what i see

is almost all i have

if i can't face my own blindness

how will i ever be able to face yours

when was the last time i wasn't mad

i actually don't remember

when the ice cycle melts

it returns to the air

from which it came


unless it lands somewhere

and then it becomes a part of where it landed

for a time

that which we have faced

is what we no longer have to fear

sex

and i would ask you

what about sex are you afraid of

rain

rain tends to land all over you

a drip tend to land on one place over and over

one thing i have learned

you can't hear when you yawn

at least i can't

fear

the saint most worship today

one way or the other


some cultivate fear

as governments and law enforcement people to


some claim to be able to free us from fear

for a price


they both lie


fear is just a figment of our imagination

we are the source of our fear

and that is a clue


we persist in abusing ourselves

until we don't

courage

a blind mans bluff

or a girls

our consciousness of ourselves

is always a relatively small part of ourselves

and probably shouldn't be taken all that seriously

wanting things from other people

not a very nice thing to do

and actually a great crime against the human race

and ultimately against the planet as a whole


wanting implies a lack

which we are not capable of

cause we are perfect

which is all life can do


now we humans do have the ability to be imperfect


we are naturally born free

which is natures way

and lifes

courage

is mostly just misleading


strong is the hiding place

of the weak

those that don't understand me

seems to mean they immediately distrust me

which is about the same way i do that stuff


trust is a strange word

what am i doing wrong

a question rarely asked anymore


that situation seems pretty arrogant to me


we don't seem near sharp enough to be getting everything right

at least not to me


yet so many claim they are

positive thinking

a very dangerous game to play

distorting ourselves with lies

will not improve our situation

and only makes our situation worse

courage

a blind mans dream

and the curse of those that fear life

woody guthrie

he saw what was being done to us

and that was before they got so good at doing us

and he suffered greatly for his seeing


the music helped a little

singing is more fun than cursing

but being here killed him

as it has most of us

but not all


life nurtures us

when we accept life as life is


rejection is knot the way

and very painful


the way of life

is the way of life

and no one gets a vote

unless they want one

which is a lot less than all


we each must speak for ourself

cause no one else can

except sometimes

training

don't much care for the training of dogs and horses and other creatures

and training human children is downright offensive to me

training is nothing more than slavery

lying

if we lie to ourselves

we lie to the children

and our friends

and everyone we meet


sometime the lying is unintentional

do to our training and beliefs and opinions

but is still lying


truth can only be manifested

truth cannot be created by man

truth can only be yielded to


the hopeful are lost

courage

a false god

and no friend of mine


mine is just a hole in the ground

all

a word so few can embrace

yet all is what we are

control

the god of the week

and the very weak

for so many in our time

but not all

time

just another illusion

another delusion

another attempt at control

and the god of the week

and the very weak

freedom

more than just a word

to think about

and to hope for

the health care industry

no industry i ever heard of

ever sought to put itself out of business

that would not be good business

and business is the rule of the day

for a time

employee

the modern word for slave

employed

there was a time we didn't have to be employed

to feed ourselves

but that was long ago

when we were free

we the people

there was a time we were people

but now we are addicted to electronic doodads

and other silly stuff


now we are the consumer

and we work for others

for trinkets and beads

and our daily bread


and life is no longer our friend

and fear and insecurity rule the land


and the doctors are among the rich

most of them

i knew one that wasn't

but he was among the few

life

far more important than money

and a lot more satisfying

some times

sometime life is a bitch

and life marches on

into every where

and every thing


there are those that still serve life

but their numbers are way down

in our time

the people at the top of the pile

are not focused on your self and my self

or even their self

they are focused on money

money is their god

that which the serve and long for


they don't even see us

and so often we fear our selves

sometimes you get what you want

sometimes you don't


and love lives somewhere in between

an astrology lesson

you can't grab water

you can't grab water

and astrology lesson

seeing and being

sound like different words

but thats not true

heaven loves me

an old bob dylan song i never heard

was about to say something

but it went away

dignity

all ye who seek such situations

are probably not going to like me

am not quite sure what is going on here

but am inclined to flush it anyway


and that is after extensive research

if you can't face where you are

facing where i am will be impossible


to reject your life

is to reject mine

building that pipeline from canada

may be in your best interest

but what is in your best interest

may not be what is best for you


am obviously not a banker

of even a light weight capitalist


i am alone here

as we all are

until we aren't

other stuff

mostly lately has been other stuff

to be

requires great devotion

and more than a little balls


even the girls have to find their little balls

is what they have in common with boys


man and woman can share the results of that situation

some times

when both are willing

which requires more than little balls


boys and girls are where we meet

man and woman is where we could be

if we were willing to be as we are

successful

to be successful

is to be the greatest of all failures

that

just another word for rejection

fears

it is important to face ones own fears

before one has to face an others fears

failure

far more have survived failure

than have survived success

stumble up on me

another one of my indian names

and i have earned them all


those that give names

are not familiar with names

has been my experience

and i went to wherever i was

there was no where else to be

am a little bit too tired to go upstairs tonight

and a little bit too tired not to

independence

a pretty scary word

if one is attracted to government

and the being of that stuff


governments are no fans of independence

they seek to prevent that ever happening

they serve the bankers

and the capitalist guys


and here we are

in the midst of all this exploitation

and wondering who we are

those that can still wonder

those that are not so sure

a lot of noise being made tonight

very little respect for silence in our time


as there was earlier

looking

a far cry from seeing

and a blind man

shall lead the way


cause he sees better than we do

we are just looking


was about to say something

but it's gone now

knowing

knowing is in the now

in the moment of being

thought is retrospective

awareness is not a product of thought


awareness is a product of being

and surrender to Absolute Truth

the only worthy goal


awareness has nothing to do with what we want

which only misleads us

liar

truthfulness is almost extinct here

we live in a time of political correctness

which came long after manners and rules of conduct

truth has been sacrificed on the alter of image

and liars rule the land

because we are so ignorant of ourselves

and freedom died so long ago

what was done to the native population

is now being done to us

complete submission is required

the 4th of july

the dogs bark

and the cats run and hide

and some of the dogs


welcome to america

at least the one i live in

war

a lonely career for man

and ultimately for woman

and then the children

you can tell a lot about people

by how stupid their dogs are

or those who cultivate cats

watching over

what am i doing

one thing is certain to me

i don't know

so to face myself

i must face not knowing

and my goal was to know

had a lot to say tonight

and decided not to say anything

at least not much

and it felt pretty good

courage

a thing of the past

don't really have much use for that crap anymore


am far too afraid for that

comments

most of the comments in this life

come from me


most of the others ignore me

and hope i will just go away

but not all


all is the friend

and our only friend

the lies

the lies almost won

because if i become a response to the lie

i must become a lie


a pisces friend of mine

showed me something that reminded me of that stuff

punishment

am no fan of that crap

can find no redeeming value in that stuff

hurting people for being ignorant

seems kind of cruel to me


i have my ignorant merit badge

and more than a few others

killing people

there are those that believe that

if someone kills someone they like

they should be killed

and then they become killers


there are those who believe that

if someone does something bad

something bad should be done to them

and they become doers of bad things

or perhaps just promoters of bad things


jesus spoke of these situations

but here in the bible belt

forgiveness is in short supply

and punishment all the rage


the courts are jammed

and the prisons full and overflowing


vengeance is a harsh mistress to serve

and we all become what we do

when we could have become what we are


but that's pretty scary stuff

to the average control freak

responsabilities

there are responsibilities we have to ourselves

and responsibilities we have to others

and our responsibilities to life


but what if we are not responsible


that situation is also possible

but only if we surrender our will

and that ain't very popular in our time

innocence is becoming very rare in the human population


much more common in the creatures of the field

who can't change anything

they just deal with it as they can

and we humans have been making that a lot harder for them

for a very long time

once you face hell

once you face hell

then you get to face heaven

life is a duality

and perfectly complete


once you face heaven

then you get to face hell

life is a duality

and perfectly complete

lightning bugs in the back yard

has been a long time since i saw so many

the children of nature

still see them in the back yard sometimes


humans somewhere back when

were children of nature

not so much anymore

humans for  a long time now

have sought only to conquer nature

which is conflict with the life support system of this planet

which is our mother

electricity

and artificial human thing

to pass in its own time

as all things do


ipods and all those do dads

are just stuff


you are not a thing

but part of you is

for a while

an old man

once i was who i felt like being

and now i am who i am

self

the scariest situation

one ever has to face

mourning

don't get into that

mostly a little game people play with each other

and their self

passing is a natural part of life

who would want to be human forever

openness

the greatest strength of all

open to self

and open to all life

how do you respond to those that are rejecting life

when life is all you see

sometimes a girl

just needs to be quiet for a while


24 hour hell ain't all that much fun

insurance

perhaps the greatest scam of all

second only to capitalism

and most religions

most everyone is trying to sell something

and life is not for sale

eager to please

the outcome of which

always depends on who or what you are looking at

and how they are looking at you

if they actually are looking at you

and not just caught up in your mystic

religions

they require sacrifices

and i find killing the fatted calf pretty silly

unless your hungry


calling it a gift to god

seems pretty silly to me

and that is when i am being nice

probably because my wife is in the room

and she is a natural born nice person

here is the land of the greatest lie of all

ideas

the greatest curse of our time

good

is just a little brother of bad

and bad thrives on that arrangement


submission is all to often

a personal choice

and not natural

should i chase the fox into the field?

and then i did

my biggest problem with religions

is that they indoctrinate the children

with how they should be

before they get a chance to be who they are

and see what they see


nations have their own version of that crap

as do neighborhoods

and gangs

and families

and friends

and enemies


and in our time

it just goes on and on

and here we are

propping each other up

and being supportive

a game for cripples

and here we are

dying

there many situations worse than dying

living a lie for one

democracy

divided and conquered

is what i see


life ain't a democracy

and as to who we are

we don't get a vote

if we find truth interesting

caring

the biggest problem i have


caring

what i could and often do

what think i want

from a personal point of view

which makes me pretty small and selfish

memorizing

telling children to memorize a lot of stuff

interferes with the development of the mind

and the being ones self


i call that stuff mesmerizing

and a crime against life

for profit of all things


modern education is designed to produce a workforce

as are most religions

not sure who or what to be

but am sure as hell

scared not to be myself

wanting

a thing of the past

now demands more than yesterday

i really don't know what to do

and that is my report

rejection

seems pretty hard to reject rejection

when rejection is the only mistake we can make

and we are so fascinated with losing

and being wrong

a young girls legs

are a long way from where i am


but i remember such things


and young girls are the sacred trust

as are we all


i don't expect to be popular

but i do expect me to be me

i drink alcohol

and smoke lucky strikes when i can get them

and i like me in some sort of way

and life goes on

as life can


is don't seem to help much

but i contribute as i can

not sure what else to do

am mostly pretty confused

rejection

rejection is knot the way

and am no fan of rejection


at least not yet

sometimes i have found

it is not always fun to be me

but that is not aways a valid reason

not to be me

to be a friend

to be a friend

in a friendless world

may be the greatest gift of all

if one can be a friend

in a friendless world

that

when we can't face that

we have lost the ability to face ourselves

because that is also what we are