facing your self

if you aren't facing your self

the truth of your life

you are throwing your life away


to face our self

we must be open to who we are


which is not the same as

an idea of who we think we are

or what we want to be


thinking about life

and being open to life

are not the same

and we have been taught to think almost from birth

which is nether intellegent or kind

and is now our greatest problem


awareness is not a product of thought

life can be pretty scary

if you think about it too much

free men

they mostly don't wear hats

but some do

how to really live

be willing to be

who you are

where you are

in all truthfulness

Life

the purist experience of Life

it seems to me

is to want nothing from Life

and accept Life for what Life Is


wanting something from Life

invites the potential for disapointment in to the experience


and even lead to frustration and anger

which is so common in our little world in our time

and apparently for quite a while

assumptions

a pretty dangerous game to play


i find life more comfortable

when i just pay attention

and keep up with Life as i can


and there ain't nothin out there

or within us all

that ain't Life


most of us seem pretty confused

most of the time it seems to me

cus we ain't paying attention

when we are thinking

ideas

most ideas are just bull shit

some seem nice enough

some not so nice

but ideas are a form of mental masterbation

products of thought


Life ain't a product of thought

and neither is awareness of life


thought is just a mind game

at best just not very interesting

at worst dangerious as hell


in our time all these ideas about how we should be

are the source of so much conflict within ourselves

and in our little world


to be our self

and accept Life as Life is

we have to be open to Life as Life is

and  be of service to Life as we can


but first we have to be open to and with

Life as we are Life

and i ain't seen much of that in over seven decades

but some

tai che

to me that means

cling to nothing

be with all that is


pretty sure i didn't spell that right

one thing you got to learn

no two are exactly alike

and we are all the same

how to really live

don't want anything

and be willing to serve life


not such a big deal

unless your a greedy little bastard

or little bitch


wanting is the most dangerous game of all

and giving that crap up would be a great step forward

for the so called human race


life is all of us

and a whole lot more

thinking

the human race is sure thinking a lot lately

that's not very smart

speaking truthfully

that can be dangerious in some circles

and in some circles not permitted at all

preforming

pre forming

means making it up in advance


most of the girls that preformed for me

expected me to preform for them


sometimes that worked out ok

not always

be true to your nature

if you aren't

you ain't going to have much of a life

misrepresenting your self

and living a lie for all your friends and family

and  your self


ideas are just guesses

our truth is who we actually are

Life

most today seem inclined

to plan their Life


i have mostly been inclined

to keep up with this Life


i don't feel qualified

to plan a Life


my father was the only person

i ever asked for advice like that

and only once

his response to me was

your going to have to work that out for your self


he was a good man

and my friend

conflict

Krishnemurti was right

the source of the conflict in the world

is the conflict within we humans


we are source of all these problems

but we sure like blaming others for them


and besides all our inner personal conflicts

there are all these conflicting ideas about

how we should be and preform


peace is a state of being

as is love

an other mark knopfler song

and on a parapet

a scottish piper stands alone


i knew him

the scottish piper


he was and is my friend

hurting people

until we get past

the inclination to hurt people

we shall know no peace or happiness