all life

all life is sacred

even the grass we walk on

and those we don't agree with


without respect for life

we are less than nothing

and a threat to our little world

and our self

courage

a false god

as is fear


they are two sides of the same nickle

as are pride and shame

what we have to face to be free

first we have to face what we pretend to be


then we have to face who we are


there are those who are not pretending

but very few in our time


most today promote their cover story

which is how they kill their human expression

and live a lie

which ain't really living


it will not be possible to love me

if you cannot love your self

i'm tired

and am not quite sure what to say now


i may just go lay down

had catarac surgery today

killing

killing is sometimes required on this plane


killing with hatred is the greatest crime of all

and can only lead to forgiveness


and there ain't no way to cheat

hatred

the greatest disease of all


and so many in our time wish to fly that flag

the creatures of the field and sky

are one with nature


the modern human

who now thinks

is a figment of his own imagination

and no longer one with nature


ideas are creations of the lost and alone

pain

how does one be open to pain


pain is just like everything else


if you can't be open to it

it will kill you


life is forever a clue

and never an answer


such is what life has been for me


and i am still here

matters

i don't even know what mattering means

and am not sure what matters


but matter does exist


as do i

there is more to life

than what we are doing

looking

so often we look

so rarely we see


and sometimes we quit looking

and then we go blind


when openness is not to be found

there is great sorrow upon the land

the thing

most today have acknowledged the validity of the thing


but not all

the straight arrow

life is all the is

which certainly must make life difficult



straight means in our time to be only one thing


and i get confused

because life is all that is to me



sometimes my lines intersect


intercetions


lots of control devices at the intercetions

eight

seemed to me the greatest number of all

until i met a nine

which was just a zero with a tail

to control life

would be the greatest sacrilige

and a great curse upon all that is sacred


so life seems to me

what i call my life is just happening

i have no sense of control over anything

and experience nothing to take credit for

or anything to take blame for mostly


mostly i just wonder

and show up and take part as i can

and the girl did not know how to give

for she had never been accecpted


anthough a couple of times excepted

it is a stupid word

as is that

and mine

and yours

and ours


our words are so small

those that would hurt girls

make it very difficult to call the friend


and to hurt a child

makes it almost impossible to me


it is the clue

the day the war started

or perhaps the day it ended


april 12, 2013


3 12 13


all simple numbers

there are those who go to where we once were

and those that go where we are yet to be

my father

now he never actually spoke to me

but he was there


that is about the best i ever did

and i am a bragert

desperately lost and alone

where we are in my time

if you happen to be me



most are not

but a few remember me


sometimes without regret

the lonelyest people in the world

that would be me

and my friend i call jim

and a girl i like i call terri


and all my other friends

bea

she was a girl i liked


i feel so fortunate

that there have been so many

afraid and fearless

not yet quite sure how all that works out

we don't walk in line

and we don't do the party line


who are we


that is the quest ye on

bound by convention

a pretty terrible place to be


have no use for conventions


my experience has been

somewhere other people decide how things will be for me


and i seem to be one that chooses for himself

and on his better days lets life choose

and don't much give a dam who you think i should be

what do you say to the perfect woman

hello

if you can

the sessions

a movie i watched tonight


i liked the movie a lot


it was about us cripples

i was learning how to see a woman

and she was afraid to see me

want

the ultimate selfish word

the two ways to be with a girl

one is to give the girl what she wants


the other is to not give the girl what she wants


there is another way

but that way has nothing to do with what we want

if i hadn't had the balls to face me

there would only be one of us here

and the clock approaches midnight

if it were not what they call day light savings time

why won't he just go to sleep

that is what i have so often wondered

life

life is just me right now

without all that speculation


awareness is not a product of thought

and neither am i

and neither are you

whoever you might be

or i might be



might is a silly little word

and i wonder who is kissing you now

an old song

from a long time ago


when i cared


the sad part is

i have always cared

and i always will

so many wonder who did the walls and the roof

i don't wonder as often as i once did

but when i do

there is the ever present ceiling


and i wonder who did the floor


if there happens to be a floor in our time

catarac surgery

that can effect how one sees


which is what has just happened to me

the possibility of being wrong

that only comes about if one wants to be right


which is sometimes called wright

life

life was old and out of date

they day "it" was born

i just forgot what i was about to say

remembering is just dying all over again

had catrac surgery today

seemed to go pretty well

i liked heather

and dr. bogey did a great job


dr. bogey is kind of cute

which i found unusual for a doctor

the god word

for me god means all that is


that's the only way i can do that paritcular word


and all that is

is all that we are


we is the clue


as is all

a war of the people

all wars are against people


we are all people

as are the creatures of the field

and the field

want

the most dangerious word on this planet

and probably a few others


a cursed word

and not worthy of our consideration


and such a popular word in our time


to serve that word

is a sad road to walk


and no longer a friend of mine

what mr berko said

i happen to agree

he said they can't fix this thing

it is far too complicated

i noticed that years ago

and i ain't all that bright


but we can be who we are

and find out if life still responds to truth

have wondered if anyone actually spoke to me

a few did

far less than a dozen

but a few

am not sure what i should do

perhaps i should do nothing

and just wait and see what happens


over the past few years has become my favorite choice

cause i don't know has been my only response to this situation

my eyes

they don't work so good anymore

and have not for a while


the eye doctors claim they can make that so again


tuesday i will find out if such things are true

or possible from where i am

some lines come together

some lines don't


intersecting lines are a curiousity to me


as is life


i have no control over anything


and finally don't need that crap

everyone wants to be noticed

and no one is quite sure what that means


and the best of us will never find out


and the best of us died a long time ago


even before we were born into this hell hole

smoke gets in your eyes

and old song from a long time ago

when music was still music

the untouchable one

leads to two

and tragidy is upon the land

modest

am not sure what that word means

perhaps a secret


am not sure what secret means

i don't know

the story of my life

my friend

they have all been my friend


and i did not yet know

that they was a form of rejection


as is them

and those

and that

yes

my favorite word


no is a dumb word


and i am still prejudice


perhaps god will help me

the untouchable ones

now that is a worthy question

and question is knot the way


one is a very simple number

and like zero

not a number at all


numb burr

another clue

once i was of the poets

and once of the warriors

but mostly of the fools

help

and the trick is

recognizing what help actually is

and who we are actually trying to help

attractive

a selfish word

and i sign of personal greed


need can only lead to greed


the creatures of the field wean their offspring

humans not so much anymore


mostly we modern humans seek to destroy the field

and create some sort of unnatural place to be

profit

the curse of our time


greed is a harsh mistress

and an unforgiving bitch

has been my experience with personal gain


when personal gain is the only goal

life becomes a very lonly existance

and alone is a very lonly place to be


to reject life is to reject our self

and our personal experience

which is all we have here in a place like this

and nothing seems so little to us capitalist

and no thing is what we actually are

as is every thing

the virgin girl

there is the truth of the virgin girl

and the truth of the girl who is not a virgin


and here we are

as we can be

or perhaps not be

as is sometimes the case


case is the clue

in our time

know thy self

now that is good advice

i read that somewhere


the only way to know ones self

is to be open to ones self

and live the truth of ones existence


our reactions are a clue to our conditioning

our responses are a clue to our nature

wanting

if we don't free ourselves from that situation

heavens gate will remain closed


and hoping for heaven after your dead

is just bullshit to me


heaven is a state of being

and we have forgotten how to be

no one deserves to be a prisoner

not matter what they have done


and that is what i have to say about that

to be a man

such is not permitted in our time

has been my experience


that stuff wasn't so bad to me

but to not permit woman

now that was a great crime if your me


and i am the boy that just said that

our problem

some people think our problem is what we use to escape


alcohole

drugs

coffee

our jobs

our family

all the various disney lands of our time


our problem is our desire for escape


our rejection of our situation


our great saddness about being born in this place

and this situation

life

life for you is from your point of view


life for me is from my point of view


ultimately life is just life

no matter what our point of view


such is how this situation seems to me

stocks

to make a profit when stocks are going up

seems natural to me

and just a human thing


to make a profit on stocks when they are going down

seems a perversion to me

love

as that word is expressed in our time

is a selfish possessive word

war is a stupid game

and wars popularity

says something about us humans


mostly about how ignorant we are


our stupidity is of monumental proportions


winning is just another way of losing


winning and losing

are two sides of the same nickle


as are pride and shame


one always leads to the other


and round and round we go

on this insane merry go round


or perhaps marry go round


courage is a false god

and bravery a cowards defense

what my father told me once

he told me that it looked to him

that i was about to let my alligator mouth

overload my canary ass


i have not called my father a liar yet


i still seem to be to me

the alligator mouth

with the canary ass


and that man spoke to me

the landing

what all birds have to do in their own time


we chickens have to lay our eggs

the mirical on 18th street

probably what i would call my life

if i had the guts to call it anything


or maybe the mirical on 23rd street

my cup has no bottom

that is a line i read somewhere a long time ago


and i still haven't forgotten what was said to me

if i had been a black person

i might have been a gospel singer

but i was a white person

and none of that crap we call capitalism worked for me


now i don't work anymore


i just be me as i can


we will see what comes next

some people are inclined to apologize for who they are

i am not one of them

i love life

don't claim to know why

i just can't seem to help it


it is not a real word to me

what we have shared

what life is all about

all creation

life loves all creation

as is lifes nature


most of us humans in my current time

find it very difficult to be open to all creation

much less loving all

human sexuality

there was a time that was a celebration of life

but that was a long time ago


our modern religions have pretty much put a stop to such experiences


and i personally consider that a crime against life


as is telling the children the devil will get them

if they don't do what they are told


there was a time the children were allowed to find their own way

but that was a long time ago

the question for us humans

most today seem to think that question is

what is wrong with you

and occasionally what is wrong with me


my question is what do we share

what do we have in common


the room usually gets very quiet about then

and the audience slips away quietly

and sometimes not so quietly


rejection is a cold and desolate placement

i have seen it so

praises sing

praises sing and night bells ring

all around this precious thing

places and faces and midnight races

all the while the nomad braces

more and more the onslaught rages

in the wind all ripped out pages

find me now  -  oh lord of love

we seek and pray thy long lost dove

will peace upon the land yet stand

must heart still face the burning brand

on and on the rage does rush

the bonds of shame a mighty crush

still the flame  -  it has not died

tho bled and fed on brutal pride

so far we hold the beach head slightly 

no longer bold and brave and mighty

battered troops once fresh and rested

now reel and waver  -  nearly bested

the hope that once so filled the heart

still lives  -  yet in the smallest part

tho battered  -  scarred and mortal weary

at dawn we stand to face the fury

no longer brave we could be called

but no  -  by god we shall not fall

to twisted minds that rule this land

with whip and chain  in brutal hand

we will not yield the sacred trust

nor feed upon the moldy crust

which the beast does offer gladly

all inflamed and grinning madly

tho tattered rag  -  thy flag once proud

and bleeding feet  -  tho head un-bowed

we face the dawn with shining faces

of doubt and fear there are no traces

for in thy time each heart does know

as life moves on its sacred flow

the soul of man will seek thy light

and move beyond this endless night

the whisper that i dimly hear

does speak that time may yet be near

oh yes  -  the force does feel some stronger

the soul cries out  -  not too much longer

the love long sought by this small band

does in truth feel near at hand

the stirring in the heart grows stronger

raging pain i feel no longer

the mission tho still unfulfilled 

will be complete as thou has willed

and light yet fill the hardest heart

thy love shall reach the darkest part

in time the sorrows past will fade

and truth regain this world you made

for as the story does unfold

eternal love each heart will hold 

i wish you and yours well


i wrote these words a long time ago

don't know where they came from

or where they have gone

yet they still inspire me sometimes


that and a dollar will get you a cup of coffee

as they used to say

here in the land of the lost

the human experience

we all come here and make our contribution

for better or for worse


and mostly we have different ideas of better and worse

because we don't see the unity of life

to control life

to attempt to control life

is to be in conflict with life

my birth day

i still do not remember that day

but it still does be with me sometimes


that lost moment i can't seem to forget

the iron birds fly around the sky

and life has become a lost art


i tried to be an iron bird

as did my wife


and we just sank to the bottom of the pool


which is where we met

we are all rich

and poor is just a state of mine

which could not possibly be so

we are all limited by what we are

that is what i see


out limitations define us

and life makes us go

being a man

my father showed me


i still struggle with being a boy


and i have been in this skin over 68 years now

the sparrows

those little birds out there

are more alive than most humans i have met lately


not so sure about me


mostly i seem to be a waste of time


but sure is a word i don't understand

being a girl

the modern world is making that very difficult


being a woman is almost impossible


as is being a man  


and the children suffer greatly

Marjory Miller

this was her house for a while

lying to the children

perhaps the greatest of all crimes

saturday mail delivery

we get less

the mail carriers get less

and the big people probably get a raise


such is the way it is here

people count for nothing

profit is the only god

Life

life is to be

and never be controlled



unless your just dumber than silly stuff

and can only learn by being silly and dumb

which is the path i chose


and there ain't no never


do what you can with  that


and "that" is not a real word

"it" is just a re-action


a re in act ment

and the girl is sacred

even if she doesn't know what sacred means