most don't seem to know the score

ideas are the chosen goal
endless dreams torment the soul
it's fantasy my heart does say
no truth in all the games we play

life does have its own true course
which all must live or see remorse
and truth will in the heart be found
thru love we'll see the world rebound

ideas only block the view
the mind must open to the new
we must release all old belief
which is the source of all our grief

the plans of man have surely failed
upon the rocks we now have sailed
to truth of life we must return
the sacred trust we must re-learn

the spirit lives  -  it's what we are
and always with us  -  never far
but all must listen for its voice
and with the heart make love the choice

failure

just another way of winning


we all win in our own time

we all lose in our own time


we all are

as we are

in our own time


sometimes we share

what we are

in our own time


sometimes we don't

rules

i only have one rule


don't ever make a rule

you can't break


rules are restrictions

and limit freedom


which only applies to

children under three years


some times just a few months

sometimes even days or weeks


freedom

ia the greatest

gift of all

time

there is a time to laugh

and a time to cry

and a time to be quiet


and being quiet means

being with the stillness


when you are all three at once

life is

impatience

the only problem

i have ever had

was with my impatience


and my attitude a few times

problem

the only problem

i have ever had

was with my impatience

secret

a secret

can only be a secret

if you are keeping it

from your self

foot prints in the sand

all we will ever be


which is certainly

more than enough

rejection

how does one deal with rejection


sadly for so many

that has become

reject them first


which is the only way

to join them

answers

spent a lot of time

looking for answers


all i ever found

were clues

wondering

i have often wondered

about what we humans are doing


for a while i thought

this is a big mistake


but we are just exploring

our potentials and possibilities


the best and worst of them

as we can


the rest of our story

dependes on what we see


or what we think we see


and how we respond

to our new situation

can you spot the roadrunner

virgins

it was quite a shock to me

to realize this was the land of virgins


have always been a big fan of girls

and of most children


the saddest part of this story

for me

was to realize

the girls wanted to keep us that way


i was expected to accept

being left out


that ain't actually my nature

except with children

who aren't expected

to face life yet

secrecy and lies

the greatest curse of mankind


have been in this body

on this planet

for almost seventy trips

around this sun

looking at that moon out there

and feel qualified

to comment on that situation


not sure what that means


seems a little arrogant to me

stars

how the light gets in here

the sun and the moon were first


and then man discovered fire making

and the struggle began


light is the clue


secrecy and privacy

are a fools errand

as are lies and deception


all attempts to deceive our Self

will end in failure

as they always have

in their own time


our truth

is all

we actually are

hope

a more gracious form of want


not so demanding


yet still with those expectations


our premeditated desires

to control life


which is to reject life

as life is

wonder

if you wonder who you are

examine your prayers


if you wonder who you are

it probably ain't who you think you are


and certainly not who you hope you are

dream killer

probably one of my indian names


nine beers would be another


have been called many things in this life


have seen many things in this life


and been many places with my self

perhaps the dumbest word of all

to say to your self


and i don't mean what you want

or who you think you are

or who you wish you were

willingness

perhaps the greatest virtue of all

the human race

here among the human race
each could know his rightful place
if he would set all thought aside
and from the truth no longer hide

life does have its natural order
tho rarely seen within our border
with no respect for life as whole
greed and power the new goal

wipe out all that nature made
kill the life in field and glade
a new plan for life we cry
get on board or else you die

all the kindness of the heart
must be stifled if your smart
for a time it seemed so great
but things have changed it seems of late

chaos now does fill the land
truth can find no place to stand
most live in fear from day to day
the pills and booze push it away

order once again can be
but we must first set ourselves free
the spirit lives but is repressed
such is why we feel depressed

the heart must open to the light
this is how we know what's right
the soul of man must be set free
to live the truth as meant to be

the plan is not found in the head
or from all the books we've read
love and truth are of the now
and open heart will show us how

the voice of truth

the voice of truth
will  still be found
within the heart
that hears no sound

with silent mind
yes still all thought
have no belief
you'll just get caught

in all that maze
that men create
when to their thoughts
they do relate

the living essence
must be known
this is how the
truth is shown

it's not outside
all those are lost
life's in the now
and without cost

no one has
what others need
within yourself
you'll find the seed

of life eternal
endless love
it's in you heart
not up above

here i sit

here i sit  -  still out of work
am i  ok  -  or just a jerk
only time will make it clear
the guiding light or clouds of fear

all must walk their path they say
must take each step through each new day
the heart of truth is surely led
but strange ideas fill the head

no one knows for sure i guess
sometimes more and sometimes less
still the game must be played out
we'll not turn back  -  the soul does shout

nothing past can draw my heart
life must have a brand new start
so here i am  -  depressed but eager
resources lean but not yet meager

knowing life does have it's plan
in time to share with this mere man
as we once again take part
in what will be a brand new start

angel

there are two angels

at the gates of heaven


one to remind you

of what you did do

and confirm what you did


one is to remind you

of what you didn't do

and confirm what you didn't do


some consider the latter

the dark angels


i don't always agree


sometimes what i didn't do

tells me more about my self

than what i did do

giving

don't ever give anyone anything

that you would not want back


wanting and not wanting

are the same

me and truth

we get along

most days


some days

we just get along


and some days

we just are


which i guess

is just plural

for am

pride

a very dangerous word

thinking

we are taught to think

which slows us down


thought is retrospective

an interest in the past


life is forever now


being is the way of knowing

irresistible

just a slang term

for resistible


mostly used

by those that resist


and an expression

of self deception


which they sell

to their lesser selves


we all see life

in our own way

until we don't

true

what if all is true

and there are no lies


and we are guilty

of self deception

face

the only way

to face me

is to face your self


and it only works

if i am facing

my self

what if

what if

the people telling us what to do

don't know what they are doing


now we get to see

what we will do


knowing is a very personal word

and we all have to find our own way


as we can

approval and disapproval

these words seem to be

the hallmark of our time


don't really know what hallmark means


what the words mean

is accept this and reject that

and live with less than whole


which seems to me to be

a pretty crappy deal


less is not actually an option

we just get more crap than usual


have been reading

the perfumed scorpion

strangers on a train

that sounds like

the story of my life


and the story of a few others

i have met

along the way

want

a rejection of what life is offering


recognizing what is needed or required

is far more valid and constructive

than creating conflict

rejection

a situation i am familiar with


most often

by those that claim

to want me


want is a demanding word

and not a seeker of sharing

want is a be mine now word


which is


probably whatever you think it is


but it ain't me

wanting

the greatest curse of all


just another self inflicted wound

on us all

resistance

how does on overcome resistance

well the trick is

don't resist

time

and there came a time

when life asked me

what i cared for


and i said woman


and then i cried

bread

the bread ain't ready

till it's ready

as every baker knows

this plane of existence

our plane

manifests itself

as dominance

and submisiveness


and the trick is

both must accept

the truth

of what we all are


and the clue is

we are both


and that's just to start with

Life

Life is not about getting what we want

Life is about the Truth of what we share


the truth of what we are


and to know what we are

we must face the truth

of what we are

which is not a product of thought

and just another silly idea


not ain't much of a word

Idries Shah

have read a lot of his books over the years

and am really glad i did

they helped a lot

life

so many in our time

want life to be other than it is

which ain't a smart move

and a very dangerious game to play

protect

protecting your self from me

makes being with you

very difficult


which is my nice way

of expressing that situation

seeing

perhaps if we could see

what we are doing


we would not find ourselves

so facinated with

what we are doing


the first step to seeing

is to slow down

and quit trying so hard


which will only lead

to tunnel vision


and a hidden life

which don't sound like much

of a life to me


life is a treasure

to be shared

by those that  can share

without a price tag

resist

to resist life

is to make life

a little less fun

which don't make much sense to me


cold is still difficult for me

business

business is a war like enterprise

and always leads to conflict


and submission and slavery

nothing

nothing is tolorable

if you ain't too picky


we still

get to be

what we are


we always have our self

if we're willing

being stupid

it is important to always know you're being stupid

when you're being stupid


cause if you don't

you really are being stupid


innocence is only for the child


all else is ignorance

training

those that rely on their training

will not survive

life is in our natural instincts

which training seeks to dominate and control


this was once the warriors code

and the only way to survive

until it was time to die

statistics

those that only examine

statistics and stuff

can never know life

which is what we are


all of us

life

life is just making deliveries

giving

don't ever give anyone anything

that you don't want back


and never expect anything

reading

mostly we read

what catches our eye


but in time

we must also read

what didn't catch our eye

the penny joke

that joke was about sex


first you hung a penny

by a thread from your left hip


and about girls


then you hung a nickel

by a thread from your right hip


now you move you hip

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the penny

hit the nickel


then you hung a quarter

by a thread to your ass

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter


then you hung a dime

down there in your front

between you legs


hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the dime

hit the penny

hit the nickel

hit the quarter

hit the dime


hit the dime


hit the dime

hit the dime

life

the only one

that can ask a question

with out an answer

and laugh

interpreter

any one who needs

an interpreter

is not listening

iphoto

have loved and used iPhoto for years

now it tells me

i am out of date


i got the app store

and no updates

are available to me


good bye iPhoto


some one hijacked me

and capitalized the t's


pretty sure i didn't do that


i was kind of pissed off

about not getting and upgrade

end

in life

you go from

the begining

to the middle

to the begining


there is no end

heaven and hell

the opposite end

of all that is


we humans

have tricked our self


here in this land of dualities

john norman and the gor books

the early books in that series

were great

and very educational


after that

they were just crap

and of no value at all

woman

all i can say to woman


you must face your self

to face me


which will only happen

if i can face my self

innocence

a nice word

for the freshly ignorant


and our ignorance

in our own time

we must all face

prayer

another form of rejection

of what actually is

with all those expectations

and hopes and wishes

which are just dreams

and creations of our imagination

which are just our hopes and wishes and dreams


we sleep

until we don't


wake up

if your willing

to face truth

which is the greatest gift of all

hoping

hoping is actually

a rejection of

what actually is


an escape tactic


as is wishing

and trying

and all that other crap

a clock

if you need a clock

to tell you

what time it is


you probably

ain't very good

at being who you are


or where you are

write a book

maybe some day

i will write a book


i will call the book

the dragon

who loved me


and then

i will run for cover

medal

when you medal

in your own affairs

you expose your self

to those who like to medal

in the affairs of others


mostly because they are afraid

of their self


actually in this comment

was referring to meddling

as in interfere


was not sure of the spelling

opponent

who ever you choose

for your opponent

is who you will dance with

tragedy

the tragedy of our time is

the boys don't know how

to be with the girls


and the worse tragedy is

the girls don't know how

to be with the boys


and the man and woman situation

hasn't happened in a long time

wining

life on this plane

is not actually about wining


life on this plane

is about losing gracefully