don't be late

will and willing

in the old days

i was offended by will

will full ness that stuff was called


willfullness was a bad word to me


i cultivated willingness in my self


which was just as dumb


life is not about will

life is about being

which is static

being born

being born in this world

is like being born into slavery

for so many


they don't get a vote in their life

until they are trained and programed

and don't know who they are


and then


this kind of crap

sure ain't made the world a better place

which is our job


all of us


so many are lost in thought

and emotional turmoil

my

a posessive word

and very misleading

wild

in the english language

and in most languages i assume

but i don't know for sure

wild means untamed

and uncontrolable


in my personal language

wild means free


well trained animals aren't free

and neither are well trained humans


free is very important for life to be


free is more than the word or the idea

free is a state of being with ones self

and all selves

abuse

if you abuse any manifestation of life

you abuse your self

and all your other selves

knowing

if you seek to know truth

what you think you know will block your way

understanding

if you want to understand

the want will block your way

praises sing

praises sing and night bells ring
all around this precious thing

places and faces and midnight races
all the while the nomad braces

more and more the onslaught rages
in the wind all ripped out pages

find me now  -  oh lord of love
we seek and pray thy long lost dove

will peace upon the land yet stand
must heart still face the burning brand

on and on the rage does rush
the bonds of shame a mighty crush

still the flame  -  it has not died
tho bled and fed on brutal pride

so far we hold the beach head slightly
no longer bold and brave and mighty

battered troops once fresh and rested
now reel and waver  -  nearly bested

the hope that once so fill the heart
still lives  -  yet in the smallest part

tho battered  -  scarred and mortal weary
at dawn we stand to face the fury

no longer brave we could be called
but no  -  by god we will not fall

to twisted minds that rule this land
with whip and chain in brutal hand

we will not yield the sacred trust
nor feed upon the moldy crust

which the beast does offer gladly
all inflamed and grinning madly

tho tattered rag  -  thy flag once proud
and bleeding feet  -  tho head up-bowed

we face the dawn with shining faces
of doubt and fear there are no traces

for in thy time each heart does know
as life moves on its sacred flow

the soul of man will seek thy light
and move beyond this endless night

the whisper that i dimly hear
does speak that time may yet be near

oh yes  -  the force does feel some stronger
the soul cries out  -  not too much longer

the love long sought by this small band
does in truth feel near at hand

the stirring in the heart grows stronger
raging pain i feel no longer

the mission tho still unfulfilled
will be complete as thou has willed

and light yet fill the hardest heart
and love shall reach the darkest part

in time the sorrows past will fade
and truth regain this world you made

for as the story does unfold
eternal love each heart will hold

opinions

mostly what we think is probably true

basically our best guess

which seems to indicate to me

we aren't sure what truth is

blame

when you blame another

for being where you are

you throw your self away

selfishness and greed

a great affliction on our little planet

in our time


where do you suppose

all that crap came from

thinking

a human thinking is a long way

from a human being


awareness is not a product of thought

want

when what we think we want

is the most important thing in the world

we are really fucked up

and a dangerous threat to others

and our little world


we humans have a lot of growing up to do

to once again become

humans being

anger

aggressive self pity

directed at others usually


just a brat way of blaming others

for not getting what i want from them


wanting others to submit to our will

is pretty chicken shit behavior

which is about the nicest way i can express that


we humans got a lot of growing up to do


we humans are the source of all this conflict and suffering

in our little world

fighting and killing

over our petty little ideas and opinions

and our terrible selfishness

lesbian

some lesbian girls

do other girls

some lesbian girls

don't do anyone

except their self

which is also becoming more popular

with the male part of the population


not much sharing of our self anymore

just getting what i want from you

who ever you are


which is an obvious misunderstanding

looking for something

if your looking for something from life

you are obviously lost

and blind to your self

the man of truth

the man of truth

or woman of truth

is the greatest fool of all

judging by what i have seen

in my wanderings on this planet

security alert

look to the left side of page

wanting me

a state of rejection

if your me

cause i'm right here

being me

winning

only the winners lose

and only the losers win


choosing is a lonely game

knowing what you are doing

knowing what you are doing

and thinking you know what your are doing

are not the same situation


awareness is not a product of thought

thinking

the quickest way to confuse my self

as i have proven to my self

so many times

keeping score

if you are keeping score in life

you will soon lose track of

what is actually taking place here

where you have been

if you don't know where you have been

you may have a difficult time

getting where you are going

beliefs

those that recognize truth

have no interest in beliefs


most that choose a belief

are generally insecure

and a belief makes them feel more secure

when they still aren't

but they think they are


and all these conflicting beliefs

are leading to all the violence and hatred

in our little world


and we humans are the source

of this great tragedy

fun

the only way to have fun

is to be who and what you are


and i am not referring to

who you think you are

or what you think you want to be

which is rejecting who you actually are