as i see it

as i see it

the top and the bottom

no longer work together in harmony


which ain't natural


and probably not in our best interests

tears

they can be

the first step back

to actually having feelings

the down side of winning

is someone has to lose


we will have to work on that

a flash of light

in a sea of darkness


and here we are

winning

if anyone wins

we all lose

vulnerable

if we can't face our vulnerabilites

how will we ever be free


all those wars

ain't really

done us all that much good


the bombs are bigger

but we still have to be

somewhere


and hiding somewhere

ain't all that much fun

up and down

if you can't do both

you won't last very long around here

home

where ever i am

whether i like it or not


it is the clue

gratification

many confuse love with gratification

they love getting what they want

which is transitory gratification


love is a permanent state of being


perpetual would be a better word

love

most are afraid of love

love makes them feel vurnable

money

if we can't do without money

we will never be free

sexuality

we humans

don't seem to be

very comfortable

with our sexuality


that seems to be

where i am

all the heaven we got

is right here where we are

as mark said

the unknown

that which is new

one thing i have learned

just because you cannot be with me

does not mean i cannot be with you

thinking

awareness is not a product of thought

love

life is not about being a verbal affermation of the word love

life is about being love


and if your thinking about that

you don't get what was just spoken of

me

just an annoying little brother

courage

if you need courage to live your life

you aren't really living

the natural world

we modern humans are more and more

a long way from the natural world

which seems pretty wierd to me

and more than a little dangerous

life

life ain't about fuckin

life is about a loving touch

love

when an others situation

is more important to you

than your own situation

safe places

if you only go to safe places

you will never be free

a human being

a human being

is not the same

as a human thinking

serving

serving life

is not the same

as serving an idea

truth

if you can face truth

your are free


i have seen it so


accepting life

is the only way

to be with life


the only way

to be with life

is to be life

not sure what to say

probably should not say anything


but here we are



excuse me

our sense of adventure

that which first comes in conflict

with our sense of security


i guess wanting to return to the womb

and hide

dying

dying is as natural as being born

we get to be who we get to be for a while

then we move on


all that stuff about heaven or eternal hell

is just bull-shit


we all have to face our self

but life ain't cruel


only fucked up humans are cruel

and some cats

reveal your self

every mans dream


if your me

this house

when i was born

this house was pretty old

why

not sure what that word means

human

sure a lot of us humans on planet earth today


we have human primates


we have human beings


the human primates serve their self


the human beings serve life


life is all that is


all that we like

all that we don't like

face

if you can't face what your doing

how will you ever face who you are

want

the more you want

the more you lose


want always has a cost

to nights notes

walking in the forest


the known

the unknown


facing the known

and the unknown

(which could be considered new)

together


to get her

always thought that was kind of cute


am going to take a break now

wonder

i still wonder

who i am


probably a pisces situation

safe

a steel box

very hard to open


not sure why anyone would want to live there


maybe if that is all you got


feel like going and laying down now

two

if i could not do two

there would be no you

if your me

self control

when the children are taught to control their self

as is so common in our time

the self is no longer free to be its self

the god word

i have no interest in those different ideas of a god

maybe that's short for good


my interest is in life

which is all that is

and is not

love

to seek love is a fools errand

if you lack love

be love

ideas

figments of our imagination


and of no value at all

wanting to be with me

is a form of rejection

cause i right here

being open to you

and you haven't noticed me yet


you still want something

but it ain't me


probably some idea you are stuck on

wanting

the only way to be with someone you like

is to quit wanting them


have mentioned that situation previously to a few


that has not been so popular


the trick is to be willing to like someone

without expectation of reward

want

the sorriest of all curse words


and the cultivation of wants

within our fellow humans

is a great crime against life

the sacred trust

the constant reorientation

of the old and the new

the sacred trust

protect and assist as one can

the women and children

if your happen to be me

me

was once accused of being a man

and a lot of other stuff

want

a curse word

was going to say something

but don't remember what it was

locked doors

locked doors don't keep you safe

they just slow um down

and make um make noise



there is no security here

educated people

educated people

gradually lose the ability

to communicate with uneducated people


religious people

mostly experience a similar situation with their self

as do rich people and on and on


maybe we could just be the people we actually are


but few seem to


be able to face their self

and speak to their self


all of their selves


not just the one they are wearing

our train of thought

the source of our tunnel vision

how we dumb our self down


do you see what we have done to our little world

and are still doing


we are all wrong


that is our starting point

true life

true life

is always free

want

the art of avoiding

that which actually is

had something to say

but what ever it was

ain't being with me now

want

what if you can't face life

if you don't get what you want


i don't much like stuff like that


i almost said don't care for stuff like that


obviously scared of that want stuff

pearl harbor

my mother heard about pearl harbor on the radio

my father heard about pearl harbor

from inside the battleship w. virginia

keeping track of time

our greatest mistake

sentiment

the attitude i am confronted with

when someone tells me yesterday mattered

i wonder

thats about as far as i got

that

did you ever wonder

what does that mean


i did

religious people

those that seem to think

they are qualified to tell me

what their god wants me to be


we all have to find our own way


religious people are crazy

so it seems to me


we all have to find our own way


krishnamurti was right

all the conflict in the world

is coming from the conflicts within us all


and those conflicts come from

having ideas of who we should be

imposed on our self

and we go forward in life

imposing ideas on our self

with no opportunity to find our own way

with our true self


i asked my father once how to deal with all this

and his response was

"i don't know what to tell you boy -

your going to have to work that our for yourself"


and i have as i can


this life has not been well planned like so many

mostly i just keep up with this life as i can

ideas

ideas are a product of thought

awareness is not a product of thought

my motto

if it ain't free

i don't want none

a reader

what i was born to be

and i did

a question for a girl

how did you find yourself loving me

freedom

that which is no longer permitted

for quite a while now

me

sometimes i have been very hard to ignore

if your me

why

let me count the ways

wanting someone

wanting someone

is not the same

as accepting someone


wanting someone is actually

rejecting someone

and wanting someone

to be who you want then to be


mostly just control freak crap

and a dangerious game to play

in harms way

an old john wayne movie i just watched

have seen it several times


sometimes i wonder if we humans

will ever get past this killing each other


a lot of the people i grew up around

fought in that war


my father was in the navy at pearl harbor

when it started


he was reported killed

but that turned out to not be so


i'm a war baby

sex

human sexuality when its actually shared

is a celebration

which i have experienced in this life


most modern people are afraid of life

and seek protection from life

which they call security


which is a figment of their imagination

found

if you ain't never been lost

how you ever gonna be found

the circle

everything in life

goes in a circle

around the self

which is life

entertainment

what people are interested in

when they don't have a life


to have a life means

accepting who you are

where you are

girl

if the girls are not speaking to each other

we will not survive

innocence

lacking premeditation

science

the greatest tragedy of our time

this world

this world

is not a world that is thriving

and neither are the guys


no world can survive without girls

good

don't worry about being good


be true

never

never is a children's word

as is always


there ain't no security here


accept life

how much do you love life

that is quite a quest ye on


for most in our time not all that much


it depends on how much you want life to be in your dreams

being

being 72 years of age

is not the same

as being 26 years of age

can we face each other

that remains to be seen

bees

bees are important

but so are flies

my new indian name

many tears

what if

what if there is so much movement

and nobody really moves

politics

there is no place for politics

in truthful living


truthful manifestation of a human being

have become very rare in my lifetime

and they weren't all that common

when i was a kid

cheaters

only humans are capable of cheating

which is being untruthful in their self expression

the creatures of the field

and the field it's self

have no ability to manifest such a crime against life


the human race

we are the problem


our selfishness and our greed

and our control freak tendencies

and our terrible insecurities

which result in our desperate search for security


and there ain't no security here

plan

when we choose our personal plan

instead of life's natural order

we are fucked

being

can you be right here where you are

without resistance

want

to want something from me

indicates

you aren't interested in who i am

tangible

that word is the clue

hey bea

you still out there


i called her rossie bea

want

what you want

is what you are rejecting

if that was not so

you would not be wanting

there would be no lack

life

there is always where we are

and who we think we are

and who we probably ought to be


but who the hell are we

a message to marjory

i met you as a boy

but i came back from war a killer

and could no longer face you

what i thought

what i thought was

a virgin dragon could not exist

but i was wrong


awareness is not a product of thought

what you know

in my experience

what i don't know

has always been greater

than what i do know

the dragon joke

and the dragon said

i have processed 9000 years of evolution

i can do anything


and the monkey comes along and says

how about this

this ain't never been done before

respect for life

if you ain't respecting all life

you don't respect life

eights

if there are no eights

there will be nines

shangri-la

this is all the heaven we got

right here where we are


i really love that song

thinking

most people think what they are thinking is the truth

but that is rarely accurate

awareness is not a product of thought

some times i wonder

why we do what we do

i still wonder

the passage of time

four leads to eight

and five leads to nine

the greatest lack of the young

the opportunity to find their own way

which besides being a crime against life

creates a very dangerious situation in our world

afraid

had a comment to make about that word

but it ain't being with me now

are you happy or satisfied

who would want to answer that question

the hair on my face

what if i just let it grow

punishment

natural life doesn't have a punishment button

we humans came up with that crap

resistance

resistance is exhausting

if you are resisting your truth

the truth of who you are


i ain't referring to who you think you are

or who you think you want to be

thought

an initial misconception

uranus and mars

major inconjunction this evening

actually the third from aries and scorpio

life just goes on changing

when

when we build machines

to find the way for us

we are hopelessly lost

and pretty stupid

the gemini situation

that would be one being two

wild and free

what free means to me

not sure what to be

not sure what sure means

a shamed

if you have never been a shamed

you have probably never been religious

who we are

first you have to accept your self for who you are

then you have to accept everyone else for who they are


and i don't mean who we think we are or want to be

feelings

when our true feelings become secret

is when we become liars

not quite sure what i should be

and maybe wondering

what i could have been

if i tried


which i did not

love

if you don't love everyone

you have not experienced love

and everyone

includes your self

perception

awareness is not a product of thought

perception is the experience of being

a human being


or a bird or whatever

artificial light

the source of all our problems

blame

the most obscene word

that we humanoids

have come up with yet


come up with is the clue

each of us

each of us

in our own time

must find some way

to face our self

struggles

some times we struggle

with the time that we are

work

i just work here

but my friend

is the company

rejection

just because my presentation is being rejected

does not necessarily indicate i am being rejected

hi terri

thanks for putting up with me

forgiveness

if you are not guilty of blame

you will not have to express forgiveness

self

mostly anymore i just keep up with my self as i can

and be open to the truth of what we are

the truth of what we all are

the truth of all that is and is not


having preconceived ideas of what life is

can blind one to truth of what is

the native population

those that existed here before the invaders from the east showed up

would be greatly saddened by what has taken place in our little world

and so am i


there was a time we were free people being who we are

mostly in our time we live in the land of performances

which is a lot less than what we actually were created to be

it seems to me

vengeance

that is how you take a bad situation and make it worse


a perverse form of emotional gratification


we become what was done to us

being with me

being with me today

is not always like

being with me yesterday

wanting

probably the greatest personal affliction of all

and cultivated by so many in our time

human sexuality

the human race has a real problem with our sexuality

which is a serious problem which needs to be dealt with


pretty much everyone is taught to control their self

which is an anti-life attitude


we are teaching the children to stifle their self

and do what they are told

which is a form of suicide


we all have to find our own way

needs and wants

one can never be free

as long as that situation exists

being

it is one thing to be who you think you are

and quite another to be who you actually are


and the only way to experience that situation

is to let life have life's way with what you are



just got a comment on this post in what appears to me to be arabic

since i can't read it will probably pass

but we will see

that male female thing

we humans ain't having much luck with that situation


most of us don't have a clue

because we are afraid to face our situation here


we do love our games and do-dads

child abuse

the cruelest situation that can occure

is for the child to be told

to take control of its life

and i will tell you how


such crap is a great crime against life


we all must find our own way

and those clowns are making

our little human adventure

a great deal more difficult than need be


we all must find our own way


all this training is leading us astray

Education and the Significance of Life

a little book by J.  Krishnamurti

and a significant contribution to the human race

awareness

awareness is not a product of thought

thought

thought is always retrospective

now

true life is always in the now

ten beers

my indian name

profit

the problem with this capitalist system

is that the humans running this show

want profits always to go up


everything and situation in life in our little world cycles

which makes that attitude in conflict with life

which is pretty stupid and dangerous as hell


greed is a great obscenity

and becoming all to common

in our little world

the validity of your presentation

perhaps a clue

to our situation here

a pipeliners kid

what i got to be

government

who in their right mind

would seek to be governed

life

life ain't actually a get it situation

life is actually more of a keep up with life situation


all we really get is who we are

and the sharing of that situation

what

what goes up

must come down

on this plane


it is usually best

not to think to much


awareness is not

a product of thought


and neither are we

ownership

the dumbest word humans have come up with yet


and the most cruel and misleading

my story

my story

is who i am


our story

is who we are


all of us

past and present

and future

hands

these hands aren't for sale

although they have been rented out


and there is me

a line from a song

it's a line from a mark knopfler song


and i'm staring in the mirror

at the face that i deserve

almost over

tho this life is almost over
and i'm slightly bent
still my soul does wonder
just what it all has meant

all the struggles and wars
seem so petty and small
and the dreams of the youth
such a long distance call

here at the end
with no fight left inside
it seems such a waste
all the truth we did hide

ideas and dreams
that we try to make real
oh so important
how we'll lie and we'll steal

one thing over learned
in this game we call life
love is so rare
in this land filled with strife

accept who you are
and the same for all others
it's not right to hurt
for in truth we're all brothers

the religious nature

the true religious nature

is non-denominational


so life seems to me

pride and shame

two sides of the same nickel

the final answer

questioning life

is knot the way

self

facing your true self

is the only way to truly live


not facing your true self

will create a distorted relationship with your self

which means you are misrepresenting your self

as you express your self


and that will lead to the situation we have on our little planet today


there is much that needs to be done

there is also a sacred trust

that would be life

all life


all life that is

has ever been

or will ever be

trust

the tool of the control freak

the manipulators first line is usually

trust me


for those that are truly free

trust is not part of the equation


when all are free

there is no need for trust


trust is really a stupid fuckin word


awareness is not a product of thought


and as the security alert to the left says

there ain't no security here


hiding from life

ain't no life at all


finding someone you can trust

is seeking someone who will submit

to your will

who will give you what you want

who will be your slave

ideas

the lost world

another great escape attempt

Sagittarius

there ain't no kings in Sagittarius

life is the ocean

when you tell someone
its ok to be themselves
it is generally taken to mean
that it's ok to gratify the idea
that they have of themselves

this is not helpful

but it sells a lot of books

to have and idea of ones self
does not necessarily indicate
any true awareness at all

ideas are a product of our  -
or someone else's  -
imagination

ideas are bubbles blown in the ocean

life is the ocean

awareness of the ocean
cannot be achieved
by thinking about the ocean

an awareness of the ocean
can only be achieved
through the direct experience
of the ocean

which can only be achieved
by a complete openness
to the truth
of the oceans existence

without any preconceived idea
of an ocean

become as little children
was good advice

yet rarely taken

children have no ideas at all
until we infect them with them


          ***********


and the tumble turd bugs
were upon the land

rolling their little balls
of waste material

fighting for their share
searching everywhere

always on the go
no time to be slow

having  -  having
is our game

destroy the world
don't give your name

we start in on children

we start in on children
so early today
to program their minds
when they should learn how to play

a child needs the time
to first know its self
and it hurts to be told
to just get on that shelf

with no time to consider
just what this might be
we rob them so quickly
of their right to see

it seems clear to me
the old ways not so smart
as we rip up this planet
and tear at its heart

in spite of the terrors
which now fill the land
the stink of pollution
so carefully planned

we still tell them all
that "i know whats best"
but the results that i see
sure don't pass the test

the innocence found
in the eyes of a child
a master once spoke of
in terms not so mild

"be as the children"
is what was once said
the will to respect them
seems mostly quite dead

most just play roles
that were forced in their mind
with no thought of nature
now so hard to find

a fresh look at life
is the gift of new birth
if we don't respect it
then what is it worth

punishment

if you seek to punish me

or any expression of life

you will be punishing your self

our self

money

what i want

in this little world

depends on how much money i have


there is actually more to life than that stuff

want

if you are not free of want

you are not free

sexuality

the one topic

humans seem to be the most interested in avoiding


which is not how life has been for me

the mason dixon line

consumerism is an enslaveing system

as are the religions i am familiar with


freedom is in short supply in our little world

and more killing and conquest ain't going to help

Love

most people i see

seem to think

love is about gratification

about getting what you want


that ain't what i see happening here


don't seem to be too much love

in our little world


to love life is to cherish and serve life

in all of life's expressions and manifestations


we all have to find our own way

beliefs

am no fan of beliefs

at best we just guess from that position


and religious beliefs

are particularly dangerous

because they are considered sacred


guessing and sacred


i will have to pass on that


i would rather just wonder what is going on

and keep up as i can

thought

thought is retrospective

and of the past


Life is forever of the now


a little retrospect perception or examination

can sometimes have value

but you don't want to get lost there

Life

Life is not about

what we have done

in the past


Life is about

who and where we are

right now

fear

most don't know why they are afraid

they just are


these are those that don't yet recognize life

but think they do

wanting

the greatest curse of all


life is all potential

we little organisms called human

choose for our self

until we don't